PERSON IN THE FLAMES {TWILIGHT}

5

{warning here, R*pe scene}

Blow out your candles for daddy. the sickly sweet voice of my father filled my ears. Little me closed her eyes and wished for her fathers love. She blew out the candles before opening her eyes. Both her mother and father clap in glee.

Can I get my big present now? the little version of me asked. NO I screamed at the memory. My scream fell to deaf ears. Of course you can, it's in the basement. Come let's go have a look. My father said, having a silent conversation with my mom.

She nods as I grab his hand. He opens the door to the basement and the younger me runs down the stairs into her undoing. Younger me looks around confused. I dont see any presents down here. she shouts up the stairs.

Its not something you can see Alyvia, its something you feel. Im going to show you how much I love you, my sweet Alyvia. he says, she tilts her head. RUN I wanted to scream at her. But if I cant see it, how can you show me?

he doesnt respond, he unbuttons his shirt all the way, removing it entirely. My mother sets up a camera in the corner. He walks over to younger me and sits on the bed, pulling her into his lap. He kisses the top of her head.

My sweet Alyvia, mine forever. Until the end of my life. she giggles and I shake my head. He moves her hair to one side and places slow kisses on her neck. Dad, stop. it tickles. she pouts. He grabs the hem of her dress, pulling it above her head.

My hands start to shake in fear and anger. Dad. she exclaimed. Grabbing both her wrists he spins her around on to the bed, pinning her to it as tears build up in my eyes. His hands travel down her small figure reaching in between her legs.

She shifts uncomfortably, what are you doing? she exclaimed puzzled. She tries sitting up, only to be pinned. Dad, get off. She lifts her hips to push him off. You said I hate you, I dont. I love you. he slams his lips on hers, biting them. She turns her face. Dad, stop! her voice turned into a panic yell. She tried pushing him away, her hands ended up in a vice grip, leaving marks. He kisses her again, sliding his hand into her underwear. She pulls away.

Stop, I dont like this. DAD STOP. her screams were ignored. He trails kisses down her neck. Still rubbing her, tears well up in her eyes. She blinks them away. St-stop. I dont like this. her heart rate speeds up.

Thats okay, you will. Eventually. he muttered into her neck. She kicks him and screams HELP! As tears stream down her face. He pins all her limbs down and whispers in her ear. Scream as loud as you want baby, no one can hear you, even if they were standing at the top of the steps.

No matter what she tried he was still stronger in every way. Mom, stop him please. she cries out. Feeling him remove her underwear. Baby, just relax okay? Daddy is showing you how much he loves you. She came over and picked up her hands.

This is what you wanted right? Daddy to love you? she asks, wiping away the tears. No, mommy. I dont like this. Please make it stop. Make it stop mom. she begged dont be ungrateful Alyvia, your father loves you very much. You should be happy.

she glared down at her daughter as he placed hickies all over her. Mom, he's hurting me. she cried. Her mom snatched her hands back. Stop moving and it won't hurt as much. she said as he entered her, causing her to scream in the worst pain ever.

The hymen breaks on penetration. I sob watching this memory. Our mother walks over to the camera. Took it over to the bed. Look at you, being a big girl for your daddy. she comments. Shes so tight honey, I love her so much. he says, lifting your little body to move against his. She sob out as the pain goes worse from the new position.my body trembles as I whisper. Make it stop on repeat. The memory fades and Im staring into the fire I started

{scene over}

Throwing the rest of the stuff into the fire, I watch the fire dance wildly to consume the objects in its grip. I take off the clothes Im wearing, throwing it in the fire as well. Putting on new clothes I shovel dirt on to the fire, putting it out.

Driving back to the house, the sky started to lighten up. I check the time. 6:30 AM. Ill stay home today and clean up the house and light some scented candles and write out the note. Plus Ill get some sleep.

Standing under the shower head blood and dirt run down off my body, I watch as the two go down the drain. Feeling emotions swirl around inside. Washing the soap and shampoo off me, I turn off the shower. Getting out I decided Ill decipher my emotions later.