Pixie soul (Pixie Series 3-Completed)

Monster

Tobias

It's already 3 am in the night and I'm struggling to sleep. Rose is with her parents. I stayed at home after the huge fight we had. I didn't want to be in a place where I needed to lie some more. I'm already lying to my family about her in order to keep her safe. I never imagined things would be so complicated when I first saw her. But again, it's not like I could have left her alone. The desire to taste her took my mind away, and my instincts took over. I doomed us both with my curiosity and now she is miserable and I... for the first time in 400 years, I'm afraid.

The door opens and I hear her light steps on the floor. She pulls the cover away and crawls into bed next to me. She turns her back at me and stays like that for a long time. It seems like ages go by until she finally changes her position again and places her head on my chest, hugging me with her right arm. I let out a shaky breath, kiss the top of her head, and finally, I fall asleep. Two hours later, I wake up to her mumbling something.

"Are you ok?" I ask her but she doesn't reply.

"Please stay with me!" She says with a shaky voice. Her tears fall down and wet my chest. She's having a nightmare.

"Darling? Wake up! It's just a dream! Wake up!" I say gently and caress her hair, hoping she would wake up as peaceful as possible.

"Please, Bailey! Please!" She cries and jumps screaming and tossing her hands and feet. I wrap my arms around her, pulling her back to my chest as I continue to stroke her hair. She cries with desperation while clinging on to me. In this moment, I realize I'm torn between two feelings: my heart breaks because she is clearly in pain, and I'm jealous out of my mind on this Bailey.

"I'm so sorry!" She says, still crying heavily.

"You have nothing to be sorry for!" I tell her, although I don't really believe my words.

"I'm a monster!" She says and I smile bitterly.

"The only monster in this room is me, darling!" I say and kiss the top of her head. She takes a deep breath and dries her tears with her sleeve.

"Bailey was my best friend growing up." She says and I stop breathing. Is she going to tell me the story?

"We were inseparable! At first, I thought I loved her like a sister. But as we grew up, I noticed that the love I had for my brother was different than how I felt about her. So one day, while we were at the seaside, I kissed her. We were both fourteen when that happened. She didn't reject me. She kissed me back and from that moment on, we became lovers." She says and her voice chokes again from the tears.

"We were each other's everything: first kiss, first sexual experience, first love... we went to the same university. I asked her to marry me the night of our graduation. She said yes! We went out, drank a glass of wine and then got into the car to drive home. I was driving..." her voice is hollow as if she's seeing a ghost or something. She gasps as her tears start falling again. She digs her fingers in my arm and continues speaking softly.

"I wasn't looking! I was admiring how beautiful the ring looked on her finger. And I didn't see the light turn red..." she says and her voice cracks again.

"I couldn't pull her out of the car... I tried... I screamed for help but it was 2 am. Nobody was on the street. The car was burning..." she says and digs her nails even harder in my flesh. I'm pretty sure I'm bleeding by now, but I don't care. I just want her to talk to me!

"There was gas... I had to step away. And then the car exploded..." she says and breaks down into another long sob.

"I'm so sorry, my love!" I tell her and kiss the top of her head. What else do you say when somebody tells you something like this?

"You are still the most wonderful woman I've ever met!" I tell her and she scoffs.

"I'm a monster!" She says and finally looks at me.

"Then we can both be monsters together!"