fish diary

entry sixteen - session eight

I went into the lake, it felt good, I felt free!

I think this is the first time I've been under water since I got to Aloridge, I miss it.

I miss home.

When I eventually came out, Akal and Lucius were there. Lucius was tumbling my things about - he'd also moved my armour under an awning, which was sweet of him - whilst Akal was sat nearby waiting so he could bandage my hand.

I love him.

I grabbed my things after Lucius had apparently left and went back inside.

I spoke to Sheun for a little bit - they asked for my wanted poster that was apparently of them - and we spoke about the mirror.

The mirror.

I threw the orb at it. The orb chipped a little bit.

I dont like the mirror. It's hardly even a mirror! It doesn't reflect!

My head hurts, so I'm going to bed.

...

It's very early in the morning, around three or four am.

I'm going to check on the others.

:]

...

I stabbed Tal.

I dont regret it at all.

It's not like I killed him, I stabbed him the exact same way Tal had stabbed Akal.

And, Tal deserved it! After what he did to Akal.

Evian tried to push me away whilst I was considering doing it again. I did not move, so Evian went to get Onyx. He also tried to move me but I just pushed him away.

I'd lost any chance to hurt or kill Tal, footsteps were heading downstairs so I cast Darkness and left the house.

Went to the lake.

I went swimming again until I was dragged out to the shore, I guess by magic.

Sheun was sat there. At a distance.

I think it makes me happy that they're scared of me.

I dont know how I feel about that. I'm not supposed to be like this. I am supposed to be a good person, I'm supposed to help people!

And yet, here I am.

Enjoying people being afraid of me, enjoying hurting people. I just stabbed my friend.

I am...

Not right.

Maybe It is right.

Anyway.

Lucius possessed Sheun. He spoke at me for a little bit, I wasn't paying attention, until he mentioned that stupid mirror again.

When Akal and I were stabbed, our blood got on the mirror. Akal's blood is now gone.

I went inside, Lucius shakily followed me. It was kind of cute watching him flounder, he's not used to walking apparently.

I used the knife that had Tal's blood on it and smeared it on the mirror. It stayed.

I took Sheun's hand and did the same, his blood also stayed. Admittedly, I didnt do it gently.

Onyx came over and let me do the same (Evian followed after).

Akal's blood is the only thing that disappeared...

Akal was also apparently missing behind a painting that was in the room we'd slept in. Evian and Tal had gone in whilst I was in the lake, Tal killed a chair? And Evian got shot with a bunch of arrows.