Caroline Cross? nah, Caroline Ray

playground confrontation

Chucky and I left the home after he made sure I got my jacket on, and my scarf..and a beanie..he made her my clothes were long length and warm for the cold but not too harsh November weather.

"Is this all really necessary?" I comment as I zip up my jacket, he pulled my gloves from my pocket and slid them down onto my hands gently. 

"Yes, it's cold."

"What about you then?"

"Don't worry about me, pull your beanie over your ears, you'll get sick if you get too cold." 

I did as he asked with an annoyed sigh, "and..when we get there, I gotta talk to you.." I said as I picked him up, carrying him with me as we headed off towards the park.

"Okay, what about?"

"Why'd you abandon me? After the housefire you left me." 

"I..didn't abandon you..?"

"Yes you did." 

"No, I really didn't. What are you on about?" 

I felt my blood run cold as his tone shifted, my tone got a bit shaky as we continued to walk through the wooded trail, it was just us..the silence was deafening.

"Yes you really did, my dad brought me this half burnt doll instead of you, that wasn't you at all. You abandoned me." 

"Caroline, that was me! What did you expect me to do? Come alive right infront of him?? Are you fucking stupid? I explained why I couldn't do that on halloween!"

He called me stupid, which is one thing that I wasn't, I set him down on the ground, my hands tightened into fists, so tight my pale hands turned whiter as I dug my nails into my palms.

"I'M..NOT..FUCKING..STUPID!" I screamed, I closed my eyes when I did..and when I opened them again he was looking up at me in shock, I'd never swore ever, not even infront of chucky, but I could tell he didn't want me to get the last word when his expression soured,

"Yknow Caroline?? Maybe you are! Maybe you're just fucking dumb! You ever think there might be a reason why people keep calling you stupid, and treating you like it??"

"Chucky i swear to God if you call me stupid one more fucking time.."

"What? What're you gonna do? Kill me? Go ahead Caroline, go right on ahead. I'll even help ya do it if you want! Go ahead, since you wanna be all grown and tough then do it. Kill me, right here."

That was too far, I teared up and let out a few choked sobs before running deeper into the wooded trail that inevitably lead to the park.

"Caroline! God dammit.." 

Once I got to the park I sat down on the swing, lightly brushing my feet against the mulch that covered the ground, my breathing was still short, as if I'm just now getting over my crying, chucky joined a few minutes later, his breathing was heavy, and almost sounded like he was out of breath.

"Don't..ever..go..that far..ever again..ya hear..?" He leaned against the bar of the swing-set to catch his breath. "That's was like..2 miles worth of running, you know how much I care about ya..?"

I didn't respond, I turned my head away from him.

"Caroline c'mon..get over it.." 

Still, nothing.

"Alright..I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry I hurt your feelings, I'm sorry if It felt like I was abandoning you..and most of all I'm sorry I called you stupid, your not stupid, you're smart. You're one of the smartest 6 almost 7 year Olds that I know..okay?" 

I looked over at him, my face still a bit red, my eyes still puffy from crying. 

"Care, I'm really sorry..okay..? I would never abandon you and you know this, you know a whole lot more then what everyone thinks you do, and we both know that I wouldn't abandon you."

"That wasn't you..it couldn't have been you because right now you're just fine..you're all in one piece, you're not burnt at all.."

"I'll explain that all to ya later, but..that was me, and this is..also me. Okay..? Does that make sense at least a little bit..?"

"I guess.."

"Don't 'I guess' me..does it make sense or not? I want to help you understand."

"Yeah, it has something to do with that voodoo stuff right?"

"Yes, yes it does. You're so smart."

"Thank you, dad." 

"..dad?" 

"I didn't say that!" 

"Yes ya did."

I got off of the swing and stomped my foot. "No, I didn't!!" 

"Okay..okay. now..find something you wanna do..and if you want, we can have a little fun.." he took my mom's debit card out of his overall pocket, "the dumb bitch had her pin carved in the back too..stupid slut."

I didn't like what he called my mom..but..having her money did excite me, do you have any idea how rich the mayor of Hackensack, New Jersey is?

"Where would we even go?"

"Well..where do you wanna go?" 

"Can we..go to the mall?" 

"Caroline that's..a bit away from here.."

"Oh.."

"Well no- no hang on now..we can go in the evening..okay? I say evening because I have an idea." 

"And what's that..?"

"You'll see..now, get your energy out, but not all of it..because a 2 mile walk after burning out your energy is a damn killer let me tell ya." 

I laughed a bit, and picked him up, i then ran to the main playground area and found loads of different activities, once the 3 kids who were there left, chucky got to run with me too, and talk to me while I played..my real dad never did this with me, he always said he was too tired from the long walk, but hey..chucky had the same reaction but..here he was, interacting with me, perfectly fine.