Man In Love (남자가 살랑할 때): A Kim Myungsoo Fanfic

Chapter 12

(A/N): heyoo guys this is the most fun chapter in my opinion for myself to write ㅋㅋ i hope i made some of you cry although the crying skills haven't reached me yet😂 ah yes and sneak peak... i'm writing a Jungkook fanfic rn ><"
enjoy the book! you're halfway already:-)
(btw this is random but this book doesn't have anything to do with Super Junior)
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Myungsoo was back at the Centre the next day. He played the whole day's agenda in his head. What did Soo Jung plan out for him? Or rather, what was he going to do? A confession maybe?

He walked to the bench where he knew Soo Jung would be sitting. To his dismay, she was not there.

"Yah, Soo Jung, stop hiding. You know I hate jump scares," Myungsoo said to no one in particular. There was silence. Where could Soo Jung possibly be hiding? Myungsoo decided to find Soo Jung as he braced himself for the scare. Soo Jung could jump out from anywhere at any moment. Myungsoo walked around the garden and after a few minutes, he found himself at the stone steps he kissed Soo Jung yesterday and found a mini treasure chest.

He immediately knew it was Soo Jung's. No one went to this isolated garden other than the two of them. Moreover, he dis not remember seeing it yesterday.

Slowly, stealthily, he approached the stone steps. Other than the thumping of his footsteps, there was also the sound of his thumping heartbeat. Once he reached the stone steps and had the chest on his lap, Soo Jung still had not come out yet.

Myungsoo wanted to open the chest desperately but there was a lock. He fiddled with it for a while, until he realised that the lock was actually a broken one. "Aish pabo," he mumbled under his breath. He opened the chest and found a folded note and a necklace. No wonder it was so light, it practically weighed a feather. Myungsoo examined the note first. Probably Soo Jung's hidden ex-boyfriend's note to her?

The note was written in clumsy handwriting. He immediately realised that the whole box belonged to him as the note was addressed to him.

Myungsoo oppa,
I don't know if you will ever find this but still, this is for you. Mianhae oppa, I'm not in the Centre anymore. I decided to go for eye operation, you probably won't see me for a year or two and I'm not going to tell you where I'm going. Chongmael mianhae oppa, but ever since you came into my life, ever since you shared your past with me, I decided that I needed to get my eyesight back. I need to see you, oppa. I want to see you.

I thought the Centre would be my prison, my confinement, until the day I die. I did not wish to go back to my family. It will only remind me of the scars which taunted me in the past. I led my life miserably, alone, daydreaming, until you came into my life.

You may be wondering how I managed to write this note. I wasn't born blind, oppa. I wasn't. I can write but I can't see what's in front of me so I hope that my handwriting is legible enough. Oppa, although I'm gone, stay happy oppa. I'm sorry that I have never told you this before I was gone but I like you oppa. And when I come back, please tell me how you led your life everyday without me.

Wait for me oppa, I'll be back.

-Soo Jung

"No," he mumbled under his breath, tears streaming down his cheeks. "Where are you?"

In his hand, he clutched the note she had written for him. He knew that she made a huge effort to write such a long note for him without being able to see what was actually in front of her. The clumsy handwriting, the crooked lines, he didn't mind it at all.

If only he had been there earlier.

If only he spent the earlier part of the day with her.

Then, he wouldn't have been so heartbroken.

He thought of the happy times they had together. They did not have many memories together. He could do anything else but not what she asked him to do which she wrote in the note, which was to be happy.

His heart ached so badly, it was beating so fast that he could practically hear it in his own ears. Would she really come back for him? Was she really telling the truth? His tears continued strolling down his cheeks as he collapsed onto the ground, her note still in his hand, with only one thought in mind.

Soo Jung, come back.

Myungsoo knew that Soo Jung was gone to get her sight back but he wanted so desperately for her not to go. At least, tell him the details of where she was going so that he could be by her side during the worst times.

Myungsoo looked back into the chest. There lay a golden necklace with a heart and initials engraved on it: SJ. He knew it stood for Soo Jung. He immediately wore it and mumbled to himself, "Soo Jung, I will wear this until you come back. It doesn't matter if I will wear it my whole life."

He closed his eyes as he let the tears fall. All he could feel was the emptiness all around him.