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epilogue

i went back to what i was used to call home that was now protected by dozens of my father's guys.

when i reached his office, i didn't bother knocking. i burst inside like some kind of intruder. well, that's how i felt in my own house anyway.

"michael! what a surprise to see you here." he was sitting on his expensive leather chair behind the wooden desk with a cigar being held between his fingers and close to his lips.

"i thought i told you about not involving sam in this, you bastard." i was standing in front of him, fuming with anger, trying not to attack him.

"boy, when you are going to sit here, in this very position, you are not going to have emotional bonds with anyone." he took a drag of his cigar when he finished his sentence.

"i don't want this position. i never did." i shouted and took a step, resting my hands on his desk. "you can't even love and respect your own son, for fuck's sake! why would i want to be a heartless monster like you?" i banged my hand on the table and i tried to hold back a few tears. my father waved his hand and the two guys protecting his office were already out, so we were left alone.

"michael, this business is heartless on its own. softies don't survive." he remained calm, but his words were harsh; he was basically telling me that i wouldn't survive.

"i told you i don't want to be a part of this shitty gang" i was basically screaming, but that wasn't even the reason why i came here. "i agreed to be an active member, just so you wouldn't get sam in your shit." i was pointing at him with my finger as his facial expression remained the same. "i warned you about this, you fucker." i didn't think i could curse that much, but talking to this man in front of me made it seem natural.

"michael, get over it. it has already happened, she's safe now and the job was done. what's the point in arguing about it?" he stood up and walked to the window next to his desk and looked out at the busy night streets of manhattan.

"the point? well, except for forcing an innocent girl do your filthy jobs, you chose this particular one." i grabbed my hair and pulled slightly out of frustration.

"she owed me. she paid me." he shrugged and i moved next to him.

"you don't understand, do you? i care a whole fucking lot about sam, matthew." i called him by his name which shocked us both. "i'm done here, with you and with this gang." i walked away in fear that i would hurt him. "i don't give a shit if you want me thrown out of the university or if you leave me sleeping on the streets, as long as you stay away from sam. i just want you out of my life. the father-son thing didn't work as many times as i've tried. you'll always be a soulless bastard."

"michael, no-" i sensed a hint of hurt on his face, but then again that's probably what i wanted to see. this man did not have feelings.

"don't you ever talk to me again." i spat and, just like i had done when i entered, i burst out of the office.

what intrigued me, as i was walking away, was the man running in his office in a hurry.

"sir, the bomb exploded. there is a problem though. patterson wasn't there." the man said.

"god damn it. this bastard is smart." my father said and i couldn't help but interfere.

"what bomb?" i turned around and asked the two men.

"the one that your girlfriend passed on." my father raised his eyebrow testing me, knowing that he had the ability to make me angry.

"you made sam carry a fucking bomb? you're a sick fuck!" i yelled at him while i was strolling back to where he was standing. "she could have been dead."

"do you think i care? that is the reason why i didn't send one of my men, michael." he stopped talking when my fist met his cheekbone.

he stepped back, almost losing his balance. "that was for sam," i said and licked my lips. my fist rose again and hit his jaw with all of the force i could muster. "and that was for being a shitty father."

as soon as i stepped out of the house i didn't waste time on calling sam after the 6 missed calls on my phone. "michael are you fucking kidding me? are you okay?" sam started as soon as she picked up the phone. 

"i'm fine baby, i'm okay. i just had an interesting conversation with my father however." i told her and walked down the pathway to exit the property.

"okay, that was a stupid move, you know that, right? please michael, just let it go. it has already happened,  you can't do anything about it." she told me and i'm sure she kept talking, but i couldn't concentrate on her anymore. 

i heard car doors being banged shut and heavy quick steps coming my way. i quickly moved out of the pathway and hid behind the neatly trimmed bushes in hope that they hadn't seen me. sam was asking me if i'm okay, but i couldn't answer. i quickly hung up and put my phone on silent mode.

about ten men were emerging to the house and by the sound of it, they were loading their guns.

i didn't know if i should have turned back then, but now i'm sort of regretting that i didn't even try to save my father. he was doomed from the very moment he decided to live this kind of life. he was always greedy for money, for success, for fame, but all those things got him killed and buried in a shallow pit at a park.

as for me, i'm currently a multi-millionaire college student that lives in the same apartment i had since i moved out of my house. the money that my father had gathered up seemed to be legal and i inherited all of it. the remaining members of the gang, as a lot of them were killed, ran off to save their lives.

sam had a hard time adjusting to the news of my dead father and for a while she was afraid they were coming after her next. however she is now convinced that they won't mess with her.

finishing college will be a whole lot of difficult with our growing business -a record label-, a feisty girlfriend, lots of fights, moving to a huge apartment with sam and of course the heavy studying and useless projects for college.

no matter the difficulties though, i finally got what i yearned for as long as i can remember; a normal life.

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wait, that's it? it's over?

i hoped you enjoyed it. i really appreciate your support guys!