Paper Hearts - 𝕁𝕖𝕘𝕦𝕝𝕦𝕤 𝕆𝕟𝕖-𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥𝕤

what if? [angst]

Bit of angst never hurt anyone..

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What if he was brave enough?

What if he'd taken the opportunity?

What if he had left?

Would he not be miserable?

Did it even matter?

No matter how hard he tried to turn his thoughts around. No matter how hard he tried to mute the voice. His voice. The voice of the boy he loved.

What if he'd copied his brother? What if he'd gone too?

He couldn't leave to him.
He couldn't be cradled by him.
He couldn't be held in his arms.
He couldn't see his gorgeous smile.
He couldn't run his hands through his hair.
He couldn't listen to his laugh on repeat.
He couldn't listen to him rant.
He couldn't not love him.
He couldn't not love James Potter.

If he'd ran. If he'd been brave enough this wouldn't be happening.

He wouldn't see him.

With her.

And so, as the last few words made their way into his ear. Ever so quietly. It was so peaceful yet reckless. So slow but yet so fast.

The arms gripped on tighter. Dragging sharp nails over his ankles. Drawing blood.

It didn't feel right.

It didn't hurt. It felt amazing.

He was alive. And he knew he was living. He knew he was breathing.

He knew this was real.

He let it happen.

He let himself be pulled down into the dark water. At first it felt as if he had to live. Keep breathing and so he held on to the little air he had.

Giving up on swimming.

His chest felt like it was about to explode. The pressure on his ribs was crushing him.

He didn't want to feel anymore.

And so, he gave up trying. He let water fill his lungs as the last bubbles of oxygen rose to the surface. The surface he couldn't see even if he opened his eyes.

Oh those eyes. Gray. The light was sucked out of them ever since they first opened...

So, the boy opened them one last time. Watching the light of the Lumos spell slowly disappear. Until it was only darkness.

Just as dark as his name.

Pitch Black.

R.A.B