Blessed (gxg)✔️

A/N ~ sequel & new book

Yooo thanks for reading up Blessed. This story was hard, lovable, stressful and entertaining to write but all the support really got me through it. I love Shawnee and Trina and I'm happy to give them the ending they deserved even through there were a lot of bumps along the way.

First things first: check out my new book Everytime, Everywhere (Short Stories) - it's a collection book of lgbt+ couples and pairings. It will have multiple short stories and smutty one shots. The first short story in there is S4S about a different OC couple I briefly talked about in my other books but the only chapter posted right now is a oneshot. After the short are more oneshots, then another short story about a FemxFem coupling. Etc. etc. a lot planned there ;)

Now for the sequel; Sacred. It will focus on Shawnee and Trina's third kid, Nyla. The thing about Nyla's storyline though is that I'm getting straight vibes from her so idk if its gonna hit like I want it to but her main love interest I feel is trans ftm. I'm not sure but here's the idea.

Synopsis: Nyla knows her family would be incomplete without her, but something just makes her feel like she's the weakest link, the burden. After an accident she feels she caused in her childhood, Nyla navigates the betrayal of her closest friend and brother all the while her hidden feelings resurface with the return of the guy she used to crush on (sporting an injury she never knew about).

But wait, what about her boyfriend?

Here's a sneak peak:

Nyla's POV

"How's his eye?" Bubba asks, motioning around her face. My head snaps her direction.

"What happened to his eye?" I quickly ask, Malakai turning to me and nervously glancing between Bubba and I.

"Uh- ahem. He had a injury some time ago so he's partially blind now." Malakai explains with bubba squinting at us and sucking the chip dust off her fingers.

Blind?!

"Hm... I sense I said something off." She points at Malakai. He nods and she blanks before her eyes widening and making a face. "Right... aight so it's fine Ny, he's chilling. Don't worry bout it." She tries to brush it off but all the nerves I didn't have before flood my system.

"Wait, what injury? Is he okay? Why didn't you tell me?!" I rush out, suddenly feeling protective and upset.

"Whoa whoa Ny, relax!" Malakai puts his hands up. "He didn't want anyone to know. Including you, That's why. So don't pin it on me." He makes me sink into my chair, my previous excited actions calming into a pained one.

"Oh." My mind flashes around to the last I heard from him. Almost two years ago, just a few weeks after his disappearance.

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'Izan?' I feel my heart drop to my toes to hear him calling me. The number was unknown, I didn't realize...

'Hey Nyla...' his voice jittery and weak like he had been crying.

'I'm mad at you.' I refuse his excuses for ghosting me before he begs to just have me stay on the call.

'I know. I don't deserve it, no apologies, No arguements. I don't want to make you upset I just...' he sighs and I feel like I hear him take a shaky breath. '... but can I just.. can I just hear your voice a bit?' He whispers into the call.

My throat tightens with my emotions welling up. I just nod, even though I know he can't see me.

'Thank you god, thank you.' He just mumbles and whispers. Worry comes back into my heart.

'... why did you call? What about Kai?' I feel myself quietly ask.

'I called him too, and my parents. I needed something to hold onto cause I'm alone right now.' He says and my mind flashes to the scars I've seen on his body that I don't dare comment on. The same ones I've inflicted on myself a couple times but hide from others.

'Wait why? Are you disappearing again? Don't. Please? Why did you leave? Why- what happened? Did I do-'

'No! It wasn't you. You did nothing. You have never done anything, not when you were a kid and not now. Please Nyla, don't sell yourself short. I'm just going through a tough time and I need space to sort it.' He replies and sniffles.

'Are you coming back...?' I know I'm scared of the answer. He takes a long pause with a sad laugh.

'Hopefully.'

'What does that mean, Izan?' I get angry again.

'Ha.. it means I would like to but I don't know if I can.' I hear some background noise.

'It's time-' some lady's voice. 'I gotta go Ny.'

'Wait! What does it mean?! Will you call again?!'

'I don't know. But...Thank you for everything, truthfully, you are one of the greatest people I have ever known and I'm truly blessed to know you. Goodbye Nyla.' He says right before the phone cuts off and I'm left with tears hot streaming down my face.
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Malakai goes to speak again, Bubba walking away to do whatever, but I just stand and close the snacks I was eating. I'm not hungry anymore and don't really feel like talking but I do.

"I thought he stopped talking to you. When I asked..." I trail off, bitter feelings and sour memories making the bite run up my throat. Malakai just looks at me, knowing he has always refused talking to me about Izan as if he just stopped existing. Knowing Isis, his girlfriend, Izan's identical twin sister! Has refused talking to me about him for just as long.

"Sorry I didn't say-"

"Mhm." I walk back to my room, leaving him behind to think to myself in the dark while curling into my bed with my eyes starting to well up.

Honestly. I thought he was never coming back. When days went by and he never called. Weeks went by and Malakai would never answer my questions about him- saying he hadn't heard from him in weeks. Isis avoided talking about him as if it hurt her and I didn't want to make her pain worse so I avoided it too. Not even his parents told me anything.

Then soon after a year passed and he was only a pain that lingered every few days. And now, Two years later, he's just coming back and I'm supposed to accept it?

I thought he was gone and it hurts more to know he just didn't want to speak to me. Nothing can fix this feeling in my chest when I don't think I'm wanted even in my own home.

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[if you're into it, let me know. Cause I'm not super confident and it'll take a little while to really work out the kinks before posting. Should I change anything? or are we feeling this idea, Cause I'm getting TENSION and unresolved anger, and SECRETS all around, ya dig?]