Rory

21

He loves me..

Oh my god. He loves me!

We're currently laying in bed watching Shameless. I had my head on Antonio's lap while he leaned against the head board, eyes on the show, and played with my hair.

He moved his head down toward my ear to whisper something, "I'll be right back, my love." I nodded and he lifted my head off his lap and moved out of bed. I watched him leave before bringing my focus back to the show.

A few minutes later Antonio came back with 2 plates of something. I sat up to see what it was and they were both salads.

"I'm sorry to bring this up on you but you have to eat something. You lost a lot of blood, it's important you eat." Antonio said placing both plates down on the bed side table.

Everything my dad said came back into my head.

Look at you, you don't need to eat that! You're already huge!

You're a waste, i'm not gonna waste money for food on you!

You eat to much as it is! Don't eat that!

If I catch you sneaking food out of the fridge again, i'll shove my fingers down your throat and make you throw it up!

"Aurora!" Antonio yelled shaking me out of my thoughts. I immediately looked up at him but then looked down. He grabbed my chin gently and made me look into his eyes.

"What's wrong?" Antonio asked gently.

I didn't answer, I just stayed silent looking at him. He sighed and kissed my head before sitting down and pulling me in between his legs, my back against his front.

He rested his chin on my head. We continued to watch the show and soon I realized that my plate was half empty and Antonio finished his plate.

"You did it again" I said.

"Did what?" He asked with a confused voice but I could feel him smirking.

"Distracted me so you could feed me"

"Maybe"

He kissed my head again and we went back to watching the show.

"What happened with your parents?" I asked but immediately slapped my hand over my mouth in regret.

He tensed for a second before wrapping his hands around my waist tightly and relaxing. He lifted one arm and took the hand off my mouth.

"I think it's time I tell you" he said while turning me around and making me straddle his lap.

"You don't have to-"

"I have to" He cut me off.

"I had amazing parents, I was an only child. Everything had been almost perfect growing up. We seemed like the most perfect family, middle class, one child, parents who loved each other like they were still young and just met. However, for my dad, the money him and my mom earned was never enough for him. He would start arguments with my mom about her not working hard enough.

Then he decided one night, to join the fucking Italian mafia. He thought he would get more money, be able to go on amazing trips, move into a bigger house. But he didn't think about the dangers of it, never mind the fact that it changed him into the most disgusting and horrible man I had ever met.

I didn't know what he was doing at the time but my mom had. She had begged him to get out of the life before it had effected me but of course he didn't listen. One night, he came home drunk out of his mind. I was 14 at the time, I woke up to my dad yelling. He said, 'You're in my way! Let me do what I want, I can give you a better life! Or would you rather be on the streets selling your body like the whore you are!'

I got up to go see what was going on. Both my parents had been in the kitchen I sat on the top of the steps not trying to be seen and just watched the argue back and forth. My mom had said, 'You're going to get yourself killed! Think about me, think about your son!' I can still hear my mom crying when my dad had hit her. She fell to the floor, I remember I was about to get up but he pulled out a gun.

Instead of getting up and going to help my mom. I just sat on the stairs like a fucking coward, I could've saved her." Antonio explained and at the end he had a tear running down his face.

I hid his face in my neck and rubbed his back while he held onto my tightly.

"It wasn't your fault Antonio. You were just a kid, what were you supposed to do." I told him.

"I could've got up from the stair instead of just watching while he shot her. When she cried out from the pain. I saw the blood pooling around her. One shot to the chest and she was gone, my mom was gone. I could've stopped the bleeding. If I had just gotten up!" He yelled.

I couldn't stop my own tears from falling down as I hugged him tighter and tried to calm him down a little.

He continued, "After he shot her he looked up and saw me at the top of the steps. I was frozen in shock until I saw him running up the stairs. I ran into my room and locked the door hoping to keep him out. I remember closing my eyes and I just replayed the scene over and over in my head until I heard banging on my door. My dad yelled, 'Open this fucking door before I kick it down!' I didn't know what to do so I just sat and waited.

Soon the door had burst open and my dad came through. He grabbed me and dragged me down stairs. He dropped me on the floor next to my dead mother. My dad pointed the gun at me and said, 'If you don't want to end up like your mother, help me clean this up!' I didn't have a choice, I didn't want to die. So I helped him clean up the body, he had called some of his mafia friends to get rid of the body while I cleaned the blood.

After that, he started training me. Said I needed to learn for when I replaced him. That also came with abuse, hitting me with a belt, cutting me with knives. It didn't stop so I did what I thought was best."

"I ran"
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Author
Fun fact, i was obsessed with shameless last summer and it was especially ian gallagher ughhhh that man is so fine i made a cameron monaghan picture thing and i have posters of him. i still have not taken it down but that doesn't matter anymore. lowkey highkey cried making this chapter, anyways hope you guys like it and love you so much also THANK YOU SM FOR 6K READS LIKE UGHH THATS
CRAZY TO ME I LOVE YOU GUYS- shay

(i took it down cause i wanted to change the aesthetic of my room but i still have done that love you guys sm - future shay)