love me again / Taekook

blue

 "what if i show you  and make it all new, green, yellow, red and blue, whatever seems good to you,"

Taehyung

I received a message from Jungkook's secretary, she gave me the place where we are going to meet. I intentionally get his secretary's number instead of him, i  personally don't want any contact with him as much as possible. I am now preparing to meet Jungkook and Lisa, i am really nervous but i told myself that i need to do this and i cannot waste anymore time.

I wore a simple dress, it is silk long sleeves, this is actually the latest collection of my company. like always i am the one who are lucky enough to be the  first to wear the new design my company will launch,  i love dressing up ever since i was a kid.  i need to make sure that the quality pass my standard. I studied fashion design because i know designing clothes is the only thing i want to do,  I started cross dressing when i was 13, i am more comfortable wearing woman's clothes ever since. i look at myself in the mirror and sigh, it doesn't matter what i look like i know after this meeting my heart will die again

I arrived in the place where the secretary told me, i ask the server and he lead me to the table once i mention Jungkook's name. I saw jungkook and his wife lisa already seated. I never seen Lisa in person just in some magazine and sometimes in tv, she is a model and she is indeed beautiful

Jungkook saw me, he stand up and greet me but lisa remain seated and just look at me without expression.

" I don't know who you are and i don't know exactly what i am doing here so let's just start because i don't want my time wasted.

Lisa said sound annoyed.

" Hi lisa, I am kim Taehyung, i am sorry to take some of your time and i will make it as fast. "

" i know that you are both wondering why i set this meeting. Lisa, i am sorry but i think you don't know me. i don't know the easier way to say this but i had a relationship with Jungkook before you guys get married,"

I explained and the couple is just listening  intently  so i continue

"coming here and talk to the both of you is something that i never want to do, if not only because..."

I choke, ,i don't know how the two will react to the news

" because?"

Liza ask sound impatient, i gather all the courage i have to continue

" because of my Daughter. Jungkook and I's daughter."

I look at lisa before looking at Jungkook. both of them look surprise and lisa immediately intertwine her hands with Jungkook. I have to admit it still hurt me, i already prepare myself for this but it still hurts to see in my own two eyes, i look up and look at their eyes instead.

" and why now? after what? 6 years? what do you need? money?

Liza said and i feel insulted the way she said it but i calm myself

" no lisa,  i do not need money from Jungkook, i can still manage to raise my daughter but thank you."

I said with sincerity. and i continue

" my daughter was diagnose with hodgkins Lymphoma the moment i gave birth to her, we were treating and managing it ever since, at first everything is doing great until early this year, my daughter's body stopped responding to the medicine anymore so the cancer cells is spreading thr - through her body"

I started shaking and i can feel my eyes getting teary. i can't help it whenever i am talking about my daughter's condition but i force myself to continue. I can't tell what is in Jungkook's mind at this point he is just staring at me and the intensity of his stare piercing through my soul.

" our doctor said she need a bone marrow transplant, all of us got tested but came out negative, we are not a match,  our doctor said that the possibility of the father being a compatible is high. Jungkook, please help me save my daughter, get yourself tested,"

I said and beg, i have given everything and now i just feel so weak

I feel a hand touch mine, i raise my head to look and it was Jungkook

" I will help Tae, of course i will help, she is my daughter too."

I smile with that and said thank you still feeling weak

" and how did we know that the girl is Jungkook's daughter?"

" Lisa! this is not the time to ask questions like that. for crying out loud lisa"

I froze upon hearing that. I look at the woman who ask me. I know that i need their help so i calm myself down.

" It is okay Jungkook she has the right to ask. but to answer you question i only had Jungkook before i had my daughter but if you are still doubtful i can get a DNA test to prove it.

I said casually

" That is not needed Tae."

Jungkook said and i just nod. i look at Lisa who has a bored expression in her eyes

" Lisa, i want to thank you for seeing me and trying to understand that situation i know its not easy for you, please know that i am only doing this for my daughter and nothing else."

He look at me with distaste and look at Jungkook

" be sure of that and we won't have a problem.

With that i said goodbye to the couple after discussing the availability of the test. i walk straight to my car and get in right away, i feel really exhausted. i hold at the steering wheel and grip it tightly. i feel like my heart once again is shattered in pieces. it should have been over 6 years ago but my stupid heart seems like it doesn't know how to give up.

i saw my Jungkook again, the love of my life and my only person. after all these years i been wanting to see Jungkook but i always hold myself because Jungkook belongs to someone else now. after seeing the two couple I might know now why Jungkook left me, they are very good looking couple. Lisa is really beautiful, a known model here in Korea, Jungkook looks more manly now than he is 6 years ago, his body is built, muscular, he also has a tattoo in his  arms that he doesn't have one before. I just hope that someday that i will get my closure then maybe i can truly move on

Author;s note:

what do you think about this chapter guys? 

it is painful right? a love of a mother is indeed beautiful :)