I'll Learn From My Mistakes (Patrick Stump/Fall Out Boy Fanfiction)

Chapter 15 : God?

I woke up and found that I wore a beautiful white dress, with no shoes on. I feel like I'm flying away and then I see light. A very bright light that can make me blind. That light signaling me to follow and I do. "God?" I whisper to that light and I see a smile appear. I'm in heaven. "Where's my baby?" I said and touch my stomach. I feel empty. And then I see a baby, a beautiful baby girl. "She's mine?" I asked and a smile appear from that light once again. I pick her up and crying in happiness "Hey there. We're safe here in heaven, my dear"

And then I hear a voice "You're not belong here, Virginia Alexandria Brown" and then my baby disappeared, everything around me is black, I can't see anything. "My baby?!" I scream and cry "You're not belong here" that voice said again "God? God?! Where's my daughter?" I shout and look around me, I found no one "It's not your time." That voice said again "I wanna be here! With me daughter!" All I can do is crying and crying. "It's not your time. You have to go back" I feel someone push me and I fall on the ground. On hospital floor. I can see Patrick sleeping beside....me? I try to touch him, but I can't. I try to call him but I have no voice. What happened to me?

"Patrick?" Pete come in and touch his shoulder, making him jumped "You scare me, Peter" he said and look at me with a very sad eyes. "I'm sorry, Patrick. It's--it's my fault" Pete said and cover his face with his hands. "No, Pete. Thanks for telling me in a right time. Before I marrying Elisa." My jaw dropped to the floor, how long I've been kidnapped? How long I've been here? "Sorry" Pete whisper and give Patrick a hug. "I just, love her so much, Pete" and Pete nodded his head. I still trying to speak, but I have no voice. I try to get inside my body, like the way I've seen on a movie, but something push me away. How the hell I can go back?!

"It's about time" I hear that voice again. "God?" I whisper. I just realized I'm talking! I try to yell at them but then I lose my voice again. What the hell. "You need to take a rest, Patrick" Pete said and Patrick shook his head "I want to be the first person to see her wake up" how bad my injury? I'm just not eat, she's not abused me. "Patrick, she won't be happy if she wake up and know that you're sick" Pete always know me so well. "But still, Pete" Pete shook his head "I'll protect her, Patrick. Get some sleep" Pete said and finally Patrick listen to him. I try to move my body, but I can't.

"What? They can't do that!" Patrick said. It's been days. In fact, I don't know how long is it. But it's been a long time, of course. I still can't move. "She's in coma for 5 months, what do you expect? No use, Patrick" 5 months? I'm just don't have enough food for myself, why I must be in coma for fucking 5 months "Patrick. That just the poison already all over her body. She's been in coma for 5 months, and still no sign of her being better. Patrick, she's hurt. Let her heal, Patrick" HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID? SHE REALLY GIVE ME POISONED FOOD! Patrick cry on Pete's shoulder. "I can't lose her. Give her more time, one month. I can't let them kill her now. I'm not ready" I cry and cry, I know they will took away all of this machine from my body and let me die. That's what they do to everyone that already coma in a long time. Why God? Why they want to took it away? There's someone who have been in coma for 8 years, and they not kill him. I still have hope, I really still have hope even it's as little as an ant, but it still a hope. I can heal. Please let me get inside my body now. Please. "It's about time" once again I hear that voice again "Just believe me" I trust You, God.

Please, pry for me Patrick. Pry. God will hear you. Days goes by, I still can't move. "Please wake up, G" Patrick said and hold my hand and cry. Pry, Patrick. "I miss you so much. God, bring her back, please. I need her" he cry and cry. Then, the doctor come inside the room "Mr. Stump. It's been a month" he said "No! Give her one more month!" He shout at the doctor and crying even more. "You can't kill her!" He shout again "But there's no sign she will wake up. The poison is too strong. She can't handle it, Mr. Stump" Patrick still in silence "If you love her, you shouldn't hurt her. She can't survive" the doctor said once again. No! No! I'm here! "Please give her one more day" he said look at the ground. "Tomorrow. If she don't wake up, you need to let her go, Mr. Stump" the doctor left and Patrick sit next to me again.

"Why, G? Why you came to my life and then left me? Why you make me fall in love then you died? Why?" Believe me, trick. I don't want this thing happened to us. "I love you, I can't see you in pain. I can't see you hurt. You will be heal tomorrow, G. I'm sorry, I let them kill you. I'm sorry, but believe me that I will always be with you, G. Like what you said on your letter." Letter! Ha, that's a fake goodbye letter. Oh right,I shouldn't think about that now. He kiss my hand and a tear drop there. I don't want to leave you, trick. "God, if you hear me. Please let her wake up, please let her open her eyes and be able to talk. Please let her continue her life. God, You can give my life to her. I will die for her, I will be in her position. Please God. I love her too much. I can't--I can't lose her again" a tear come from my eyes. Patrick, I love you. I don't want to lose you again. I won't leave you.

"This is your time" that voice again "How?" I asked. Then that voice told me to close my eyes and think about the reason why I live. I think about my parents, Max, my friends, Mr. Way, my family game that I haven't finished yet, my job, my future, my dreams, and Patrick Martin Vaughn Stumph. Then I feel like falling and everything went black for once again.