Dear Summer, To NYC!

CHAPTER TWO

"If you find it in your heart to care for somebody else, you will have succeeded."

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(John B's POV)

It felt like my heart was gonna stop beating at any moment. All of my worst fears were unfortunately coming true. I was losing the only girl I've ever truly loved and there was nothing I could do about it.

"Do you think this decision is for the best?" I sniffled, trying to hold back the tears forming in my eyes.

"I just don't want to hurt you by saying we'll be fine, knowing that long distance would only hurt me and make things worse for us. I love you John B. I love you way too much to do that to you," she explained, wiping a tear that escaped onto her cheek.

As much as it hurt to hear, it did make sense. I was grateful that Sarah could at least be honest about this rather than bottle it up because she wanted to spare my feelings. I care about her well-being more than my own which I know is probably very bad, but I can't lie and say it isn't true. As I've said many times before, I want to be there for her as much as I can. Even if it hurts me.

"I understand," I faked a smile, trying to be strong. "Thank you for being honest."

"Thank you for understanding. If things don't work out between us, I still really want to be your friend," Sarah stressed, grabbing my hand.

"Of course. I'll always be by your side."

The air got a little awkward at the table, I mean we did just kind of break up. Gratefully, Liz came with our food so we could at least eat our sorrows away.

"Let me know if you two need anything else!" Liz beamed before walking away.

We ate our meals in silence, occasionally breaking it now and then to talk about something. Soon enough we finished, I paid, and we were standing outside the restaurant.

"You know, every time I'm outside this place I think about the time you were stalking me behind those bushes," she remembered, pointing at the bushes where I lost all common sense.

"Yeah I try to forget about that as much as I can but you've always made sure it stays in my memory," I huffed, blushing from embarrassment, while Sarah laughed to herself.

"Are you going to be okay John B?" she asked suddenly and I quickly turned my head towards her.

"Yeah, I will. It might take some time but that's to be expected," I reassured.

"I'm just really afraid this might come between us," she confessed, looking down.

"No, of course it won't. It might be a little awkward at the beginning but I know we wouldn't let this come between our friendship," I reasoned and she nodded in response.

I walked with Sarah to her house and when I made sure she was safe inside, I started the venture to my house. I did a pretty good job of staying strong in front of Sarah but now that I was alone I couldn't help but completely bawl my eyes out.

I knew eventually I would be able to move on, but even the thought of moving on from Sarah was painful to have in my mind. And even though I knew I was strong enough to reach that point, it still hurt like hell right now.

I took my phone out of my pocket and went to my contacts. I scrolled until I landed on Kiara's contact. I hesitated slightly before pressing the call button and holding the phone to my ear. I wanted Sarah to think I was okay and I knew if Kiara found out I wasn't okay she would tell Sarah but.. I needed a best friend at that moment.