ZACKY
I was so zoned out I didn't hear Bryar talking to me and I jumped when she touched my shoulder
"Oh... sorry hun... you okay?"
"I'm sorry... I... I was so spaced out... what's up?"
"I'm ready to go..
"Right" I got off the couch and we headed out for a date night I tried to enjoy it but my mind was so clouded, I had so much on my mind. I tried really hard to focus on her on us but it was hard and at the end of the night we went back to my place, I was undressing to get ready for bed when she came up behind me kissing me all over. When we got into bed I tried to focus on her but it was hard, for some reason I was having flashbacks to these nights with Harlynn, how amazing she was, the passion in it every time the love.
Eventually we finished and I felt so bad because I had thought about Harlynn instead of Bryar, she noticed something was wrong "Zacky what's goin on... you haven't been yourself "
"I'm okay I promise.." I said giving her a kiss she sighed and got up getting dressed "babe where you going"
"Home... I dunno what's up with you you're being so different"
"Baby I'm just tired is all... it's been a long month working in the studio ... I'm so... fried... I have a lot on my plate and my mind.."
"Yeah... I'll let you get some rest then..." she came over to me hugging me and giving me a kiss "I love you Zacky"
"I love you too " she turned and left and I laid back in bed staring at the ceiling... did I? Did I love her? I didn't know.. yeah things were great but did I love her?
I felt so confused and conflicted things had been going great so why did I feel like this? I got up and headed out and when she opened the door she was surprised to see me, she rubbed the sleep from her eyes.
"Zacky?" She said sleepily wrapping her robe around her tightly I couldn't help but stare I remembered all those times together before things went to shit between us. "What are you doing here? It's two in the morning..." I was distracted I'd caught a glimpse of the lingerie she was wearing and it reminded me of how much I couldn't resist her in the past.
"I know... I... I'm sorry I just couldn't sleep"
"So you came over here? Where's Bryar?"
"She went home awhile ago..." I said looking at the ground "I wouldnt say we got into it just...can I come in"
I could see her hesitation "I dunno Zacky this is weird I'm not gonna lie... and it's two in the morning I'm so tired...I've had a long day"
"Harlynn please.... " she finally stepped aside letting me in "I think I'm fucking things up Harlynn"
"Yeah? Well you're good at that it wouldn't be the first time..."
"Thanks..."
"I'm not going to sugarcoat anything Zacky and you know this..."
"I'm starting to see some of the same flaws we had... and I've had a lot on my mind"
"Then learn from the past and talk to her listen to her...don't mess this one up... she loves you "
"That's the problem" I muttered "I know she does but I just don't feel it I mean I said it back but I don't feel it"
"Then you need to be honest with her Zacky... she's such a wonderful person please don't mess it up..."
"Truth be told I don't really know what I want... I mean... we're going on nine months together...and it's been great but.."
"Zacky please just talk to her figure out what you want so she doesn't get hurt..."
