AOT: Insight

Safe Haven

After taking Levi to his room, I topped for the first time in my life. It was strange, awkward, yet exhilarating all at the same time. Levi's body was like a taunt muscled wonderland. I loved how it jerked to my touch. How he moaned my name, begged me for more. Most of all, I loved how he clung to me. It was like I was the only thing in the universe for him.

Once done, I pulled him on to my chest. His warm weight settled there. His fingers curled into my hair. It was getting long again. I mentioned needing Armin to cut it. He slapped me. Sleepily he murmured that he liked it long. I stroked his back, covering us up. We fell asleep like that, my little cat.

"NO I DID NOT SAY THAT!" the thundering voice cut through my dream. It had been a wonderful dream.

"Lets see what Levi has to say!" Erwin sounded just as upset as Hange. Yet he kept his voice slightly lower.

"WHERE IS THAT RUNT. SHOULDN'T HE BE OUT HERE?" Hange yelled.

There was another voice. It was quieter, and closer. I twisted my head as the door opened. My eyes fell on to Hange's lab assistant Moblit. His widened at seeing me. No, it wasn't me he was looking at. Levi. He was starring at Levi. I held him against me still as he slept.

"Is he asleep?" He muttered in awe.

I nodded as to not wake Levi. He groaned a bit. I rubbed his back. That was when Moblit saw we were both naked. He met my eyes again. A small smile touched his lips. He nodded to me before backing out of the room. Quietly he closed the door.

I don't know what else was said, but Hange began to yell. Their voice was cut off. I heard footsteps walking away. Closing my eyes, I pressed my lips to Levi's head. His fingers wiggled by my neck, making it tickle a little. I smiled but went back to sleep.

In the morning, I woke alone in the bed. Sighing I rolled over. As my face touched the pillow a pounding pain erupted in my head. I screamed clutching my hands to my hair. It felt like my skull was going to rip apart. I saw it, behind my eyes, I saw the lab. They were trying to break into my head!

Screaming I buried my face in the bed. I wasn't sure if anyone came to check on my body, I was certain my family weren't going to see anything if they got into my head. The pain didn't help with my ability to think but I had to do something. I pulled up an old image. It was a time before I knew Armin.

I had been friends with Levi during this time, but he wasn't with me either. I hated the dark. Even as a small child. I knew the monsters that lived just beyond the vale of light. There was a reason I didn't like the night. It had everything to do with my family.

I recalled that this night, there hadn't been a moon. No stars dotted what I could see of the sky. I was petrified because of it. I wanted nothing more than to find a safe place to sleep, but I was too scared to move. That's when I saw it. A light! It streaked across the sky. Intrigued I had gotten up to follow it.

Every few seconds it shone over the land I walked. I searched for it, following where it came from. This, almost, led me to my death. The light shined in time for me to see the cliff I was a step away from walking off. I sat down on the edge. I sat there all night watching that light. My beacon in the darkness.

I hugged my knees as I watched. Counting the seconds of darkness before it swung back to me. As the sun began to rise in the morning, I was able to breath, yet I watched the light. This was the first sunrise I recalled ever seeing. The colors it brought to the dark made me feel at peace.

The orange was so vibrant the blues and red like streaks of joy. I laughed out loud upon seeing the light. I even got up to dance around in the crimson morning. To me, this was my gift for surviving the dark. It was only after I had exhausted myself playing in the colors, that I fell to the ground.