A Knight's Wedding

Never Gonna Fall in Love ( with Another Man)

I woke up the next morning. My eyes hurting from crying last night. I laid there. I couldn't believe that Jordan was there at the coffee shop. What was he doing here? How did he know I was there? 

Alison!?!

I screamed in my head. She must have contacted him. She could through Liz or the other way around. They set me up!! But how could Ali do this to me. My best friend encouraging the idea of him to even talk to me.

I shook all of this in my head. Fuck him, I thought. I don't need him or any man. I'm going to be the best mother I can be and focus on the baby, me and, well, Ali too.

I got up and took my shower, hoping to start today right. I sang a few Christmas melodies in my head to get into the spirit of the day.

I got dressed and took a deep breath at the top of the stairs. I know Ali is waiting for me. Probably to apologize and give me shit all at the same time. I wished we hadn't go to the wedding. I wish Jordan wasn't there. But then again, it was wonderful to be with someone who cared, or at least it felt like he cared.

I walked down the stairs to the kitchen. Ali left a note,

Be back. Went to get milk. 

Great. Can't make a coffee now. I decided a tea. Strawberry flavour. I waited for the kettle to boil. Tears began to fall. How could I let another man hurt me like this?  Worse is that Jordan hurt more than my husband. As the kettle stopped boiling, I wiped my tears. I tried at least, but I couldn't stop crying. I took my mug and sat  at the dining table and put my head in my hands and began to sob.

"She's a man." I heard someone say behind me. I jumped in my seat causing my tea to spill. I turned around to find Jordan sitting on the couch.

"How the fuck did you get in here?" I said in shock.

Jordan didn't move or looked up at me, " I was outside waiting."

I looked around alittle, " for what?" I asked.

Jordan sat still only his mouth moved as he talked, "For you." He answered, " You didn't want me hear you so I waited for you as close as o could without upsetting you. So I waited outside." 

I was angry cause I wasn't ready for this. Sad because I felt sorry for me and happy because I love him and he is here.

"How did you get in my house?" I asked.

"Ali let me I. When she saw me outside. She told me you had something to tell me. She didn't know what but we needed to talk." Jordan explained.

I took a sip of my tea. Getting ready for what was about to happened, "Who the fuck is she Jordan." I said getting straight to the point like ripping a bandaid.

"She's a he. My cousin, Joseph, or Joanna now." Jordan said.

I began to laugh, "Am I suppose to fucken believe that!!" I bellowed.

Jordan stood up and sat on the dining chair next to me, "Yes, cause it's the truth. I went back to our seats at the table and you and Ali were gone."

"I went to get you. Then that bitch..."

"Bastard." Jordan interrupted.

" that girl poked your back. You turned," I said as I started to sob, " and... she...ki..."

Jordan stood up fast. Took my hands. I stood up and he serapes his arms around me, giving me the biggest bear hug I ever had and so gratefully need right now.