love me again / Taekook

yet to come

" the past was honestly the best, but my best is what comes next."

Jungkook

another two weeks had passed and again Taehyung is not answering my calls and i can feel that he is back to avoiding me and i don't know what do anymore.

" Jungkook. Dad wants us to visit them tonight. you have to be home at 6pm"

I look at Lisa and i feel bad for the both of us, tied in the greed of our fathers.

" Liza, can i ask you something?

" sure okay, what is it?"

She said calmly which surprise me usually Lisa will answer irritatedly, i look at her and realize that Lisa look like a mess, her eyes obviously swollen, her cheeks sunken with an obvious weight lost and her hair looks dry, in 6 years i haven't seen lisa this broken.

"lisa, are you okay? you look sick"

i asked, i am concerned. I might not like lisa all the time but i don't hate the girl, after all i respected her for not trying to claim her rights over me, she let me do what i want and didn't bother me at all

" yeah just tired, what is your question?"

"are you still happy like this lisa? is this still all worth it just to make our father's happy?"

I asked her and she shook her head honestly

"i want out Jungkook, let us get a divorce."

shock is understatement, for the past 6 years i been asking her and  never once she agreed with me.

"are you sure? how about your dad?

" i don't care Jungkook. we both suffered enough and it all must stop somehow."

she smile weakly and hold my hand, am happy hearing it and i hold her hands as well, we both nod at understanding

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Taehyung

I am feeling really tired today but i had to drive all the way to Seoul to meet with one of our biggest client Jung corporation, the now Ceo Jung Hoseok was my former schoolmate and friend way back in college. the wife of Hoseok is a very close friend of mine as well, Jung Ha-eun, I personally designed her wedding gown as my gift to the couple. Hoseok is like a ray of sunshine to me. We only meet in his office when i have to sign something but mostly we go out to try out different restaurants, we manage to mix business with pleasure.

" what happened? is hyun jae okay?

" he is fine now , don't worry it is just a flu but he doesn't want his mom to go out of his side. you know kids when they are sick."

Hyun jae, is Hoseok and Ha-eun's 5 year old son.

" i know it is really hard, i can relate since Yerin is the same

" i hope he will be well soon. i will call Ha-eun later, i know she is exhausted she might need some moral support.

I told him and Hoseok smile gratefully

It took us 2 hours before we decided to go to pack up our meeting, I told Hoseok to go ahead first as i am still enjoying my tea, i know that he is worried with his son as well, Hoseok hug me tight and hold my hand before leaving the restaurant.

" you been avoiding me and here you are in Seoul meeting another man."

I froze i don't need to look up to know who it is but i look at him

" what are you talking about Jungkook?."

" you seems like you had fun with your date Tae."

i look at him and i can see anger in his eyes

" do we have a problem Jungkook? because you seems like you have one."

I said annoyingly. i don't get it why does he need to be mad or imply something when he is the one that is married between the two of us.

"no problem Tae, i just can't fathom that you can just move on with Jackson easily and now dating another man."

"oh no, Jungkook, you really do have a problem. but you know what? i don't care you can think whatever you want to think!"

I said angrily. i turn around to leave but he stop me, he hold my arms tightly, i look at him

" what Jungkook?"

i shouted

" you know is my problem Tae? huh? the problem is that i still love you and you are are so blind to see it and you are acting like a bitch jumping from one man to another."

*slap*

I can't believe what Jungkook just said. my blood is boiling with how angry i am right now

" how dare you! you have the right to accuse me? huh Jungkook? look at you telling me that you love me when you are fucking married! you left me remember? you left just like i am nothing. no words, no anything."

"Tae yo-- ."

" i don't love you anymore and i won't love you ever again!"

I cut him and said the biggest lie i had said in my entire life. I run out to the restaurant. i know that even how many times my mind will deny it my heart knows better. I love Jungkook with all my heart and all i have. i love him before and i love him even more now. but i know saying that, hurting him is the only way i can keep him happy with his wife, he is just confused because of our past and because of the kiss and sex. with that thought i cried and cried. i spent more than an hour in my car crying, the pain is too unbearable, i felt it again and for the second time it is because of Jungkook again. and just my luck i feel like throwing up again.

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Jungkook

i am surprise that i was able to get home in one piece, after Taehyung left me in the restaurant i went straight to a bar and drink,  i don't know for how long and how much alcohol i put in my body because the pain is unbearable. i hurt him with my words but he hurt me the most, i feel like my heart shattered in tiny pieces, it is too painful to bear. i heard my phone ringing and i tried all the last energy in my body to answer it

" F-father?"

I manage to say, i feel like i am falling anytime soon

" Jungkook we will have a 1 week investment conference in London this weekend, can you free yourself and leave tomorrow?

" y-yesI- i am g-going  Dad."

the only word i could say before i passed out.

Author's note:

sorry loves, i know this is sad :) i even feel sad myself writing this. i shorten it to not give you so much heartaches anymore. :(