Caroline Cross? nah, Caroline Ray

caroline spelled backwards is chucky

It's 3:35 AM, I wake up nearly blank-minded. "Fuck.." I'd never said that audibly before..what's wrong with me? I get off of the makeshift bed in my mom's office, and stumble over to the vanity mirror she has, I sit down in front of the mirror and my hands rub down my cheeks, and I look down at my hands..fleshy..weird..this feels..different.

it shouldn't feel different..i should be used to this, I've been in my body for years..seriously what Is wrong with me? I stalked the first floor of my home..and go into the kitchen, it's there where I pull a chef's knife from the knife block, and approach where my mom and dad are sleeping until the house gets completely fixed up again.

Mommy and daddy are sleeping on an air mattress, I slowly crawled onto the bed and laid the ice cold heel of the blade on my father's throat, and with a quick slash blood sprays everywhere, the slash was wide and I quickly moved to my mother,

stabbing the knife right into her eye..she screamed but I quickly pulled the blade up and stabbed her right in her big fucking mouth, silenced the bitch right away…wait..this isn't me..what's happening? I can't stop it either, I'm trying. Am I even in control here?

After stabbing them both repeatedly, taking turns plunging the knife into them..I was near saturated in their blood, it was cold and very very sticky, it made my pajamas stick to my skin..god I hate that feeling already.

I plunged the knife into the mattress as I got off of the bed, watching the air mattress deflate. I ventured to the tv room where lexy was sleeping, curled up on my little couch, I pulled her hair and yanked her upright. 

"Care?! What the hell?!" 

I didn't speak, I sunk the knife right in the side of her head, I could've swore I felt it pierce her brain. Her struggles lessened as I twisted the knife around in her head, before pulling it out and slicing her throat repeatedly, slashing it until she was nearly decapitated. Just for good measure I stabbed her chest, her hips, and her thighs. 

My eyes snapped open and I shot up in my bed, breathing heavily as sweat beaded on my face and got in my bangs, I whimpered before my face scrunched up in a small cry of fear, tears ran down my face as I got out of bed and made sure I was okay, and that my family was okay..

I had no blood on me, my body looked normal, I moved my finger and when I did, it moved..so I was in control. I rushed to the other rooms, my mom and dad? Safe and sound..Lexy? Safe and sound..thank god. "Weird dream..not even a dream..a nightmare.."

I whispered to myself, I went into the tv room and gave my sister a hug in her sleep, and I gently put a jacket over her since my mom neglected to give her a blanket. I went into the living room and gave each of my parents a kiss on the cheek, just to show my thankfulness that they're both alright.

I went back to my mommy's office and laid on the makeshift bed, i kept a close eye on chucky..something didn't feel right about him, more bizarre than the usual, it felt like he had something to do with my dream..so I gently nudged him off of the makeshift bed and onto the floor, it wasn't a long fall. Just a quick thud, I went back to sleep after snuggling into the blankets again.

I'm in my..bed..? Again? Through closed eyes I see this dark orange hue, and smell something awful throughout my room, flames? My house is on fire..?! Again somehow?! I tried to get out of bed but I feel my own flesh and muscle run down my legs and down my arms, oh it's so painful, i scream and cry for my sister, since i know my mother isnt there.

"LEXY! LEXY HELP ME! PLEASE HELP ME! LEXXYYY!" I screamed out in agony, I saw myself in the mirror of my room as the flames engulfed the area, I could see my skin melting off of my face, my vision faults before I go completely blind, screaming my head off as I tear off the unicorn onesie and my burning, and now liquidized flesh spills everywhere around me, I feel my bones, my skeleton is now all that's on me..how am I still alive?! I try to scream again, for my sister..my mother..anyone..but no sound came out, I collapsed onto the floor, it didn't hurt since my nerves are pretty much melted away before I slip into this unconscious void..

I wake up screaming, my dad rushed into the room and picked me up as he sat on the makeshift bed, he shushed me relentlessly as I screamed my little throat sore, my mom went in too, then Lexy, but only for a moment before she left to supposedly go to bed again.

My ears rung, I was so scared i couldn't even hear my parents, I looked down at my hands and my little feet too..I wasn't burning, nothing was..thank god, I'm alive. I know I've been suicidal in the past, and I've hurt myself like no tomorrow..but..I've never felt so glad to be alive..

The next morning was a blur, I was timid and lost. In the morning when I was eating my breakfast I hardly ate, I didn't have an appetite right now..I was in my head about the two Nightmares I had the previous night, I still remember them both in vivid detail, every scent, every texture, every ounce of pain I felt in both of them. I just stared ahead blankly as I picked at my breakfast, my ears vaguely rang as my mom berated my sister in the other room again about the fire, their voices were muffled as the ringing in my ears took over for the most part.

"God dammit Alexandra, if you smoked responsibly none of this would've happened!"

"I didn't give her the nightmares?! You're delusional! I didn't do this, it wasn't my fault if you only knew what happened!" 

I heard my mom smack my sister presumably across the face..I wasn't looking..I was too traumatized to intensely focus on them.

"I'm delusional?! You nearly killed several children including your sister in that damn fire you started! it was your fault and you should be ashamed, little girl!!" 

"What about me?! You don't care about how I felt?! If I was alive?! Is that little brat all you care about?!"

"Don't you call her names you little insufferable cunt!! And if I have anything to say about it then no!! I wouldn't care if you were bones and blood on the floor!" 

"How can you say that..?!"

I heard my dad's voice step in a few seconds later.

"Michelle that is too far! I will NOT let you talk about my baby like that! Ever again!" 

Blah blah blah..I hated the arguing..the ringing in my ears got louder and louder until I groaned and gently covered my ears with my hands, resting my head on the table, I felt a little hand gently touch my shoulder and then bring my hand away from my ear.

"You uh..wanna go outside..? It's nice out, and you could use a break." 

"Sure..thanks chucky, there's a playground down the street..can you take me? I know a route through my backyard." 

"Sure kiddo, sure."

I left a note on the table saying I was going to the park, and chucky n I left, it was nice of him to take me away from the stress while my biological dad just induced it more whilst arguing with my mother in the other room.