The Words I Could Never Say

you just dont look

I'm sad
i hide it
i feel alone
because i am
I hardly eat
not because its a choice
but because i lost my appetite
i am not happy
I hardly ever am
i try to
but i just can't
i live in a world where no one sees me
or the fact that my cry laughter
hides my crying
i am tired
not of lack of sleep
but lack of life
i am depressed
I hardly enjoy my life
i love things
but I feel like nothing loves me
i will Not hurt myself
or worse
but i do dislike myself
my bad hair and teeth
my wonky eyes
my grades
my lack of enjoyment
I don't want to be here
i want to be happy
please
please
please
let me be
happy