fish diary

entry eighteen - session ten

I'm alive.

I am alive.

Thaddeus was a traitor.

So much has happened.

I'll start from the end of my last entry.

We woke up, Lucius was next to myself and Akal. I felt very fluttery. He didn't look happy, though, so I held his hand. I hope he felt better... he looked confused .

The everyone else came out of Tal's No-Mar Party House.

Evian's face was bruised.

I tried to ask what happened but they were being difficult. They weren't phased by me at all, which was definitely irksome.

I let go of Akal's hand and threatened Evian with my dagger. Akal grabbed my wrist, so I put it down. He didn't even look at me.

Thaddeus and everyone else started to leave, so I said we better catch up.

It was a ruse, I think.

We got out from the underground and all (except Akal) got knocked unconscious. We woke up in this cell, shackled to a wall, unable to use magic, no weapons and entirely without Akal.

Lucius ripped his shackle off the wall, and I damaged the shackle bar. Then I think Akal used a spell (Telepathy Bond, he said) and warned us to hold our breath. Then he single handedly knocked out all the guards.

He's so amazing.

He helped us get our weapons back and then brought us to get out.

I'm genuinely distressed to think about what happened. But in the interest of logging everything, I will do my best to archive what happened.

In front of us, there were four elves (who were apparently illusions) ans even farther in front on a throne was my dad, behind the throne was It and before Dad was Papa.

They were there.

Really in front of me.

I think I said Dad out loud, I don't remember as I was in shock, because It manifested in front of us. Akal and Lucius went to protect me.

I love them both.

Lucius swung at It with his battle axe.

He's pretty when he fights.

Then we all fought. Everyone kept trying to fight my parents, I was so stressed. I know they were opposing us, but I didn't want to fight them. I begged a lot.

I ran to Papa and he dropped his bow, gently place his hand on my cheek and asked, "What have they done to you?" Over and over.

He called me Guppy.

I genuinely cannot express the heartbreak I feel. I look just like him.

I haven't seen him since I was nine and he went off to fight. And didn't come back. Then Dad left when I was thirteen, he hasn't changed. Except for this whole "Evil necromancer" thing. Deep down I hope he can change. Maybe he's better off dead though.

Evian shot Dad with an arrow, so I shot them with an arrow back. I do feel bad about that actually, I had screamed at everyone to stop fighting, but they didn't, so I did what I had to.

Akal downed twice. He nearly died twice.

And twice, Evian helped him. I cannot thank them enough.

Lucius cradled Akal when he was down. I should've helped him too, but I was so frazzled by everything I couldn't move.

Papa ran to Dad and stabbed him, I followed and tried to stop him. I tried to attack It but It was a shadow so I didn't hit.

Akal used his Telepathy Bond to tell me that he loved me and needed me to be safe and that I need to take him (and Luce) to visit Lanta. He said he loved me.

Papa tried to move me out the way, but I did not move.

(I've noticed I'm not very pushable, I think that's a good thing.)

I took Dad and dragged him down, one last ditch effort to try and help.

What Dad did, was create a firewall that Lucius RAN THROUGH.

I shoved Dad into the fire and went to Lucius. It won.

I'm sorry, Dad. I should've tried harder.

But I had to pick, and I chose my chosen family.

Evian shot Dad again and I didn't stop them. Onyx came rushing over to heal Lucius, once he was awake, I handed him one of the healing potions Elise gave me and ran to attack Dad.

If he can't be saved, then he shouldn't be alive to make these decisions.

He's not in control of himself.

I hope he wasn't at least.

Onyx followed me and attacked Dad.

He fell down. So did Papa.

Then It came and took him.

I rushed to Papa, he was fading.

I didn't even get to tell him I loved him before he died again.

Akal and Luce came up to me and I hugged them both and just cried.

Then I asked if they were both okay and if they were good to walk. Lucius said "as much as I can with my leg." And I just laughed.

I will stay with these two the rest of our lives.

We reconvened with the others and made sure they were okay.

I apologised to Evian.

I should apologise to Tal. But I think they already forgive me... I hope they learn better standards.

We found the mirror and escaped. Sheun waited for us for a day and a half. They're okay.

I did upset Akal and Luci a little bit.

I told Sheun I was going to 'lie down and not get up for awhile.' They replied with, 'you mean sleep, right?', I smiled and just said 'sure.'

I felt their glares before I even looked at them.

I went to bed and they both followed soon.

As it turns out, I am the middle. Akal sleeps on the outside because he wakes up earlier than us and Luce sleeps on the wall. I felt safe in their arms.

I hope this is the rest of my life.

As a side note, when I woke up, Akal and Lucius were already awake.

Akal was at his desk, and Luce was cuddling me whilst watching Akal. I got up to see what he was doing, the orb shattered. He felt apologetic, but it's okay.

We split the shards between the three of us to dispose of later.

...

We said goodbye to everyone.

Akal, Luce and I are on our way to Lanta.

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- with fulfillment, Mar Sokal

P.S. I dont know if I'll update again. I'll try to though.