The Unplanned Marriage

Memories

I woke up at 6 am . I take a shower. And wake everyone up . After everyone had a shower. Preet brought breakfast for everyone as I didn't want to go out . That would just bring more work for me to get ready and all because according to mom the bride can't go out just like that . At almost 9 everyone was done and my makeup artist was here . She took 3 hours to get me ready as a bride . I couldn't breathe properly like this . The fake eyelashes that I didn't want but had to do because according to Riya" varna bride wala look nhi ayega" .( You won't look like a bride ) I was wearing a red kanjivaram Saadi . And the amount of pins she has used god knows how I'm getting out of this tonight . My head was so heavy with all the gajra . The pins she used on my head for bun and then for gajra . My head is already hurting.
At almost 12:30 everything was done and then Riya said ki baraat bahar aa gayi hai. 
We all were seated in the balcony of the room as we can see from here .  At the same time Sahili, Raj , Sagar and Rehan came They were all so excited that I got confused about exactly who was getting married .
"You're looking really pretty" Rehan whispered in my ear .
"Thank you" I replied to him .
No matter what I do I still get those butterflies . I must have lost my mind I'm getting married today .
"Ira actually jiju ko tumse kuch baat karni hai " preet said to me .
( Ira , Insaan wants to talk to you)
"Kaun jiju " I asked her .
"Ishaan jiju " she said like it was the most obvious thing in the world .
"Abhi ? I don't  think ma will allow it ." I make an excuse.
Yes I know I can't run from him forever but I would appreciate the peace at the moment.
" Vo already baher hai .Actually he is not behaving normal " she said almost whispering.
( He is already outside)
"Mai dhekti hu " I said
( I'll go and check)
" Mai saath chalu ? Matlab agar akele miloge toh jyada problem hogi " Rehan suggest
( Should I come with you? It's better than meeting him alone)
"Ha " I said
( Sure)
As I stand in the corridor I can't see him . Maybe he left . But then I saw him sitting on the stairs .
"Tum yahi rukho mai aati hu " I told Rehan .
( U wait here I'll come back)
And he nodded in response. Ishaan does look weird . Even his hair is pretty messed maybe baarat ki wajah se hoge.
"Kya hua " I asked him .
( What's wrong?)
"Aagayee tum " he said and got up .
( Ohh Ur finally here)
As he got up I didn't know why but I  suddenly didn't feel safe anymore so I stepped  back and looked at Rehan he was standing at the same place looking at me concerned.
"Yeh yahan bhi aagaya?" He asked looking at Rehan . As he said that he took a step forward and took a step back .
( He is here already?)
"Shaadi hai ajj sab friends aye hai " I replied to him .
( It's my wedding of course my friends are here)
"Aur kitne ladke room hai tumhare?"He asked and his voice slightly raised.
( How many more boys are there in your room?)
And as he said  Rehan came beside me in a second but I realised a little late that he was drunk . Ishaan was completely drunk and unknowingly I took a step towards Rehan and held his hand . Rehan looked at me asking what was wrong but I couldn't reply .
My brain has stopped working. My heartbeat got a bit faster as I remember him . My dad . In childhood he always used to get drunk and came home late . He used to beat mom and my brother for no reason. I suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe. Everything seems to be so fresh in my memory. The way he walked in the room after shutting the door loudly so everyone would know that he is here.  The things he used to break as soon as he entered. Once I came in between when he was beating my mom and he slapped  my hand away so hard that it hit the mirror behind and  broke the mirror . I had 12 stitches on my hand that day . I still have the scares of it .
Rehan was calling me I can hear it but I can't do anything. It felt like my heart had stopped beating . I can't breathe. I heard Rehan calling me and he hugged me tightly. 
After some time I started breathing normally. That's not the first time I had an anxiety attack. I see Vansh Bhai coming towards me. He hugged me tightly as he knew exactly what I was scared of . Then he took me to my room and no one was here . He made me sit on the chair . We both were looking at each other silently.
"Here " Rehan came and offered me water . Chugging the whole bottle. I finally calmed down a little bit .
"I'll tell ma . Yeh shaadi nhi hogi " Vansh Bhai said after a minute.
( I'll talk to mom . This wedding is not happening)
I hold his hand "nhi aap essa kuch nhi bologe " I requested him
( U won't say anything to mom)
"Even you know ki agar yeh shaadi ab cancel huye toh baadme bhot problem hogi .
Aur mujhe ma ko aur problems nhi dene ." I replied to him .
( U know that if this wedding gets cancelled now there will be so many issues and I don't want to trouble her anymore)
"Esliye tum usse shaadi nhi kar sakti . Even ma ko bhi essa nhi lagega once I told her everything " he said
( This is not a reason to marry him She'll say the same once I tell her everything)
"Aap ma ko kuch nhi batoge aur Ishaan ne kuch nhi kiya hai . He just had a drink and humare liye yeh normal nhi hai but bakiyo ke liye it's normal Bhai. " I tried to make him  understand.
( Ur not saying anything to mom. And Ishaan didn't do anything. It's not normal for us but for other people it's normal to drink )
"So mai wait karu usske haath uthane ka ?
Tab Tak tum bhi ma ki tarah helpless ho jaogi Ira . Jese voh nhi chod paye unhe vese tum bhi nhi chod paogi . I can't see you going through that again Ira."He said loudly.
( So should I wait till he raised his hand on you ? U will be helpless till then . And just like mom u won't be able to leave him)
I know after the things we went from it's really hard for us but I can't cancel the marriage. No matter what people say but agar ek baar kisi ladki ki shaadi tut jaati hai no matter kiski galti se but blame ladki pe hi hoga . Aur ma ke already sare paise kharch ho gaye hai . Vapis vo yeh sab nhi kar sakti. I can't back out now .
( No matter what people say once a girls wedding is cancelled no matter whose fault it is she'll be the one to get blamed. And mom has already spent everything on this wedding. I can't back out )
"Bhai please" I said to him .  I know that I shouldn't get married to him I know what he is trying to tell me but ma ? I can't make her go to this again . Agar shaadi nhi huye toh vo retired nhi ho sakti she again has to work . It's easier for me to get married than  hurting her .
He angrily left the room . I stared at the door not sure what I'm supposed to do.
"You okay ? Rehan asked. He was right beside me on his knees the whole time.
"Not really" I replied.
"Tum usse shaadi karne ka shoch bhi kaise sakti ho ess sab ke baad?" He asked me
( How can you think about getting married to him after what happened)
"Mai back out nhi kar sakti Rehan . I can't do that to my mother." I said to him and I couldn't hold my tears anymore .
( I can't back out Rehan . I can't do that to my mother)
I started crying. He held my hand and tried to calm me down .
"Agar baat bs shaadi ki hai toh Marry me Ira." He said holding my hand staring at me .
( If it's only about getting married then Marry me Ira )

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How was the chapter 👀 . Please let me know if you have any suggestions through comments. Btw how is preparation of diwali going at your home? I'm tired of cleaning my home . 😪