I'll Learn From My Mistakes (Patrick Stump/Fall Out Boy Fanfiction)

Chapter 16 : Born again

I opened my eyes slowly. I look around this room to realized that I'm in hospital room. I try to move my head to look beside me, and I see a fedora man sleeping on my hand. I can feel his lips there. I smile, I'm alive, they don't kill me. I try to talk but nothing come from my throat, I try to move my finger, but it feels heavier that it should be. Wait, G. You just woke up from 5 months coma. I watch Patrick sleeping "Don't leave me, G" he mumbled and I can feel tear drop on my hand "Patrick?" I whisper. Please throat, let me speak. "Patrick, wake up" I said. Thanks, throat. "Patrick, I'm here" I said again and he wake up.

"Hey" I whisper and smile at him. "I'm not dreaming, right?" He said and slap himself "You're awake" I said and laugh. He hug me, like he will never let me go. He kiss my lips like he missed it so much. "I love you" he said repeatedly to make me sure that he still love me. "I will found a doctor" he said and kiss my cheek. He run as fast as he could, with 2 minutes a doctor come and check myself. "It's....it's really really miracle. You're fine, all of your body can work normally, you're really already heal from the poison" he said "But Miss. Brown, your baby can't survive. I'm sorry" he said and leaving. "Sorry, G" Patrick whisper and look at the floor "I lose our baby. That's....that's my fault" I said and start crying. "No, it's not your fault, please don't cry. I hate to see you cry" he said and wipe away my tears. "But I lose her" I whisper. Patrick hug me and stroke my hair "It's not your fault" he kissed my cheek. "Get some sleep. You look tired" I said and he nodded his head. I try to remember anything but I can't, all I can remember was a girl scream "it's not my fault" but then I can't remember anything. But I feel like I've been in a place for a long time, where am I? I really can't remember. I shook my head and drop it off. No matter where have I been. I'm alive. Thank, God. I know Your plan is better than mine.

I woke up and see everyone around me except my family. I wonder if they know it or not. "Hey, Andy" I said and he smile to me "I've missed your voice" I said to him "I've missed your hug" I open my hands to give him hug and he took it. "Hey, G" Joe said "Hey curly" I said and smile. He hug me and I play with his hair a little bit, making him laugh. "Still the same" he said and shook his head. "Sorry, G. It's my fault" that's from Pete "No! No! Don't be sorry. I'm alive, Pete." I said and I see Meagan with Saint too "Hey Saint. Where's Bronx?" I asked him. All I can remember, the last time I see him, he can talk "He's at school. I miss him too" Awh, adorable. I wish I still have my daughter. Yes, all I can remember was I have a baby girl. But beside that, I don't know.

We talked and laugh like old time. I have Patrick, Pete, Andy, Joe, Kennedy, Alex, Lily, Meagan, even Saint. "Hey, we have surprise for you" Patrick said and smile. I don't really like surprise, they kind of surprised me. You know. Yeah, sorry. "Wait here" he said and check his phone. I nodded my head and continue talk to everyone. I missed talking. "Why you not at school, Lily?" I asked, she sit on my bed next to me "I don't feel good, and then I remember you're at hospital. And I told Uncle Alex to bring me here. Look at you can make me better" she said. That's the sweetest thing that anyone ever said to me "I've missed you" I said and kiss her forehead "me too" she said. Once again, if only I still have my daughter.

"Here's your surprise" I hear Patrick's voice and look at him. Oh no no no. Normally, I would scream and run to them but now I can't "Gerard! Mikey!" I scream and sit on my bed "Hey. Don't scream on your teacher, that's not polite" Gerard said and give me a hug "Feel better?" That's from Mikey and I nodded my head. "How can you guys be here?" I asked. Mikey seems like children a lot. He play with Saint and Lily, and the kids seem so happy near him. "We started a band. And for some reason, we play here. Then I meet Patrick and he knows me as your teacher. And told me to go here when I have time. And here we are" he said and smile at me "Told you. You can sing good. And your brother can play bass. I told you,you will be in a band" I said in victory "Yeah, you win"

One by one leave and left me with Patrick. "You know I miss you" he said and play with my fingers "Yes, I missed you too" he kiss my forehead and smile at me. The most beautiful smile that I ever see "Can you told me what happened?" I asked and he told me a story. A bad bed time story.

"When you're leaving, I went into our room and found your phone on the nightstand, and you have new massage from unknown number, and I see it. It say "Meet me now" I have no idea who is it. Maybe wrong number, since I know you give your number easily, even you write your number on your instagram comment if someone asked on it." I laugh a little, he really remember every detail of myself. "An hour goes by and you not coming home yet. Since the very first fight, I stole Kennedy's number fron your phone and asked him if you were with him or not and he said no, and he congratulate me for our baby" Our baby. Our daughter. I lose her. "And I'm start worrying, I won't lose you. Do you remember when I told you to......kill yourself?" I nodded my head "Elisa told me to said bad things to you, and she promised me won't touch or terror you. I know about that terror. The day I asked you to move in with me, that's because I want to protect you with all of my life. I see you on the lake and throwing something. But you look so scared and don't notice me" I should know that.

"I looking for you and found your body. With so many blood. I'm not sure it's you at the first place, but then I remember your hair and the last clothes you wear. No one have a shirt like me. And then I bring that body to hospital. She's pregnant too, that makes me believe more that you were gone." She killed an innocent pregnant woman just to get Patrick back. Stupid. "Then we burried that body. I still can't believe you were gone. I still can't believe you wearing a white dress and lying. Not standing beside me. You wear white dress for your funeral, not your wedding. I'm stressed out. I want to drink again but I know you don't like when I drink. I won't make you upset" I touch his cheek and wipe away his tears.

"And then I come to Elisa's and she make me believe even more that you were gone. She give me a letter, and I read it. It's your handwriting. I know it. It said you can't stay with me anymore. It hurts, so bad. Then I made a stupid decision, I asked Elisa to getting back with me. And she said yes. It's been 2 months since you 'died' and I can't think straight. I'm about marrying her. I'm already asked her to marry me, and I'm already put a ring on her finger" he stop himself and cry "Continue, Patrick" I beg and he nodded "I told Pete that I want to marry her and he told me that you are alive. I mad at him, I thought he play with my emotions. But then he told me anything. I call the police and found you in her basement, and unconscious. That's really the worse thing that I ever seen. We brought you to hospital and they said you will be on coma. She gives so poisoned food, and the poison already all over your body. You're on your coma for 6 months. They want to give up on you and told me that they will took away all of this machines from your body. But thankfully, you woke up, a day before they kill you. I love you" I wipe away his tears and stroke his cheek.

"I'm okay now" I said and smile at him "I love you" I said and he have the best smile on his face "Say it again, G" he said "I love you" I said and he hug me and kiss me on my cheek. "I love you too. I love you more than anything"