{So I made it a two-part because i didn't have a lot of events to talk about that I was comfortable talking about but i have a few more that I'm comfortable saying and mostly these are bad but there are some good ones so let's get into it! <3}
Getting back together with my ex, "It was a bad idea calling you up you put your hands under my shirt, undid my bra, and said these words, you pushed me up against my wall threw my clothes down on the floor, "Darling, are you ready for more?"It was a bad idea calling you up was such a bad idea, I'm totally fucked, was such a bad idea, I can't get enough"-Bad idea! by Girl In Red
Vent to the wrong person, "So, I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in me and not how I turned out to be there's some kind of burning inside me it's kept me from falling apart and I'm sure that you've seen what it's done to my heart but it's kept me from falling apart now here I lay as I wonder about you would you just tell me what I'm meant to do? 'cause I've waited and watered my heart 'til it grew you can see how it's blossomed for you"-Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart by Mitsuki
Waiting for someone to change when they never did, "I'm scared it feels like you don't care enlighten me, my dear, why am I still here? I don't mean to be complacent with the decisions you made but why? Mm, in the back of my mind, you died and I didn't even cry no, not a single tear and I'm sick of waiting patiently for someone that won't even arrive"-Romantic Homicide by D4vd
Being called my dead nickname, "I killed that bitch Brianna, and with her body went her name So if you see me IRL don't call me that again the ugly side, The part I hide, lies deep inside of me wait, did I say me? I'm talking about Bri you asked who Bri is? I don't know her she was way too mediocre no one wants her mother fuck her baggage last I heard she's getting meaner, please let me know if you see her I'll try harder guarding all her damage I'd rather kill myself than reminisce on who I use to be I'll put a bounty out on every memory someone has of me you ever wish you could erase all that took place and just start clean stuck in the past, too much regret."-Talking About Bri by Megagonefree
living in a loop for a week, " Pipe down with the noise, I cannot bear my sorrow I hate who I was before I fear I won't live to see the day tomorrow someone tell me if this is Hell, I gotta escape the void, there is no other choice, yeah tryna turn off the voices, the void ate me look at the mess I've done, there is nowhere to run, yeah holdin' a loaded gun, the void like a priest behind confession walls, I judge myself kneelin' on a metal grater bloody, like a body that has died, and it's myself tangled in my own intestines I gotta escape the void, there is no other choice, yeah Gotta escape the void"-Void by Melanie Martinez
My mom and my father fallout, "You teach me how to behave I felt you question the way I was brought up as a baby well you don't know fuck about my family could never tell you what happened the day I turned seventeen the rise of a king and the fall of a queen seventeen, seventeen never fell down like a princess I used to kid myself in this stress that it was just how things were meant to be oh, seventeen, seventeen."-Seventeen by MARINA
Believing everything I saw about beauty, "I wanna rip out my intestines, throw them in the sea I wanna raise the money to invest in plastic surgery I wanna cover myself head to toe in super sexy scars 'cause I mean, aren't you supposed to burn if you're a star?I want to be torn apart excruciatingly I punish my body 'cause it's not good enough for me the scary thoughts are spreading like a weed the thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed I wanna take a knife and draw a line across my chest I wanna feel much better than I do when I am at my best I wanna fly away from my own skin and find a better place I wanna slash across what used to be my face I want to be torn apart excruciatingly I punish my body 'cause it's not good enough for me the scary thoughts are spreading like a weed the thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed they say that it gets better but I guess that was a lie I guess we all just fake it 'til we die sympathy and love we can extend to someone else but it's harder when you have to love yourself"-I Deserve to bleed by Sushi Soucy
Never being good enough for one of my parents, "Now it's been long enough to talk about it i've started not to doubt it, just wrap my head around it haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? you might also like go and stretch out my arms long as they need to be turn off all alarms and lie to me haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough? haven't I given enough, given enough?-Gilded Lily by Cults
Being a daddy's girl, "Maxa-Maxa-Million, what you waiting up for? please come out and play with us more Izzy Izzy Izzybell likes to stay in the house please come out and play with us now M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy Mama's boy, mama's boy M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy M-A-M-A-B-O-Y, mama's boy, mama's boy"-Mama's boy by Dominic Fike
Trying to be everything for everyone at a time, "Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending? If it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was a little bit of everything, all of the time a bit of everything, all of the time apathy's a tragedy, and boredom is a crime, I'm finished playing, and I'm staying inside"-Goodbye by Bo Burnham
Finding the love of my life, "In the midst of the crowds in the shapes in the clouds I don't see nobody but you, in my rose-tinted dreams wrinkled silk on my sheets I don't see nobody but you boy, you got me hooked onto something who could say that they saw us coming? tell me do you feel the love? spend a summer or a lifetime with me let me take you to the place of your dreams tell me do you feel the love?"-Double take by Dhruv
Breaking up with a cheater, "You got blood on your hands how do you plead? Boy, it's like treason, how you treated me it's eight Mondays in a row, nine days of the week these tantrums been old all bitter, no sweet you're killing my vibe in ways words cannot describe but I'll try, I'll try you put the "over" in lover, put the "ex" in next ain't no "I" in trouble, just the "U" since we met 'cause you're toxic, boy I ain't even gotta try to find the G-O-O-D in goodbye"-Good in goodbye by madison beer
Being left out by friends i had known for years, "Everyone at school thought we were sisters dressed the same, talked the same, together all the time you could find me in your family pictures next to you, in the frame, but you moved on and I'm replaced I only want you to be happy but I never thought it'd be without me Ooh, ooh, now you don't know me at all you left without warning always thought that it'd be love that was gonna mess me up, didn't think it'd hurt this much when best friends break up you don't even seem upset about it, guess I'm the one who lost the things you had all the time you seem like you're cool though without it cause you put me through hell just to have someone else I hope he always makes you happy but why did it have to be without me?Ooh, ooh, now you don't know me at allYou left without warning always thought that it'd be love that was gonna mess me up didn't think it'd hurt this much when best friends break up"
{that's part two and I'll see yall later Mwah 🫶🏻}
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RandomHii! This is a get-to-know-me book and a vent book I have a few things to get off my chest and I hope we can be friends