Monster

The Mission

I can't believe this, I have to move in with my dad! If you can even call him that! What kind of shit is that?! Why am I being punished for something I didn't even do!? Anyway, I don't really care, as long as I do what I'm supposed to and get it done on time, he won't be mad and that's a good thing for me, I hope...

I'm Jason, Jason McCann and I'm a profession trouble maker. That's it really, I'm not really anything else, I'm pretty sure I'm not even supposed to still be here, and that's something I'd take to the bank, I can't tell you anything, not that I actually would, who the hell are you anyway, probably just some prick that's waiting to judge me, well, you know what? Get in line, because I have a whole court room of people the get through on this one, and it will most certainly take a while.

I mean what's so fucking special about ...

"JASON!?" I hear my name yelled

"WHAT?" I yell back at my dads friend who picked me up from the my house and I have to spend five hours in this stupid moving van with all my shit it in, this is going to be fucking great

"Well, I called your name like ten times, you must have been pretty lost in thought about something, what were you thinking about?" he asked me, taking a drag from his cigarette, which reminds me I need some more

"Death" I say and ignore him the rest of the forty-five minutes that we had to drive to my new living hell. He doesn't anything anyway, I think I scared him, good, I like when people are scared, gives them a reason to stay the hell away from me and the things that I do, no one bothers you if they think that you're bat shit crazy, it's the perfect solution to never needing any friends, and I intend to keep it that way.

We pull up to this whit picket fence house and I already want to go back to living by myself! This shit is not for me! I stick out like a sore thumb and there's no way in hell I'll ever find these supposed friends I'm supposed to make, when I look like this, I'll hire people to be my friends, they don't even have to speak English, just as long as I can get them to agree, that's fine.

We pull up in front of the house and I just sit there for a second " Here we go then..." I groan and jump out, as soon as I land on my feet, I walk up the stairs to the stupid old little house, the whole time I feel eyes on me, I turn around, but they're gone. I shrug and go inside and see my sperm donor sitting on the couch with a gift bag in front of him

"Wow, you've grown Jase-..."

I stop him as he speaks " Don't ever, and I mean ever, call me that again, I'm not nine anymore and you are not my mother, ok?! Don't fucking call me that"

He stands there startled and amazed that I would even consider talking to him that way, but he's not the big man he once was anymore, he's pudgier, more hair, still the same height, but not the same man that he once was, and I find myself losing all hope for this so called "project" before it even starts.

"Wow, the judge was right, and so was everyone else, you've grown, you've changed, it's been ten years Jase-" I give him a death glare "Jason, sorry. It's been ten years, you have to stop blaming yourself for everything that happened." Is he...Is he really fucking bringing this up now?! I just got here and I feel like I could blow something up and I swear, I will, whenever I get the chance.

"This is complete bullshit! I am forced to come here and then you try having this talk with me again, are you really sure about this, do you really want to test me right now? Because I don't give a fuck." I can tell that I'm getting heated and I need to calm down "is my car here already?" I ask and he just nods " The tank full?" he mirrors his actions from before "Keys, now" he sighs and tries to speak "I said keys, now" without another look, he gives me the keys to my car and I'm gone. I jog out the door and to my car that's sitting outside, my beautiful 1967 mustang, all black, shiny chrome, I spent a lot of money and time on this damn car, it's my baby, it's the only thing that really means the world to me, and nothing will ever change that.

I'm getting in my car as I see another black car pull into the driveway next door, a girl gets out, really long hair, she looks at my car and smiles, then wanders back inside, I'm guessing she's the only one that lives there because the other two in the car didn't get out, they pulled put the driveway and speed off to god knows where, because only god cares.

I can't think about random ass people, I have to think about why I'm here, and what this is all really about, I have a mission of sorts and I have to fulfill that mission in a certain amount of time, or else I'm screwed. I see that girl one more time as she's standing on her porch, the illumination from the street light bounces off her hair and I can see the red and pink...

"You've got to be fucking kidding me"

I sit in my car and think about this, think about why I'm here, and for what reason, then I really think long and about it, and in the end, I know that no matter what happens, I'm completely and utterly screwed.

"Well, let the mission begin...and hope I don't fuck it up" I start my car and drive off, not knowing anything, but knowing that in this moment, I need to get the hell out of here.

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Sooooooooooooooooo, I haven't updated in a while, ok well, about three months and I'm sorry about that. I've been so busy and I'm in school now and I'm almost done in my trade, It's just been a whirlwind of crazy fuckery in my life, and I've come to except that, but I just felt like writing today, and I finished a whole chapter, you should be proud of me, I know I am. Anyway, thank you to the ones that have been ever so patient with me and to the one's that understand this, I really haven't been able to do much since I've been here and it kills me, so I'll do as much as I can, when I can.

I love you all, and I have such I hopes for this book, I really want this book to be the one where I show who I truly am as a writer and just really have fun with this. It should be a fun a crazy long ride, a lot of changes are coming, for me, both in writing and in my personal life, so please bare with me on this and I'll try to do my best to do what I can.

I love you and I'll see you next time.

Love Mads <3