you and me to the end of time

Chapter 3: The best and worst concert of my life

Maria POV

I am really glad that I didn't get too hurt yesterday when I tumbled to the ground with J-hope. I just hope nothing happened to him, but he didn't seem like he got hurt. i don't know what i would do if i was the reason he couldn't perform. Well today is the day of the concert and i have to get ready and look my best when i get to meet them backstage afterwards. I stand and take a long shower and notice a purple bruise has formed on my hip, at least it doesn't hurt that much that it is affecting anything. getting done i rinse my face and begin to dry myself off, going into my suitcase to find the perfect outfit i picked out back home. it's a nice black dress with purple lines, showing just a bit of cleavage but not enough for it to look too slutty, putting on all my clothes i begin to fix up my hair, curling it a bit, and putting it up in a loose half ponytail, then finishing off the look with some light makeup, taking one last look in the mirror i feel satisfied and happy. for now i haven't gotten any calls from my mother and if she calls today i don't think i want to pick up. I don't want her to ruin the best day of my life, with whatever bullshit she can come up with. grabbing my purse I make sure that I have everything including the upgraded ticket and VIP pass, then i grab a coat as I might get cold later then begin to head out of my hotel room. feeling more excited than I have ever been.

I get to the venue and walk over to the VIP entrance, the line isn't long so it will take no time to get inside. Which is lucky since it is already beginning to get a bit chilly. as it is my turn i show my ticket and the guard moves me along to go in, my heartbeat begins to beat faster the further in i go, looking for my seat. As I find the seat I see how close it really is.sitting here waiting, i remembered that i never even got to tell them my name yesterday. Everything happened so fast and I still can't believe it actually happened. After a while the lights begin to dim and music starts playing. as people begin to cheer a message shows up on the big screen. "hello army. We would like to inform you that J-hope has had an accident yesterday and is required to sit down during this concert. We have the health of our idols as the first priority, but since it happened so close to a concert we couldn't find a way for him to not attend. fear not and cheer just as loud as you normally would. We promise that he will be fine. enjoy the concert. fighting! - Bang Shi-hyuk." my heart drops to the ground. oh my god he really did get hurt. how am i supposed to enjoy this concert knowing that i am the reason that he can't perform. He must hate me with every being in his body. I try not to gain too much attention as I just hold a hand to my mouth and the other to my heart. tears begin to form in my eyes and i just want to go since i really can't bear the thought of seeing him like this. not able to perform with the others. But I decided to stay and try to enjoy the concert as much as I can since I have been waiting for so long for this opportunity. drying my eyes I try to emotionally prepare myself for the sight I am about to see, then notice the staff put out a chair, it's right in front of me. oh no, now he will be so close and i will be able to see all the hurt he might show. Maria, stop it. Maybe he doesn't blame you for anything. I really have to talk to him after this when I get backstage. I really hope he does not hate me for this. I can't seem to find peace in my mind, even when I try to turn it around, it always lands on the negative. Why is the chair in front of me of all the places on stage? Then there is silence, and then suddenly music starts playing that tells us they are beginning. I take in a deep breath. As the lights shift to shine on the boys who are now coming onto the stage, the last person to enter is J-hope who looks amazing as always and has a smile on his face. But I know that smile is fake. He moves slowly over to the chair as he limps a little bit and sits down. He turns around a bit to look at ARMY with an apologetic look on his face and almost everyone he looks at whines and screams that it is ok. then with just a split second his head moves towards me and i think he has noticed me. but he doesn't look angry at me, he just smiles and this time i can tell by his eyes that it is genuine. a tear falls from my eyes as i look at him, feeling endlessly hurt that he has to sit down because of me. he just continues to smile then sends a 'ok' sign with his hands and mouths an 'im ok' as he looks at me then moves his head to look at more ARMYs as to not seem suspicious. that makes me feel a bit better but I can't get over it, not now and not in a million years. But I can't have him see me be all sad now, so i will do my best to cheer them all on and scream as loudly as i can for them and him, showing my endless support. The first song begins and J-hope switches to a more serious face as he sings and raps his heart out even more now to make up for the fact that he can't dance, and every now and then his eyes land on mine, and they stay there for a few more seconds than any others.