Taking Control

Chapter Two - A Princess Is Born

I was born with a heart of glass, one wrong touch and it shatters bad on October 22nd 2003 at 12:09pm in Lincoln County Council Hospital. My parents were in love with me and my dad was the first one to hold me. I am often told that I was the most wanted and prayed for baby ever, no one had ever been wanted more than I had been. Sometimes I find it funny that my name is Aiden, given that my dad's name is Adrian. I guess it's sweet but it does sound a little bit...much? When I was younger I always kind of assumed we were rich, I mean I got everything I ever wanted so why would I think otherwise? If I asked for it, it was mine. I had everything done for me, I never had to lift a finger or do a chore. I don't fully agree with that upbringing and I will admit, I think at times I have been really entitled and snobby about things. I do know that it was done with only the best intentions, they wanted to spoil me because they loved me so much, I was this perfect little creature in their eyes that came from love. Even little things like if I wanted a magazine, I got it. If I wanted a McDonalds, I got it. I have to admit that even today having just turned 20 years old 4 days before writing this, I struggle with not getting what I want the second I want it. I don't know how to react so sometimes I lash out, which is something I need to work on. The reality was that we weren't rich by any means, I actually come from a very working class family. I'm not trying to sell this as a sob story, we weren't poor by any means, I never went hungry or cold, but I do know that it wasn't easy and we didn't have much money - my mum is a shop assistant and my dad is a bus driver! My dad loves football and so surprisingly for the first year of my life, so did I. I know that's hard to believe because I'm the most girly girl ever, but it is true that for the first year of my life I liked football and Thomas the Tank Engine. Then I watched Dora The Explorer and from then on I was changed forever. I thought she was stunning and I was obsessed with her, I had so many Dora books and teddies and stickers and posters and even a tiny mug which I still have. I loved nursery so much, I had lots of friends and my best friend was a ginger girl called Faith who I haven't seen since I left nursery over 15 years ago which I actually find quite sad, I wonder what she's up to nowadays. I read one of my nursery reports the other day and it spoke about how I went up to a sad little boy, put my around him, and asked him what was up. I think that is the perfect description of my character even today, I have always been extremely kind hearted and sensitive and I just want to love everyone. I'm often told that I have too much love in my heart to possibly give to the entire world. My childlike innocence has never fully gone away but I think that is in part because I am still a child, I mean I literally just turned 20, I'm barely out of school, a week ago I was still in my teenage years! I remember doing a lot of things with my cousin Harriet in my early years. She is a year and a half older than me so she liked to boss me around which now when I look back on it was quite funny! I remember when we would go to Skegness and me and her used to like going on the Bee rollercoaster (side note: me and my best friend Malia went on the bee rollercoaster in Skegness a few months ago and it was my first time on it in over 10 years, it wasn't nearly as good as I remembered.) I also remember my older sister Cassie taking me to Skegness and doing quite a lot with me. She was 16 almost 17 when I was born and so to me she was always a proper adult. My younger sister Angel was born in October 2006 and I loved her at first, I thought she was the sweetest thing. But then it became apparent that I was going to have to compete for attention, so I wasn't too crazy about her after that. It wasn't until I watched Hannah Montana that I properly fell in love with music but I do have a few memories of getting a nursery rhymes CD when I was about 3 and constantly singing them when I was at nursery, even sometimes changing the lyrics to the wheels on the pink bus. I also remember my sisters girlfriend at the time making my mum a copy of Mika's album which she would always play and I was obsessed with, my favourites being Lollipop and Love Today. I don't remember much about my life before I started Primary school, but I do know that I was very loved and very spoiled, something that truly hasn't changed to this day.