Hiding the truth: brothers bsf

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TW: panic attack and mention of it.

as we are walking through the lobby i cant help but feel eyes on me. i look up at asher and he's looking straight ahead, then at me before smiling. But i still feel eyes on me. i turn my head to look behind me and see a boy from my school staring at me, he looks like hes probably a freshman. i turn back and pull ashers hand towards me, i put my hand on the back of his neck and kiss him. he wraps his hands around my waist and kisses me back. i pull away and smile at him "just letting the freshman know im yours" i whisper into his ear. he slides his hand to my ass instantly and pulls my waist towards him in jealousy. "im guessing its the guy staring at us" he whispers through his teeth back to me. "probably, but calm down im only interested in you" i say kissing him again. he glares behind me before turning around and sliding his hand up to my lower back. he walks forward and i do too.

later that day at 9:30pm

"i dont know what the fuck you want me to do" i hear the people in the room next to me arguing. i get out of bed and slowly walk to the door, i open it and walk out quietly closing it behind me. i walk down to ash's room and softly knock on the door. i hear movement before the door opens to reveal ash towering over me. im wearing his shirt and some pj shorts. "whats up baby" he says slipping out into the hall way, "the people next door to my room are fighting" i say walking up to hug him "its difficult to sleep in there".

i walk up to him with tears in my eyes and my breathing turns heavy and shallow at the same time, it feels like my throat is closing up. i take deep breaths as i go into panic, I've had panic attacks since i was a kid but i learnt to control them, shouting is just a trigger. "Maisy follow my breathing, don't concentrate on anything else" i look up at him with tears streaming down my face. i listen to his breathing and copy him. i calm down a little bit and ash lift my hand from my side and brings it to his face placing it softly on his cheek. he starts kissing my palm and down my arm pulling my closer, he kisses my lips and the heat of his breath hits my skin. "why dont we go get some fresh air" he says pulling away from my face and kissing my neck. "i'd like that" i say with a sharp inhale.

ash went into his room and got some sandles for us "i brought these with me just in case we wanted to go on a walk at night" he says handing me a pair of white sandles. "thank you, that was smart thinking" i say with a small laugh. we put the shoes on and walked towards the stairs so we could leave through the exit. as we walk out the door i look up at the sky and take in the fresh air and the stars filling the sky. "the stars remind me of us" i say quietly "really? how so?" he says curiously. "theres so many people in the world, and some how we ended up together, its like we were made for each other" i say looking at him after. he walks up to me and places his hands on my waist "we are made for eachother thats why" he says with a wink. "i need you." i say desperately. "i thought you didnt want to do this on the trip?" he says with a smirk. "i don't care what i said. i love you too much to care" i say rushed "ok then lets go to the beach" he suggests.

we walk to the beach and find a small closed off area, its beautiful with the reflection of the moon on the water. ash walks up behind me and places one arm across my chest with the other sliding down to my shorts. he touches me and i turn around "im finally ready to do what i wanted to before" i say pulling him into a heated kiss. "mMmm" he groans, i hold his hair in a ball and softly pull it causing him to moan.

we lower down to the floor and i put my legs on either side of him. rocking my hips back and forth. "shit maisy just like that" he says dropping his head back. i kiss down his neck and leave a hickey at the base of his neck. "did you bring anything with you" i ask "shit no i didnt" he says in a sad tone "dont worry i came prepared" i say pulling one out my bra. he smirks and leans back onto his elbows. "can i?" i say holding the rim of his trousers "yes 100% yes" he says now hes being desperate. i pull down his trousers just enough for it to show. i open the protection and put it on him. i put my fingers in his mouth and pull them out. i pull my shorts to the side and rub my self. i lean forward and kiss him slowly lowering myself onto him at the same time. i slowly bounce up and down to adjust to it and the go quicker and quicker until we are both moaning like crazy.

i finish first and dont stop until hes finished too. "oh my god mai that was amazing." he says taking the condom off. "there's more where that came from" i say with a wink.

we get back to the hotel and stand outside his room. he wraps his arms around me "do you wanna come sleep with me?" he questions "i'd very much like that" i say looking up and smiling at him. he pecks me on the lips before knocking on the door again. his roommate opens it, we walk in "is everyone chill with my girlfriend sleeping in here tonight?" everyone makes a mumble of agreement so i walk over to his bed and climb into it, i get comfortable before he joins me, placing his head on my chest "i love you so fucking much and i cant wait to see what the future holds for us." he whispers into my ear. "i love you more" i say kissing the top of his head.