The chaos kinda disturbed her for a long time ago,
No people will ever get it when they come and go,
Even the one that stay don't get it 'also the same',
Don't know what to feel, think because always me,
It is always myself met same people different body,
They come took it then gone at the end they're nobody.
She was the little girl that really sensitive, kind and caring,
But they ignored her no matter she is jubilant or wrong,
Then she promised herself to always be there for them,
No one be there for her felt lonely met new another 'them',
She thought they are her sun forever she trust them so much,
She be there for them but ther hurt her much more worst.
The little girl move on, then she was a teenager girl,
She said to herself that she felt nothing in another world,
She smile so friendly but she didn't know herself a lot,
Everybody made fun of her she didn't love to study,
She met a lot of another 'them' again and again she cried,
She focused on study got the title she happy not 'them'
After that everybody left her slowly including herself,
'Them' stayed with her but she cannot do anything but cried,
She realized that she be there for people that don't care at all,
She really lost herself, interest,life purpose, literally nothing,
She hurt herself and put on happiness mask in front of 'them'
She felt like she is nothing and didn't trust anyone at all,
She stayed up felt nothing and wanted to end it all but didn't.
She is now an adult that sensitive, introvert, had trust issue,
She still always stayed up don't feel anything like nothing,
But even she cannot focus and no longer a people pleaser,
She still met another 'them' she felt like she is a cursed,
She tried her best to always stay for herself because she got herself,
Even she is at her lowest life she never give up to be there for herself,
She believed there's someone out there that care about her always,
She's still alive.
