"I wish I was capable to drain myself from the pain I soak in everyday but I need her to remind me that water does not only drowns, but it's also capable of bringing life."
A/N: Hii, I'll take a nap and then post Jealous PT.2, I wrote this chapter half sleep lol
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Luna agonized in silence, her heart was beating fast causing a horrible pain on her chest, she felt like her heart was being tored apart, she was having a anxiety crisis but wouldn't dare to tell anyone. Sitting on the sofa with her eyes closed pretending to be asleep she asked herself what was that feeling, nothing bad happened, the day was going fine.
"Everything it's alright", mentally triying to comfort herself breathing slowly, she opened her eyes trying to see if there was someone in the waiting room with her but no one was there, not even Sejin, she felt less bothered as she could be more comfortable now even if It was for some minutes.
Her body fell forward, supporting her elbows on her knees and leaning her head on her hands she took deep big breaths hoping to get rid of that pain, she started to feel like throwing up, she changed positions and laid on the sofa sideways in fetal position still sitting, her hand massaging her chest as her eyes started to get teared.
The door suddenly opened causing her to almost have a heart attack, she tried to disguise Bada by sitting up straight but Bada knew Luna too well, and in the moment their eyes met she knew something was really wrong.
"My love...", she sat beside her trying to pull Luna on a hug but she denied and that action made clear to Bada how bad that crisis was.
Luna turned her body from Bada, too ashamed to be seem at that state, tears streamed down her face and her whole body trembled as she sobbed.
Seeing Luna like that made Bada feels like her world was falling apart, tears falling on her cheeks as she gently caressed Luna's back, she didn't know what to say, she wanted to know what happened but she didn't want to be noisy and make Luna feel even worst. Some minutes went by and Luna turned around and leaned her head on Bada's chest while hugging her tighly by the waist.
"Please don't leave me alone... it hurts so much", she pleaded between sobs.
Bada gasped also hurting, she never heard someone talk with so much pain their voice and the fact that it was Luna talking like that made everything worse.
"I'll never leave you Haerinnie", her voice trembled as the pain in her chest grew. "It's okay, I'm with you", her fingers went through Luna's strands of hair trying to comfort her.
The door opened again and some random chats could be heard, Luna's grip on Bada's waist got even tighter. Sejin and Bada's eyes met and she didn't even need to say anything, he understood what was happening when he saw Luna hiding in her arms.
"Out! Out!", Sejin exclaimed in a scary demanding tone at the other staffs. All of them obeyed, but some who worked with BTS for a long time saw Luna's state, even though it wasn't common it had happened before, sometimes Luna breaks down out of nothing and when that happens there's nothing anyone can do other than take her home, canceling her schedule for the next day and hope that she'll get better.
No one judge Luna, they knew she always had to deal with everything by herself, she didn't have many friends besides her members and wouldn't allow herself to blurt out and worry her members even more, she just kept everything inside her, feeling numb about everything that happened in her life most of the time, but then some days everything came at her all at once, it was like her mind started to suddenly work for the sake of her misery and in those days she wouldn't be able to do anything until she found herself numb again.
"I'm so sorry", I whispered softly, the pain was now bearable but I was ashamed for ruining a filming day and making a scene in front of so many people, I couldn't even look at Bada anymore, she had so much work bringing me to her house and taking care of me because I put her in that position when I asked like a idiot to not be left alone, I wanted to dissapear from her life like I've never met her so I couldn't disturb her anymore.
Bada wrapped her arms around my chest, placing her hand above my hands, intertwining our fingers. "Stop. I want to be with you.", she whispered close to my ear, her arms tightened even more around me as she leaned her face in between my neck. I wanted to believe in her words but I just couldn't, everything sounded like a lie and I felt like a weight for her.
"I know it's not your fault, but it hurts to see that you don't believe when I say I want to be here with you", she said in a muffled voice as i felt her breath on my neck. She got up and my heart wrenched at the thought that I could've hurt her, but then she laid down in front of me, wrapping her arms around me and pulling me closer. "Don't repeat to yourself what your mind tells you, okay?", her sweet voice tone made my heart melt and I felt so loved that It almost made me scared to see that she might really care about me.
"You're my favorite person Luna...", her eyes got teared and her voice trembled. "Don't ever try too escape from me, please.", she caressed my cheekbones and leaned closer, a little smile in my lips as I closed my eyes feeling her soft lips in my cheeks, forehead and then on top of my nose making me giggle. I wrapped my arms around her neck and pulled her closer running my fingers through her hair.
