An awkward silence falls over the room, dispite the movie playing on the screen Infront of them neither of them are really paying attention. Ambrosius glances twords bal who is blankly staring off. 'Atleast he seems a bit more calm today' the golden knight thinks to himself, scooting a bit closer to bal who is now aware of ambrosius. "You.. doing alright, bal?" He asks softly, the smaller knight looking up at him. "I guess?" Bal responds softly, his eyes again leaving ambrosius and finding a spot on the ground.
Ambrosius feels dread seep in. Bal has always been dismissive of his own problems but he's never usually this out of it. His hands gently reaches to caress bal's thigh causing his to tense up and look at ambrosius with wide eyes. "Talk to me, bal" he asks, he PLEADS. He needs to be sure bal is ok because he obviously isn't. Ballister shift uncomfortably again, finally looking at ambrosius, giving him his attention, a look of sincerity on his face. "I don't.. know... what's wrong" he answers. To ambrosius this makes no sense yet makes all the sense in the world, bal is obviously upset but he doesn't know why. "That's ok... let's just start small. Is there something I'm doing that's making you uncomfortable?"
Bal shifts again, a sadder look occupies his face. "I don't know. I just don't like how you keep.." he glances off, his eyes filled with thought. "You keep apologizing. But I don't need words.. I need to know you're safe to be around". He says this so blatantly harsh that it actually shocks ambrosius. "Oh." Now it's ambrosius' turn to pause. He thinks for a moment before nodding. "I get it .. if you will, bal. Tell me how I can prove that. What could I do to make you feel safe" he asks, leaning in to press his forehead to ballister's. The action brings the first smile ambrosius has seen from his ... boyfriend in a while. "I'm.. not sure"
Ambrosius forces a smile, kissing bal on the head. "It's ok. But If I do something, I need you to tell me. I don't want to push your boundaries" bal smiles a bit bigger as ambrosius continues "I just want you to be happy.."
A soft silence falls over the room, dispite the movie playing on the screen Infront of them neither of them are really paying attention. Their hands intertwine, bal's eyes droop. He feels safe. He allows himself to doze off. Ambrosius is there to protect him. "Goodnight bal" ambrosius whispers to the now snoring ballister. "I love you" he replies. Ambrosius tears up but stays silent.
"I love you too"
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You're The One Holding The Gun
Fanfictionit took a long time just to get here, to get ballister in the same room as him alone. regaining bal's trust took weeks of countless work. now he's comfortable enough to be in the same room as ambrosius along.. but still ambrosius has no idea what's...
