Grief in the Stereo| Dazai X Male Reader

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Easter With The ADA:

Your POV:

It had finally hit Easter! I had to go in to the armed detective agency for a party later but it was perfectly fine with me. I looked beside me and realised Dazai missing, it didn't really mean much, he did say he wanted a headstart to the agency after all.

I had gotten dressed into some casual clothes and put a bottle of whiskey, along with two glasses, into my messenger bag. I pull it over my shoulder and walk into the 'reading room' which in reality was just a spare bedroom and opened a drawer pulling out an odd amount of presents and cards.

I left the house, and had made sure to lock it before heading towards the agency.

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As I had entered I see everyone struggling to put up a banner.

'Are you guys seriously this bad at hanging up banners?' I groan as I take a step forward and speed up time and put the banner up. I notice the bleeding, due to the pain, most likely.

As time stops everyone starts cheering. I then recieve a hug from Naomi.

'Thank you Y/N!!' she cries clinging onto me.

'Its alright, really.' I pat her back reassuringly.

As she finally let's go the 'party' begins, Dazai's sitting on a table. I make my way over to the table and sit next to him.

'Hey, do you want a drink?' I ask him, putting on a somewhat reassuring smile.

'Is it spiked?' He chuckles and leans closer, and rests his head on my shoulder.

'I dont know..!' I smile as I pour two glasses and hand one to him.

After the second glass for me and Dazai, Yosano has already had a whole bottle of wine.

'She's gonna have the worst hangover ever.'

'Yeah she will..' Dazai agrees.

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Everyone hands out their unique presents. I end up with a new pair of gloves, a book, chocolates and a letter.

I decide to read the letter.

Dearest Y/N,

I just wanted to tell you how much I love you. I would describe it in words. Words cannot describe it, they can't even begin to, and I find it funny that they can't, I think it's rather silly that there can't be enough words to describe a mutual feeling.

And if one day, you wanted to kill yourself, tell me. Because I'd rather do it with you rather than deal with another loss.

I love you.

~Osamu.

I tear up instantly, I hug Dazai tight.

'I love you too.' he says.

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New Years!

Your POV:

I watch the fireworks, as I have my hand intertwined with Dazai's, I smile to myself.

'When I go, I hope I'll go out just as beautifully.' a soft voice says, I turn and realise it's Dazai. I smile and lean against his arm.

'I'd prefer if you didn't go at all!' Atsushi frowns.

Dazai stares into space before I snap him out of it.

'Samu, he's right.' I look at him, he avoids my gaze. 'Please..'

He looks at me with so much sorrow in his eyes I wanted to start crying.

'We both know I can't make that promise.' my heart breaks into all different pieces. Did he seriously just tell me he'd prefer to die at this moment?

'Dazai-san, with all due respect, you have a boyfriend. Think about how he'd feel if you.. if you killed yourself!' Atsushi looks.. angry?

'I know. I'm sorry.' he frowns.

'Lets just enjoy our new years.'

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