Blessed (gxg)✔️

14. Ouch

I get to the front door of the apartment after a few days of doing shit that burdens my heart and pull out my keys but then pause before inserting them. My ear tingles, hearing something from the other side of the door.

"Mm, Trina just like that."

I turn around and leave the building right away with a slightly sour look on my face. I head towards the nearest taco place, hoping for some early morning tacos and find a charging port with a borrowed wire. The one I bought last week was bummy and I don't like people like that, to ask for favors so my phone was steadily dying. When my phone turns back on, I read my messages like I should have before I came home but it was dead.

Trina 💛🤞

Okay, thanks for telling me💗
[received 6 days ago]

~You were in a call (2hrs)~

Miss you... [received 3 days ago]

Me too, just a little while longer🤞

I had a bad nightmare and Idk
when you coming home [received 3:21am]

Ft? Loves? Please? [received 8:54am]

I'll be home in a few hours
Sorry I'm quiet, I was fighting 10% for
days. Want me to bring food?
[delivered just now]

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My screen goes black as I stare at the screen, somehow hoping for a response that I know isn't coming considering her face is between the legs of that girl she's with right now.

I know it's just a hookup to distract herself and I'm glad it's not in the bed like we promised each other but I miss her right now so I wanted to see her right away but of course I had the worst timing.

I'm just mad I can't see her right now, not that she's sleeping with someone because I'm no longer jealous about that. It's just an outlet for her with other people and I'm glad she tends to be open about it despite ragging on me when I'm open about it.

She knows I'm vocal on things that matter to me or bother me- unless it's about our relationship because I'm not starting more conversations until work stuff is handled. So when I'm leaving information out, it's because it didn't matter, which is why she was so upset I brought up Princess a few times as if she was more than a hookup.

With Trina, some things are opposite. If it matters to her, it's kept more hidden and reserved in her thoughts but if it's not personal, then she has no issues sharing about it. I think the only thing that matters to her- that she was transparent about from the beginning- was the fact that she loves me and Niquey.

So when she tells me she had a hookup or expresses that she finds a passing stranger attractive, it means it has little value to her. But on the flip side, when she's secretive or hesitant, it's important and hard to talk about. Like her mother is a hard topic, Niquey not being around is a hard topic, me sometimes getting too high with Dre or other guys from the gang is a hard topic, so and so forth. So I avoid these things to make her feel safer because I like being her safe place.

Anyways, I finish getting my tacos and eat alone, watching the fog from my breath considering mid winter in NYC is frosty and wet for no reason.

I go through my phone and post an older video to TikTok, immediately getting blown up with likes and comments from the overactive followers. I laugh a little and scroll through the replies, passing my time accordingly.

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Trina's POV

"Thanks for that," I sigh with my head falling back into the couch. Kat smiles and nods, getting her bottom half dressed again.