Destiny To Be

chapter one

I never thought that my life would take a huge drastic change, cause I never saw myself being where I am right now. A single mother to my 4 years old daughter and my two unborn babies.
Its weird right? Yeah I know. If you had told me 5 months ago that I would be staying in a one-room apartment in Midrand I would have laughed straight up in your face.

Know that this was never the life I had imagined for myself and my daughter I just can't help myself but think about all the sacrifices that I had to make on a daily basis just to make sure that she never went to sleep with an empty stomach or having to make sure that the lights and water are on every month.

Thinking about it makes all the memories more fresh and alive. Even though what I did was wrong but I just don't regret it at all.

Does that make me a bad person? For not having any regrets whatsoever about it.

I did what I had to do to make sure that my daughter has a stable education even if having to befriend people in high places.

Sigh, as I scroll through my Instagram account looking at the pictures I had posted a year ago before everything changed.

I was always the life of the party. I knew how to get the mood going especially when I knew that I had the money to spend on thing's.

Clothes, shoes, lace fronts, and the lavish instagram what I was living, eating, breathing, sleeping and enduring every time when I had a new man to sponsor me.

But little did I know that that was going to end the minute he realized that I was stealing money from him not only to spoil my self but also pay for my daughters fees.

I was a fool for not checking if I was being careful about it.

He trusted me with everything worst of it is that he even fell in love with me and yet I broke his heart when I betrayed him.

Under normal circumstances I would have denied everything when he caught me in my own web of dark lies, but I couldn't lie.
Lying has never been my best of friends especially when being caught red handed in action.

I couldn't tell him why I did it because he didn't want hear anything from me.

He was never a confrontational person and I took advantage of that. I've always wondered how is he a sweet man with a caring heart because after all he was a Zulu man.

Weren't Zulu man supposed to be assertive and be very firm?
Well I guess not with this one.

As I went through my Instagram I came across his account. He had just posted.
When we were together he was never someone who was paying much attention on posting because he was to focused on his businesses.

To my surprise he has changed a lot. He looked a million times better and I don't know if it's me admiring or my horny ass but I won't lie he look really attractive.

If it was back than I would have slide in his DM's boldly complimenting him on how handsome he looked on his pictures, but things have changed I'm definitely sure that I'm probably the last person he would want to her from especially after what I did to him.

But another part of me wants me to let him know that he's going to be a father soon and I wouldn't want him to miss that opportunity, a once in a lifetime opportunity with his first.
But how do I even start the process of texting him because I definitely know that I can't just text with a "Hey Zithulele it's your ex whom you've never want to hear from , but I just wanted to let you know that I'm pregnant"

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I was so tired from all the overthinking that has even began to overwhelm me a little bit that I decided to risk it and text him.

It's pretty late 23:55pm, I'm pretty sure he must be sleeping or busy with something more important.

@Onkarabile Letsoalo: hey Zithulele it's Onkarabile. I know that I'm probably the last person you'd ever want to hear from especially after what had happened between us the last time we were together but I was hope to get a chance to meet up with you to discuss a very important matter.

I wait for his reply knowing that after seeing this message he might as well block me.

To me surprise he didn't  when I saw the green dot on his profile it gave me a little bit of hope.

@Zithulele Mthembu:what matter is there to discuss with you?

@Onkarabile Letsoalo: it's better if I rather tell you in your presence than over the phone.

@Zithulele Mthembu: Tell me what it is about and I shall decide whether I'm keen on meeting up with you or not.

Here goes nothing.

@Onkarabile Letsoalo: I'm pregnant.

I really hope that you enjoyed this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it❤️
Being a first time writer I'd say it's hard because there's alot of editing that need to be done and proof reading before publishing 😫😩.

But I really hope that you enjoy 🦋❤️

NB: PLEASE DON'T STEAL MY WORK.