The family wreck

Twelve (edited)

Lorenzo

Our whole world turned upside down in one day. First, we find out that our little sister is still alive, and then we find out we have a little brother too.

This whole thing has been so crazy. Everyone has been doing their own thing, avoiding each other at all costs.

Enzo has been drowning himself in work, not surprising at all. Roman stays out all day and only comes home in the middle of the night.

Esmeray has locked herself in her room and won't come out. I knocked on her door a couple of times throughout the day, but she never answered.

I was at home trying to get to know Theo. At first, he didn't want to do anything with me and was kind of scared, but he was slowly warming up to me. We spent the day watching movies and eating popcorn.

Theo even tried to get Esmeray out of her room, but she wouldn't open the door. She just told us to go away and that she was fine. I hope she is.

Roman came home at 3 in the morning with bruises all over his body yesterday. Nothing new, he does this a lot. I am just worried that one day, he might seriously get hurt.

He doesn't tell anyone where he goes, but I know he goes to underground fighting clubs. It is pretty obvious by the way he comes home.

I went downstairs to get some water, and he stumbled in, so I had to patch him up. Again. He always complains that he doesn't need my help, but I still do it anyway.

I can't even count how many times he came home in the middle of the night, and I had to clean up his wounds.

It's now the next morning, Roman is still sleeping, and Esmeray is still locked up in her room.

I am  currently making breakfast for Theo and me. I am making some chocolate pancakes because Theo likes them.

I still haven't seen Emilio since yesterday morning. He is probably still in his office, neck-deep in work. I don't even think he went to bed last night.

I honestly have no clue what to do with this family anymore. Everyone is falling apart, and it's my job to keep it together. To keep everyone  from falling apart.

In all of this, I don't have time to think about myself or let myself fall apart because my family needs me.

They need me to keep them together and from falling apart, but I don't how to keep them from falling apart.

I don't know how to help them. Only if I knew.

Esmeray

I look at my reflection in the broken bathroom mirror. Blood dripped down my hand on the floor. The scars littered my body from all kinds of pain and suffering I endured.

Each one of the scars tells a different story, and the ones on my arm are the ones that I created.

Every time I looked at them, I used to think of the times I broke. So, I had it all covered up with my tattoos.

Only the scars I created are covered up, but the rest of them are not. They show how strong I have been and I am. They show everything I endured and survived. I am proud to show those scars.

(Her left arm tattoo)

(Right arm tattoo)

I slid down the wall and wrapped my arms around my knees. I dropped my head down and remembered all the happy memories, I had with Mom.

All the times when she cheered me up, made me smile, protected me, made me feel loved and cared for. All those times that I thought no one loved me or wanted me, she was there to prove otherwise, but then she was also taken away from me.

My only support and lifeline was gone. I reminded myself of all those things so I could have the strength it takes to get back up and be there for Theo. To be able to get revenge for her. To make sure that Nevan suffers the most painful and slow death.

I let it all out. Everything, that I have been holding in before getting the courage to get up.

I take a shower and change into a long-sleeved black shirt and grey sweats.

I put on my slippers with socks and walk out of my room. It's been two days since I locked myself in my room.

I haven't seen anyone, not even Theo. He even tried to get me to come out and eat a couple of times, but I just couldn't. I couldn't even face myself, let alone anyone else.

It was around 2 pm, so everyone was either at school or work. I walk downstairs to the kitchen to get some water.

As I walked in, I saw Theo and Lorenzo having some juice. Theo immediately jumped down from the chair and ran to me, engulfing me in a hug.

I picked him up and gave him a hug and kisses on the cheek. He is so adorable. He just made my mood much better.