Grief in the Stereo| Dazai X Male Reader

003; Shame

🎧 Song of the chapter 🎧
Good Old Fashioned Loverboy– Queen
'I'd like for you and I to go romancing'
'Say the word, your wish is my command'
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Third person POV;
Osamu and Y/N sat at the first floor café, eating lunch together, they didn't care that it was 3.30pm, they only wanted an excuse to see eachother. They didn't entirely know that they were so helplessly in love, I wouldn't blame them. The sky outside was clouded, but it was a lovely, a dim winters afternoon, the snow fell outside and the two watched the snow as if it was manipulating them to.

Your POV;
Dazai and I sat at a booth in the first floor café, watching the snow fall. It was beautiful outside, and I wouldn't miss it for the world. As I stared out I got lost in the moment, and ate my [favorite food] slowly, enjoying every bite, even trying to give some to Dazai.

'Y/N, I was wondering, if you'd like to go to a bar tonight? Or visit someone? Or maybe both?-' Dazai seemed more upset than usual, he had sunken down, I could see that his mental health has deteriorated, I reached my hand over and grabbed his.
'Of course Osamu,' I smiled, it was fake but nobody knew, I was a master of illusion.
Dazai intently looked at the waitress and beckoned her over, cupping her hands in his, I felt jealous, but I didn't know why.
'My dearest Belladonna, please, commit a double suicide with me!~' I deadpanned at the waitress, I despised women who acted as if they should be taken away by only one man every night, women who fished for men, reeled them in, and set them free. That was the type of person she was, a disgusting catfish.
'You can do it whenever you like, just do not involve me,' just what I meant, a slut.
'Awh.. my heart aches!!- I just want to commit s double suicide with a beautiful woman!~' dazai leant onto the table and that's when I noticed, he had grabbed my hand back, and was caressing my knuckles with his thumb, I don't think that's what people who are just friends do.
'Osamu, you know you don't need a beautiful lady when there's a hot man right in front of you~' my tone was playful with a hint of malice, dazai smirked and looked around.
'I dont see him anywhere!~' He turned to me and giggled.
'Ugh! How rude of you~ what am I? A rat?' I mimed dying dramatically.
'Nooo~ my dearest Y/N!! Don't die on me, if you die I die!!~' He clutches my hand and squeezes hard, standing and sitting next to me rather than across from me. Dazai hugs me again, I feel butterflies sprout in my stomach, I hug him back and bury my face in his shoulder.

'Osamu, that waitress is just going to keep saying no, it's better to just give up and try to find another lady.. uh, person' I smile awkwardly, my face still buried in his shoulder, I believe he could feel the tension points in my face changing because he leans back and ruffles my hair.
'No, I don't think I need another one,' I kept repeating what he said over and over again.
'Really? Why?' I was intrigued by his sudden response.
'I'm not sure but I might have found someone else already..' He seemed to look away when I tried to see his facial expression.
'Im sure they'd love you back, I mean who wouldn't? You're a lovely friend, you'd make a lovely partner, Osamu,' I smiled at him and ruffled his hair.

We walked out of the café chatting and smiling, we walked around, I perused shops, Dazai looked for snacks, we met back up near a waterfountain across from a bakery and handed eachother what we had bought. He handed me a white rose, a new book, wireless headphones and a bag of snacks. On the other hand I handed him a beanie, messenger bag, another guide to suicide book and lollies, I ruffled his hair and stepped back a couple of steps. I pulled out an album from my bag and handed it to him, it was filled with pictures of the two of us and the agency, on the last page we all wrote a message for Dazai.