antifreeze • Bada Lee One Shots

emotions.

A/N:  BEBE WON SWF2😭 I'm so happy and I cried a lot yesterday, they really deserved it🩵
I've been too lazy to develop the ideas I have for the chapters inspired by the show but I'll do my best now. Thank you and don't forget to vote🌊

고양이 (koyangi) = cat. One of Luna's nicknames given by her fans.

                2017 (the year we met) 

Luna entered the practice studio with a slight tired appearance but still beautiful, greeting me with her common sweet smile and angel voice.

"Hii Badaaa", she said giving me a quick loose hug from behind and then running to the other side of the room throwing her bag in a corner.

I know it doesn't seem like much of an act of affection but the more time I spent with her the angrier I get at the media and netizens, her week has been tough, once again she has been judged as heartless and cold, people were making the worst comments about her personality, saying she looked ungrateful and with a bad personality just because she didn't reacted the way they expected during a variety show, but none of this is true, she was just a quiet and shy person and constantly tried her best demonstrate how grateful she is, so why the hell people treated her like that? My heart ached seeing her pretend nothing was happening with that smile on her lips. 

"Hii koyangi!", I went in her direction giving her a tight back hug. "How are you?", I asked in the softest tone I could, hoping she would say something so she wouldn't keep building her emotions the way I knew she was doing, but of course she didn't say a thing.

"I'm fine. What about you? You're giving a lot of classes", she turned around now looking at me. "I've been watching them all on Youtube", she clearly tried to make the conversation about me but when our eyes met I could see the sadness she was hiding behind that cute smile. 

I sighned realizing she wouldn't say anything. "I'm fine", I fixed her bangs with the tip of my fingers, trying my best to show affection the way she would let me, even if It was for short seconds, she is so precious, I just wanted her to feel loved and now that someone cares about her. 

Bada's affection made Luna's heart warmer, but also hurt even more, every act of affection and gentle look Bada gave her she felt more the need of crying to take the pain out of her chest. So when Bada fixed her bangs smiling lovingly she just chuckled and cutely walked to the front of the wall mirror in little jumps, trying her best to run away from the taller one.

"What are we learning today teacher?", Luna asked cutely and their eyes met through the mirror, Bada still standing on the corner, she chuckled at Luna's cute actions but was still sad that the girl wouldn't mention the things people were doing to her on the internet. 

After some hours of practice Luna felt the pain in her chest become even stronger, the way Bada treated her so lovingly and even the way she touched her gently guiding her movements made Luna feel sad, the tiredness of having no sleep the previous nights because of her schedule didn't help her situation, all of this plus the sadness of being wronged by the public and being seem as heartless and cold, the feeling of being a bad person growing on her chest creating a knot on her throat. 

As she followed Bada's instructions her eyes started to water, she was glad they're far and looking at eachother through the mirror so if she's lucky enough Bada wouldn't notice.

"Can you give me a minute? I need to go to the bathroom", Luna said after furtively taking some deep breaths trying to hold her tears. 

"Of course", Bada answered noticing something was wrong.

Luna bited her lips as she turned around and instantly felt the tears rolling down her cheeks against her will.

"Baby...", Bada's sweet voice cracked when she reached Luna and saw her trying to hold her tears. "It's okay, you can cry.", Bada reassured the smaller girl running her fingers through her hair brushing away some strands from her face.

Luna looked down, biting her lips even stronger and giving little sobs as she agressively wiped the tears streaming down her face like a waterfall.

"I'm f-ine... I'm like t-hat because I didn't sleep to-day", she sttutered in her own words between sobs.

 It seemed to Bada that Luna wasn't saying that only to reassure her, but also to reassure herself that she wasn't crying because of what was happening but simply because she was tired. The way Luna didn't allow herself to breakdown, biting her lips trying to hold the sobs, agressively wiping her face and reassuring herself she was okay while looking in the void made Bada feel the worst emotions realizing she was like that because she never had someone to lean on, she's always been by herself and that was how she had to deal with everything since childhood. 

Bada was falling apart, she pulled Luna to sit in the corner of the room and hugged her tightly, making Luna sit between her legs and rest her head on her chest as she caressed her head and back, both of them now crying, their sobs resonated through the empty studio. It was too much to take, Bada couldn't understand how Luna managers didn't have a tiny bit of humanity and considered that she wasn't okay just by looking at her eyes and even made her stay up all night because of the stupid schedule, anger took over her, she was ready to speak up for Luna. 

"Look at me baby", Bada said after some minutes. Luna pulled away, her cheeks, nose and lips all red and puffy humid eyes because of the tears, one hand still resting on Bada's shoulders as the other wiped her face, she looked at Bada with the most beautiful puppy eyes. 

"I'll always be with you, okay?!", Bada caressed Luna's cheekbones with her thumb and the other held Luna's hand, preventing the smaller from agressively wiping her tears again. "Don't do that, you're gonna hurt yourself". 

"U-hum", Luna nodded cutely making her lips form a straight line, resting her head on Bada's shoulders. "I love you Haerinnie", Bada whispered close to Luna's ear, feeling Luna's warmth in her embrace. "I love you more", Luna answered in the softest murmur. 

Their hearts raced in unison as they both realized how strong their bond is, the comfort, love and understanding they had for eachother made them feel in a way they couldn't explain, it was like they were meant to be, like they already know eachother from past lives, like they've been together in life for many years.