Loving Lilac (EDITING)

Chapter 4

Hey guys! This chapter means a lot to me and I worked really hard on it so comment what you think! Remember to vote, please! Have a great day! - Morgan
P.S: Picture is Ian Stact.
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Dead. That's all I felt inside. I felt like I was dead.

Sitting on my bathroom floor in the dead of night, silently sobbing. That's what I had been reduced to. Nothingness. The black tiles around me were stained dark red. Blood was flowing freely down my legs and onto the floor.

I was pretty in a weird sort of way. The silence was deafening. I wanted so much to hit an vein but I was too much of a coward to do it.

But we only regret the chances we didn't take in the end and I was going to regret not doing it.

I heard a car pull into the driveway. Probably my dad. My mom stays late at work and screws people for extra money. I accidently walked in on her and some man-whore doing it. Scarred me for life.

I hurried and cleaned up my mess, turning the shower on in the progress to make it look like I was showering. Usually, he believes it.

Thankfully, there was just blood in the bath tub, so I took the nozzle down from its holder and made the water flow over the blood so it went down the drain sooner. 

Blood was still dripping freely down my wrist. I took the first-aid kit from under the sink and used the bandages to stop the bleeding. 

After I heard the master bedroom door shut, I crept out of the bathroom and went to m bedroom, falling soundly asleep.

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I woke up to the blaring, annoyingness of the alarm clock. It was 4:30 and I regretted staying up so late on a weekday.

I went into the hall, grabbed some towels and jogged slightly into the bathroom to shower. It was still wet from last night and had a reddish tint.

 I turned on the shower, waiting impatiently for it was warm enough. When it was, I hopped in and let the steaming hot water travel over my body, taking my worries and regrets with it as the droplets traveled into the drain.

After about 30 minutes, I hopped out and dried off. I looked in the mirror.

My blonde hair fell to my belly button and it was straight. My eyes were surrounded by dark circles and I realized I wanted a change. I don't know where the idea came from but it was for the better.

I pulled out my blow drier, curler and all the make-up I owned. I completely blow-dried my hair and plugged in the curler, waiting for it to heat up. But, before I curled, I dyed. My now pastel purple hair with pink strinks fell mid-back. While waiting for the curler to heat up, I rummage through my closet looking for the perfect outfit.

There. It was a purple simple band-tee and skinny jeans. Much different from my usual apparel of black. I slipped on some purple Converse high-tops to go with it.

I curled my hair. It fell in beautiful ringlets around my face and back.

I didn't want to overdo it on the make-up so I just applied some eye shadow, cover-up, and blush.  

For the final touch, I put on some Falling In Reverse bracelets and looked in the mirror for the final appearance. I looked stunning.

I smiled for what seemed like the first time in forever. I grabbed a Pop tart and my bag and headed out the door.

I made it to school in a matter of minutes. Everyone looked my way. Girls were smiling and guys were winking.

Then, Nicholas and his gang came up to me. I tensed, waiting for the abuse. Instead of abuse, I was greeted with him smiling at me.

"Hey, beautiful. Are you new? Well of course you are! I would know if I saw someone as gorgeous as you here before. So, you want to sit with us at lunch?" he spoke smoothly.

My eyes widened. They thought I was new. A smirk appeared on my face. The only thought that was going threw my mind was revenge.

"Sure, I'd love to." I purred.

He gave me a grin and asked for my schedule and I handed it to him.

"We have all the same classes! You can sit next to me!" he cheered.

"Yay!" I faked the enthusiasm. "Well got to head to class. See you."

He waved as I left.

This revenge wasn't going to be quick. It's going to be planned out and end in his little heart being shattered to bits with me laughing at him.