Escapism

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No, No, No please not again I just want to go back to my good dream why here why does this always happen when I'm happy. I was my nightmares again playing over and over again in my head watching what happened to watching my uncle die watch how I coudn't protect myself from that disgusting man and I could hear my screaming but they weren't from me so I taught until I heard a voice calling out my name calling for me to wake up they are trying to save me from this hell " Baby wake up wake up it's mom get up love" it was my mom looks like she was trying to wake me and I was doing my best to follow her voice " Mom Mom where are you Mom Mom can you hear me" I was calling out to her in hopes she can hear me " Sweetie wake up mom can hear you it just a bad dream baby follow mommies voice and wake up" so I did what I was told and followed her voice to which I woke u coverd in sweat and tears with my mom looking at me tears running down her face and she looked so heartbroken.

" Mom are you ok"  well done you stupid girl if you saw your daughter how my mom saw would you be ok " Look mom I'm ok it was just a bad dream nothing more" and the moment I said that I regretted it " You call that nothing you screaming and crying for help you were even scratching at your skin what's going on" damn it she saw all that huh and I really don't wanna talk to her about all that happened because she still doesn't know about what happened to me when she sent me away " Well are you gonna tell me or just look at me all morning" I have to come up with a good lie that she will believe something that will get her off my back for a few day's " Umm nothing too serious mom I dreamed I was kidnapped and put a cage full of bugs and it made my skin crawl I didn't know I was screaming mom I'm sorry" the look on her face said she didn't believe me but she sucked up my lie got up to leave then she said to me " Why won't you let me in I'm your mother"  and with that she left my room.

I looked over at my bed side table to see the time and noticed it was 4 in the morning and I won't be able to go back to sleep anytime soon so I got up and went to get myself a snack and drink so that I can have them to eat and drink while I read my book because if I don't distract myself I will do something I regret and now is not the time for that I do wish I could call Grace but the time zones are different so I got to put on my big girl undies and sit this one out alone lets just hope my book can take my mind off my nightmare. I don't always get what I want huh I was hoping to go back to my dream land but hey life's a bitch and she's out to get like what the fuck did I ever do to her in my past life for my life now to be this shit show it's like she's out for the kill and I'm the prey well guess what lie I will find away to survive and you can't and won't stop me.

It was about 7 in the morning when I felt the sleep kicking in I was so caught up in the book that for a while now I was fighting the sleep I am reading Twisted
Love this book got me in a chokehold there are alots of time I forget to do things because of this book its one of my favourite book from the Twisted Series
I love dark romance books sometimes I even daydream about me being in a dark romance book where I'm the girl the Mafia guy saves and train to be a bad ass and then we get together and be the worlds most feared couple God that shit is my Roman empire but now I'm very sleepy so I'm going to get a nap now because when I felt sleepy it was 7 but I needed to read more of this book because its so good and now it 8:30 am which I think my mom will sheck on me soon because I heard her wake not too long ago so off to bed in hopes of sleeping in peace.