Rory

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If you saw i put Rory's pov i'm sorry about that

I can't believe she saw me in that state. I never wanted her to ever see me like that but she worried me when I didn't see her at work and it broke something in me. Her being gone made me think of everything that happened that day with my mom. I'll tell her eventually I just need time.

Rory walked into our room seeing me sitting on the edge of the bed. "Are you okay, do you want to shower?" I nodded before taking a breath and getting up wrapping my arms around Rory. She was shocked but hugged me back.

I kissed her head before pulling back and kissing her lips. "Wanna join?" I asked in teasing tone just cause I liked seeing her get flustered. Her cheeks went crimson red and she looked away.

"Look at me", she hesitated before looking up at me biting her lip. I put my thumb on lip taking it out of her hold. "Pick me something to wear, si?" She nodded and I kissed her temple before going into the bathroom.

I stripped my clothing and got in the shower. The water hit my back easing my muscles. The PTSD started to get less intense when a few months ago but every so often it gets triggered. Today was more intense, not the worse one i've experienced but still bad.

I don't want to do a burden to Rory, she doesn't deserve this, I don't deserve her. She's the most beautiful, sweet girl ever and she's been through so much, just pushing this onto her doesn't help. I think I need to distance myself, but I can't do that and I know I can't.

She controls me it's like she has an unexplainable force that pulls me back from doing something. She makes me... vulnerable? That's the best term. I don't smile, I don't laugh, I don't settle down into a relationship. But she's different, she makes me want to settle down, marry her and her only. Leave everything behind and move to start a new life with her.

One where her dad was out of her mind and my past out of my mind. I can only dream.

I realized I had been in the shower for like 30 minutes and turned it off wrapping a towel around my waist. I walked out of the bathroom and saw the clothes Rory had picked out for me.

Long sleeve black shirt and gray sweatpants with black boxers next to them. I put it on and went downstairs where I saw Rory making something. I went behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist.

"What are you making?" I saw a bunch of stuff out for baking but still wasn't sure.

"Chocolate chip cookies for you, my mom and I used to make them when I was a kid, the perfect recipe you'll love it"

"It was made by you of course I'll love it" I kissed her neck and found her sweet spot before sucking. She let out a soft moan and I felt her relax into me. I pulled my face out of her neck and saw the huge hickey I had left.

I moved my hand up to her neck and brushed it with my thumb. Rory felt my thumb and looked up at me seeing my smirk and she turned around facing me.

"You gave me a hickey again didn't you?" She already knew the answer so I didn't say anything and just kept my same face. She rolled her eyes and turned around to the cookies. Or at least tried.

I grabbed her throat and pushed her back against the counter. "What did I say about rolling your eyes love, hm?" She trembled but she wasn't scared, she was aroused.

Rather than let her answer I smashed my mouth against hers in a punishing kiss. I tightened by grip around her neck making her gasp for a breath of air. I plunged my tongue in her mouth exploring every part. She tasted so fucking good I couldn't stand it.

"EW PDA!" Dante's voice stopped made me roll my eyes.

I gave Rory one more kiss and whispered in her ear, "Don't think this is your get away" I pulled back and grinned seeing her eyes widen but she turned around and continued to make the cookies.

I turned to Dante to see what he wanted and he was eating my left over pizza. I glared at him while he just shrugged, "What I was hungry"

"What are you doing here?" I asked taking a piece of the cold pizza and eating it as-well.

"Came to check up on you, how you doing?" I shrugged.

Dante has been there for me since the high school. He helped me when I left the house and made found out the best way to help with my PTSD. I owe him the world, seriously.

"Im fine now, was just worried and got triggered." I heard Rory open the oven and put the tray of cookies in, then a "fuck!" I looked at Dante to see if he said it but his mouth was full of pizza.

I turned around in shock and saw Rory standing there with tears in her eyes looking at her wrist. I immediately grabbed her wrist and saw a huge burn on it. I closed the oven and brought her over to the sink and ran the burn under cold water.

"You're okay, you're fine don't cry my love." She still had tears in her eyes I could tell she was holding them back.

"I didn't mean to say that it just really hurt I can't believe I said that" She finally let out a sob and I pulled her into my chest holding her hand still under the water.

"Shh it's okay, it was instinct you didn't mean too" She keeps crying but nods. I take her hand out of the water. "Can you get the first aid kit fratello" Dante nods before going up stairs to find it.
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He came back with it and opens it handing my burn cream and gauze. I rubbed the burn cream on the burn and put gauze on it. I kissed it before pulling her head out of my chest "It's all better now okay?" I kiss her before turning back to Dante who had a sympathetic look on his face.

I picked Rory up and put her on the couch, "Watch something, i'll take care of the cookies, si?" She nodded looking up at me and kissing me before grabbing the remote. "Thank you"

"No need to thank me love" I said and walked back to Dante who was putting the first aid kit under the sink. "Why does she get so upset when she curses?" He asked when he finished putting the kit away.

"I think it's cause she doesn't want to be like her dad, guessing he yelled at her a lot and definitely used curse words." Even knowing she's safe and with me, hearing that made my blood boil.

"You know where he is?" I shake my head.

"She asked me not to do anything so I didn't but if I ever see him again I won't be able to control myself" I looked back at her to make sure she was okay and she was, just watching tv.

"She seems amazing, you better not fuck this up Antonio"

I nodded, "I would never be able to let her go even if I did."
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Author
Before anyone says Rory's being a baby it's just a curse word, I made her that way she doesn't curse cause she doesn't want to be like her father so thank you very much, anyways ive been reading the darkest note series and i'm on broken note and i'm absolutely freaking out like wtf. Anyways love you guys mwah- shay

(that darkest note series was good but literally you have to wait until the last book before anything happens anyways love you guys- future shay)