Escapism

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I mean it's great that me and Grace are talking  again and Cj knows the cause for my panic attacks when someone I don't know touches me but he's been on gurad since I told him last night I mean I cant even walk near guys without him yelling at them to move out the way and not to go near me or even breath near me I get that he's trying to help me but he's kinda annoying me at this point like I get he want's the best for me but damn tone it down a bit I was fine before I can be fine now I don't need his protection.

' Hey Cj you know I'm ok right and you doing this is just annoying me please stop before you get yourself in trouble'' I just wish Grace would stop her boyfriend but I guess even she can't talk him out of this or else he wouldn't be doing it'' I'm sorry princess I'm just trying to help you feel safe and not have panice attacks but I'll stop if that makes you feel better'' now I feel bad and like shit because he was just acting like a good friend and an overprotective brother so I guess I could cut him some slack'' No it's ok just don't do is at school you can do it when we go out because I have social anxiety so that would make me safe'' god  when I said that you should see the look on his face he was like a kid who got their first gift from santa and now I don't feel bad for being annoyed at him and he feels like he's doing a great job at protecting me.

'' So umm Grace we only have one week before we go out for summer break what are your plans'' I know my plans are to go home and read my books or I might go to Graces house for a couple weeks to just relax'' Well me and your bodyguard here was planning to fly out to meet his dad side of family In France'' ''Ummm oh ok'' at least they have plans.

I want to go too but I know my mom is gonna give me hell about not seeig me for so long and she wants to see her baby plus they are going to meet Cj's dad family I can't go and mess that up now can I so back to plan A stay in my room and read maybe draw or start painting too'' Princess what are your plans you could come along with us you know'' that was good offer but I could never go''She's gonna stay home and read that's what she's gonna do babe like how we are not gonna be here thats is going to be her life until we get back'' you know this why I love Grace she knows me so well and I'm gonna miss these crackheads that always makes me feel safe and happy but it's summer break so I can survive''Thanks for asking me to tag along Cj but I could never plus my mom would say no because she haven't seen me in awhile and she wants to spend time with me so I cant come with you guys plus I have a lot of books at home to read''. '

''Hey babydoll we still need to have that talk so when I get back we'll talk ok'' damn I really whised he would forget abot that just my luck to know he would never forget'' Yeah I remember my sugarplum let's get going Grace we have class bye bye Cj''.