antifreeze • Bada Lee One Shots

Promise

"Get up", Bada said in a demanding tone as she entered the room taking off her mask.
"Can we just sit and pretend to review the choreo today? I'm dying!", I said dramatically laying on the couch with my hair falling over my face.
"No, pretty girl, I know you're just being lazy, now get up!", Bada said crouching in front of me with a serious look.
God, she doesn't know what she does to me when she calls me like that.
"Ah come on Badaaa, aren't you tired? Let's just rest together today pleaasee", I pouted cutely at her.
Bada giggled looking at me. "Jinjja! You're getting too stubborn, aren't you? You think just because you're cute I'm gonna cut you some slack?", she said picking me up from the couch bridal style. "What you just said?", I asked laughing wrapping my arms around her neck.
And In that 2 minutes interaction she had turned my boring day into a good day. Her soft hands gripped firmly on my back and on my thighs, making me feel things I shouldn't.
"What are you doing to be so strong? I wanna be strong like you", I asked impressed by how easily she carried me.
"First you're light as a feather. Second, I will not even bother to tell you cause I know you're never getting on my level", she said the last phrase looking down at me smirking convinced.
"You're really annoying today", I said frowning at her. She put me down carefully when we entered in the practice room.
"Oh, I'm annoying? Okay then, I think you wouldn't like the present I brought for you anyway", she said holding her bag closer to her body as she turned her back at me.
"You brought a present for me?", I asked happily smiling as I got closer to her giving little excitement jumps. She smiled softly leaning her body at the wall mirror and still holding her bag.
The way she looked at me always made me feel an overwhelming feeling of happiness, maybe that's why I'm always embarassing myself giggling and jumping like a fool when she's next to me. She sat on the floor already defeated and tapped the ground next to her indicating that I should sit. "I wanted us to have something to simbolize our relationship...", she said completely shy while pretending to look inside her bad. "So I bought these for us, I hope you like it", she said taking off her bag a small dark green box and giving it to me. "Badaaa...", I said looking at her smiling with puppy eyes, she giggled and leaned her head in the mirror looking at me sweetly, anxiously expecting to see my reaction. I opned the box and there were two silver bracelets with a small and delicate pendant of a crescent moon inside a wave that looked just like her tattoo. My eyes watered as I realized how much she thought of a way to simbolize our relationship through that gift. "It's really beautiful, I loved it...", my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence, I didn't even dare to look at her, she didn't know about the things I feel for her and I didn't want her to be uncomfortable by my reaction to friendship gift. "Why are you crying my baby?", she asked with worry in her voice as she cupped my cheeks and got closer to me, me looking anywhere but her eyes. "I just liked it so much...", I said looking down, the feeling that something was digging into my heart becoming stronger every second, sadness taking over my mind for being too coward to be sincere and tell my feelings and for knowing that these feelings were probably not reciprocal. "Thank you for being so kind to me, you know you're a blessing to me, right?!", I said smiling and looking at her.
"You're  my blessing", she smiled and caressed my cheeks. "I never thought I would love and trust so much someone besides my parents", she said in a giggle pulling me closer into her embrace. I giggled leaning my face on her neck.
"Wait, we have to wear it", I said taking the box. She took one of the bracelets and put it on my wrist and I did the same for her, both of us giggling like fools. "I'm never taking it off", she said smiling sweetly. "Me neither. Nose pinky promise?", I asked extending my little finger at her while my thumb was on one of my nostrils, I couldn't remembers when we created that variation of pinky promise, but that's how we always promised for each other. "Nose pinky promise!", she said giggling while locking our pinky fingers together.

I sat down in bed sobbing, tears streaming down my face as I looked at our bracelet, I was supposed to be happy today but today ended up being the day I realized she doesn't have feelings for me, If she felt something more she would surely tell me today, It would have been the perfect moment, but she didn't and I had to learn to deal with the fact that I would never be loved by her the way I want to. Since when that love began to hurt me so bad? Since when I become so emotionally dependent of her? I rubbed my hands in my chest, wanting to rip my heart out of my chest, the pain was too overwhelming to handle. I wish I was capable to drain myself from the pain I soak in everyday but I need her to remind me that water does not only drowns, but is also capable to bring life, cause that's what she does by simply staying by my side.

This one is really short because the only idea I had became quite sad and I'm not in the mood to feel that depressed, so that's it, thanks and please vote if you liked🩵💙🩵