I'll Learn From My Mistakes (Patrick Stump/Fall Out Boy Fanfiction)

Chapter 9 : Re-build

I close my door slowly so I don't make him wake up. What the fuck he want? He just told me to kill myself last night, and now he sleep in front of my house like he was waited me all night. I locked my house and do the most stupid thing that I have ever done. I put my laptop, sketch book, charger, wallet and phone into my bag. I grab my car key and ready to go. I open my window and go outside my house slowly. Oh shit, I feel a ninja. I close the window and look at the fedora man in front of my house who still sleeping peacefully. I sigh in relief. I jump into my car and start the engine. He would wake up. Oh shit, he's awake. I drive as fast as I could. Once again, I did a great job. I proud of myself. "Well, now what?" I asked myself. My stomach make a loud noises like answering my own question. "Alright. I need food." I drive to McDonald's and ordering some food that can my stomach shut up. I still thinking what will I do now while eating. After finished eating, I check my bag. I don't remember I bring my school reports document. How stupid. But then I feel like a lamp come from my head "A job" I whisper to myself. I can be a teacher, chemistry or music or even art. Or maybe a private music teacher that come to their houses. Or I can do both of them, I need to make myself busy anyway.

I drive away to the nearest highschool. I found one, and jumped out from my car, I'm going to be a teacher. "May I help you, miss?" I jumped a little when I heard a man voice behind me "Oh yes please. I'm looking for headmaster's room" I said to him politely "Oh,I am the headmaster. I'm Nicholas McFadden" I shake his hand and smile "I'm Virginia Brown" he lead me to his room "And what can I do for you, miss Brown?" He said. He has a bright blue eyes almost like mine, dirty blonde hair, and his smile is beautiful. "Can I be a teacher here?" I asked stupidly. I shook my head "I mean, how can I be a teacher here? I can teach music or chemistry. I bring my school report." I said and pull out my report and hand it to him, he studied it and nod his head "Great. We need chemistry teacher anyway. And you have great result. Seems like you're a genius, who old are you?" There's no one said that I am genius. Once again, I proud of myself. "I'm 18, just graduated from high school. Is it be a problem?" He open his eyes wide like not believing me "That's great. I just need you to bring your health report from doctor, and I will held a meeting with other teachers about it. Thanks, miss Brown." I smile as wide as I could, I really am going to be a teacher. "Thanks mr. McFadden. You don't know how important this job for me. Thank you and good morning" he smile to me and nod his head.

I walked out from the school and get into my car.

Virginia : "Heyheyhey. Guess who found a new job"

I said on the group chat and drive away to found a music course. I will be busy as fuck, and I'm happy. I won't have time to think about Patrick. Oh shit, i'm just thinking about him now. What if he still waiting for me? Well, he told me to kill myself, he won't worrying me that much. I turn on the radio and there's a familiar voice. Patrick's voice, singing Sugar, we're going down. I turn off the radio and sigh. "You almost did it well, Virginia. You can do it. You really can do it." I smile to myself. For once in a lifetime I can make myself calm down.

Finally I found a music course. Yeaaahh. 10 point for myself. Wait, what? I get out from my car and get inside that building "Good morning, ma'am." I said and smile at the woman who probably the owner of this place. "May I help you?" She said and smile. Whoops, she reminds me of my mother. Blonde and green eyes. I wonder if she can make a cookie as delicious as my mom. Whoahh, I miss her and her cookies. "I'm looking for a job, ma'am. I'm Virginia. Virginia Brown" I said and offer my hand "It's your lucky day, miss. I am the owner. You can call me Mrs. Egan" so much luck for myself today. She told me to sit in front of her "So, what do you play?" She asked "Piano. Maybe I can be a private teacher who go to their houses. I don't mind." I said and smile "We really need that kindof teacher. The previous private teacher just quit a week ago. Well, this is your first job" "Wait, I stared today?" Wow, I don't expect it would be so fast "Yes. You can't do it?" I shook my head no "Of course I can." She nod her head "So, this is the address and this is some book you might need to teaching. This is kind of a test for you, you will teaching 3 students. One today, one tomorrow, and one at Friday." I look at my phone to check what day is it. It's Tuesday. I nod my head in understatement. "If their parents like you as much as they like the previous teacher, you can work here." She said. That's an easy thing to do. "Thanks, Mrs. Egan. I will do my best" I said and shake her hand "Yes, you better do your best" she said.

I check my schedule. Today I will teaching at 3 PM. I must be on time or I will get killed by Mrs. Egan. I check my phone

Rudy : "Uhmmm. Who's already get a job?"
Kennedy : "Not me"
Davis : "Not me, I just woke up"
Virginia : "I AM!"

And they response so fast

Rudy : "Really? What job?"
Arfin : "An instructor at a gym?"
Virginia : "Try again"
Arfin : "Personal trainer?"
Virginia : "Try again"
Calvin : "A teacher?"
Virginia : "ONE POINT FOR CALVIN!"

I drive to my home. My day almost perfect. Not until I see a fedora man sit in front of my house, look tired, sad, and angry at a same time. "What do you want?" I asked angrily "I...I want to explain something" He said, looking down to the ground "There's nothing to explain, Patrick" I said "Please?" He's crying. He is fucking crying. "Now you want to explain." I let a bitter laugh "After you yelled at me, and try to hit me with an empty bottle. After you thought that I'm cheating on our first day of relationship. After you ignore me while I went to Elisa's house to bring you home. After you yelled to me that she is the love of your life and you want to marry her. And after you told me to kill myself. Now you want to explain? I'm not stupid, Patrick. You will throw me away again after I believe in you once again. You will broke me again after you fix me. I know I'm nothing for you, Patrick. I understand. I'm letting you go." No tears, just anger. Not sad, just upset. There's silence between us and he just said "I'm sorry. At least, check your phone and listen to the voice mail first. I'll learn from my mistake, Virginia Alexandria Brown. I will." He said and walk away. His fedora and glasses on his hand not his head. He never took of that fedora. He must be really sad. Like I care. Oh no, I really am care.

I go inside my house, and check the time on my phone, it said 11:11 AM. "I wish everything gonna be okay" I whisper. What? I believe 11:11 thing. Okay? I sit on the couch and check his texts. It said.

"I'm in front of your house. I will explain, please let me in"

"Please, G. I love you. I don't meant every words that I've said."

"That's not alcohol talking, I'm just tipsy. You don't know how much I want to go home with you"

"Please believe me, I tried to safe you"

"Please believe me, Virginia. Please believe me. I'm not lying"

"Please, I love you"

"I need to say stuff like that to protect you. I don't want she hurts you. If you asking am I still love her? To be honest, yes a little bit. Just a little bit. And when you came to her house, I realized how much I wanted to be with you. Just you. I realized the one that I need in my life is you. Please believe me."

Alright, that's hurt. I SHOULD HAVE BELIEVE HIM. HOW STUPID AM I. 11:30. I have time to make things straight. I called Patrick and he pick it up on the second ring "Hello?" He said weakly "I already read it. I'm sorry for not believing you. I'm sorry. I want to make things straight. I love you. I really love you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" I said in one breath, and he's not answering it. "Patrick? Did you hear me?" Of course no, I talked to fast "Please. Open your door." He said. I throw my phone to my bed without even end the call. I run to my door and found him. I hug him. Hug him tight. I pull him into my house and close the goddamn door. "I love you. I love you. I love you." I said without even breaking he hug. He nod his head "I'm sorry" he whisper "I should explain earlier. I shouldn't told you to kill yourself. I shouldn't said a bad thing like that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" he said. "I will explain now if you want" he said and try to broke the hug "No, just. Hug me. I've missed you. I've missed you so much" I said and hug him tighter. "I want to kiss you" he said. I let a little laugh and break the hug. I wrapped my hand around his neck and his hand around my waist. He put his lips on mine, I kissed him back. I love him.

And now I know, he's mine.