I want it all if you let me~ scarlett Johansson

Chapter 31

Amber's pov-

The kids have been home for a week and Ella is now 2 week and 3 days old, and god I love the relationship between all the kids already.

"Scar, can you get rose ready for school?" I asked as I cleaned the floor.

Maybe letting cosmo make his own bowl of cereal was a bad idea but he really wanted to do it.

"Momma do I have to go to school?" Rose asked as Scarlett tried to take Ella out her arms when they were sat on the sofa.

"Yes, now give mommy Estella and I'll be up to help or if you want mommy to help she'll be up in a moment." I suggested knowing she needs a moment alone before school, she loves Ella so much and has been finding it hard to go to school in the morning but once she's there she loves it.

"Mommy." Rose sighed and went upstairs. "Stupid school, stupid momma."

"Rose!" Scarlett called after her.

"I hate being the bad cop scar, but she needs to go to school." I sighed and  leaned against her chest when her and Estella got close enough.

"I know, she'll get into a routine of being away from her." Scarlett reassured me as she took the mop out of my hands and handed me Estella. "Go to our room and feed her and then get ready, once the kids are ready and in school I was thinking we could go for a walk around the park like we did when you were pregnant."

"Maybe." I sighed and headed up to our room.

I walked past rose's room where I heard her mumbling under her breath about I stupid school was and how mean I was.

Taking a deep breath I walked into our room and got settled on the bed with the baby.

"How are you sweet baby, are you mad at me too?" I asked jokingly, trying not to cry.

This past week the kids have  been home harder than I thought it would, we're still getting settled with a new born and it's quite stressful but adding a 8 almost 9 year old who suddenly hates me is making it harder.

Wiping away my tears, I helped her latch on before grabbing my phone.

"That's rose and cosmo ready, I'm going to take them to school now but cosmo wanted to say bye to his momma." Scarlet said as she poked her head into the room.

"I'll be down in a minute, let me sort myself out." I tried my best to smile before unlatching the asleep baby who was basically just using me as a pacifier.

"I'll go put her in her bassinet down stairs." Scarlett said as she took Ella out my arms and headed downstairs.

I composed myself before heading downstairs, where I was attacked in a hug by cosmo.

"Momma!"

"Hey my sweet boy, have a good day at school my love." I smiled and kissed his head before turning to face my sweet rose. "Rose can I have a good bye hug?"

"No thank you." She said while glaring at me.

"Okay, well have a good day my love." I smiled at her before she walked out the door to the car.

"Bye momma," cosmo smiled before following after his sister.

"Babe, I'm sorry but I was called into a last minute meeting so I'll probably be back after I pick the kids up from school." Scarlett sighed as she pulled me into a kiss. "Do you want me to call one of our moms or your sisters?"

"No, I can handle her. I need to get used to being at home with a newborn alone because with you going back to work full time next month and add two other kids on top."

"Okay, I'll call after the meeting if I finish earlier." She smiled before leaving to go to the car.

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"Shh it's okay, it's okay." I cooed as I walked around the room with a crying Estella. "Baby please."

I was exhausted, she's been crying since 12 and it's now 3pm.

"Please, I changed you three, I've fed and burped you twice ." I sighed and l laid her against my shoulder. "Why won't you stop crying."

She stopped for a moment but then started again.

"Why can't I do anything right for my girls today." I sighed and sat in the sofa with her laid against my legs.

I couldn't stop crying as I looked down at Estella's tear soaked face.

"Let's try this shall we?" I tried to calm myself down as I stripped her from her onesie and rubbed her stomach gently with a little pressure.

Within minutes she stopped crying and a minute later what I can only describe as a poo explosion happened.

"Let's get you cleaned up bubba." I smiled when she was back to her happy baby self.

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Once I had her back asleep in her bassinet, I allowed myself to breakdown.

"Honey we're home-" I heard Scarlett say as she walked into the living. "Roro, why don't you go to the play room and do your homework. Cosmo go with rose."

Once the kids where gone she came over to me.

"Are you okay?"

"I can't do anything right. Ella wouldn't stop crying for three hours, rose hates me and I'm terrible at being a momma." I sobbed into her shoulder.

I blame my stupid hormones.

"You got her down, you over come the crying and rosé doesn't hate you."

"She hates me scarlet! She hasn't talked to me properly in 4days and refuses to even hug me now."

"Oh baby." She sighed and pulled me into a tight hug, letting me cry until I had no more tears left to cry.

"It's normal to feel like this after you have a baby. You are an amazing mother, you are just overwhelmed and it's normal."

"I feel like I'm letting them down."

"I'm sorry momma." Rose said as she walked into the living room with tears falling down her cheeks.

"Baby you have nothing to apologise for." I wiped my face and turned to her.

"I don't hate you! I love you momma." She sobbed as she ran over to me.

"I love you too roro, can you tell me what's been going on?" I asked as I wiped her cheeks.

"Martin said now that Ella is here that you don't need me and cosmo because you have your own baby." She sobbed into my chest. "That you are going to run away with Ella when we get to much."

"Rose, I would never and I mean ever leave you and cosmo." I told her as I stood up with her in my arms and walked over to the glass cabinet what held rose and cosmo's adoption certificates what were for decorations as the real papers where safely in mine and Scarlett's office. "See those?"

"Our papers?" She asked with a sniffle.

"Your adoption papers." I confirmed as I smiled at her. "Those are proof that I will never leave you and cosmo, you are my babies and I lover you, cosmo and Ella more than anything."

"Really?"

"Really, if I was ever going to run away with Ella, you two would come too because I could never leave my kids."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

"Okay, I think that's enough crying for one day." Scarlett laughed as she joined us. "Why don't we have a movie night."

"Yes! I'll go get cosmo!"

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