Anything for our Lord

~ Chapter 22 ~

⚠Tigger warning: Rape - This is the only warning. Be careful.⚠

Toys everywhere. The entrance looked like an absolute mess. From somewhere in the house we could hear two men argue. I could make out that it was Nathaniel and Lawrence. Lucian came to us and greeted us, "My lords. I am so happy to have you two back in the house. We have some troubles with the lady. She, as you may notice, created an absolute mess around the whole house. There was a slight disagreement with Lawrence and she was enraged too much about it..We have tried to calm her down but that was impossible." I asked, "Where is she?" Lucian answered, "In her room." Alexander sighed. I spoke up, "I will deal with it." Quickly I went to her room. She was throwing stuff around. I barked, "Stop that!" She was all the sudden frightened. Never before have I had raised my voice towards her. I explained, "This behaviour is unacceptable, and the only punishment, that would be fitting for it, is that you tidy the house. Either you do that or your toys will be thrown out." She started to have tears in her eyes but did as she was told. I left her on her own and returned to Alexander who was in his office. Alexander asked, "Have you dealt with it?" I nodded, "Yes. I just hope that I was not too harsh on her." Alexander comforted me, "Oh, love. She was knows better than to behave like this. I have made her tidy it all up so many times. But I have NEVER raised my voice against her. Do not do that every again!" I responded, "I am sorry. I shouldn't have done that." He stood up and caressed my cheek, "Love. It is fine. She will get over it quickly." When he whipped some tears away, I noticed that I was crying. I hugged him and whispered, "Do not forgive me, please." He replied, "I already did. She has to learn somehow." Alexander then broke away from me and continued working. I decided to grab one of his books and started reading it on the couch. After a few hours a little silhouette entered the room. It was Adelaide. She had tears running down her face and said, "I did it! Please don't be mad at me! I am sorry!" I placed the book besides me and opened my arms towards her. She quickly ran into them and was quickly taken into a hug by me. I knew exactly that she felt awful about it all. There was a chance that she was not only upset because of my tone but maybe that she was treated like this by her biological father. I whispered, "It is alright, love. You did well. Good job. Just please do not make such a mess next time you get. I am sorry for yelling at you." She replied whispering, "It is fine." Alexander asked, "Is everything alright, Adelaide?" She answered, "I don't know..." When I pulled her a little away from me to see her face, I saw that she had a sad facial expression. I whispered, "If you think that I don't love you, I have to disappoint you. I do love you so so much. Never before have I met such an adorable little girl." Her sad face turned into a smile. She cheered, "Yay! You love me!" Alexander laughed, "He does?" She ran towards Alexander and answered, "Yes, daddy. He loves me." With that she decided to run out of the office. Alexander laughed, "Oh, love. That was quite adorable." I replied, "Well. That was Adelaide, so it had to be adorable." He laughed more and responded, "Oh that is true, but I was more talking about the situation, love." I explained, "Well without her it would have not been the same." When I returned to the book, Alexander asked, "What are you reading?" I answered, "Oh. Eh. I do not know. I just picked a book from the shelve without looking. Sorry. It is Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens." Alexander sighed, "I thought I gave that book away to be honest. Nothing against the author but it is not quite something I like." I declared, "I do not care. I want to read it now. So shush, love." He laughed before returning to his work. Some time passed my eyelids started to feel heavy. When I closed them for a moment, I seemed to have fallen asleep. When I opened them again, I was in a forest. I remembered these woods. They were the woods that were in the old territory of my parents. I looked down on myself. The clothes that I was wearing were some simple brown pants and a linen shirt. I was barefoot. My hair was long and reached my elbows. I haven't had this long hair for ages. Suddenly I heard some rustling in the bushes. I knew what was about to happen. Quickly, I ran away from those bushes. It had been a while since I had this memory. This was a day I wished to forget. I was eleven at the time when a strange man decided to take my innocent. There were footsteps behind me. I ran between the trees switching sides on every passed tree. Just before I knew it, I was picked up and thrown against the ground. The man was a middle aged man with short brown hair and brown eyes. He also had a beard and was wearing some noble men clothes. His facial expression seemed lustful and vile. He had made up his mind on taking the innocents of a child. From far away I could have passed as a girl but when he was this close he noticed rather quickly that I was a boy.  He got mad and slapped me across the face before screaming at me, "You fucking bastard! You are no girl!" I muttered, "I-I am s-sorry. Please forgive me, sir." He replied angrily, "For that you have to please me, bastard." I took a quick look around. No one was near us. Why should it have been different this time? It was just a memory. No one was even close to save me. My father was dealing with some official business and my mother accompanied him. Maximillian was training and before I went into the woods we had a fight. I asked to be left alone by the pack members that were supposed to keep me safe. Every single time I remembered what happened I wished that I wouldn't have done that. The man ripped the clothes of my body. I cried, "Please don't!" He carefully took his clothes off while he said, "Shut your mouth, bastard." When he was undressed, he grabbed my body and forcefully entered it. I cried, "Stop! Please! Stop!" Tears were running down my face and I was trying to free myself, but he was much stronger than me. More tears were rushing down my face. I pleaded, "Please! Stop! I am sorry! Please! No!" He screamed, "Shut up!" After what felt like an eternity of this abuse he finally stopped and clothed himself. Then he pushed me one last time to the ground before he left. I have never seen the man ever again but I still remembered his face so clearly like it happened yesterday. After I had put on what was left from my clothes I quickly ran towards the castle that we were living in at the time. On my way to my room I was noticed by the beta of the pack who followed me to my room. He asked me, "What happend, my lord?" I stayed silence and tried to change, but he stopped me, "Sebastian. What happend? Did someone hurt you?" I muttered, "I do not want to talk about it." He started to say, "Did someone....never mind. If you want to talk about, I am here for you." I cried even more and hugged him. He was surprised by it but put his arms around me and comforted me, "Everything is going to be alright. You are save now." I blurred out, "There was a man in the forest. He did something to me." The beta broke away from me to look me into the eyes before asking, "What direction?" I answered, "South." He petted my head before he left quickly. Come to think of it. He probably had found the man and killed him right away. I sat at the windowsill crying for what felt like hours. My mother came inside and looked worried, "Love! Are you alright?" I ran into her arms. She cuddled with me and sang me to sleep. As I fell asleep in the memory or dream, I awoke in the real world again. I had tears rushing down my face. No longer was I the little boy who got his innocent taken away, but somewhere I still was. Alexander looked up from his work and asked, "Why are you crying, love?" I answered quickly, "I just had a nightmare but it is fine." With that I quickly left the room. There was no chance that he would just take that as the answer and I did not want to explain myself. On my way to the bedroom I crossed paths with Nathaniel who immediately asked me, "What is wrong?" I answered, "It is nothing." He replied, "If you are crying then it can't be nothing. You just do not want to talk about it and it is fine. If you need someone to talk to, everyone has an ear just for you. Now take a rest. You and the lord did have a long day." I smiled shortly and went to the bedroom. Quickly I changed and laid down. It was weird to fall asleep without him by my side. I got pulled out of my sleep one more time when something entered the bed. It was Alexander. He seemed exhausted from all the work he did but also worried. His arms wrapped around me immediately and he whispered, "I love you, love." With that he fell asleep quickly. He did not even have the chance of trying to ask me about what wrong was. His body cuddled closer to mine and his hair fell into his face. He seemed so peaceful. I wrapped my arms and leg around him. Just after a short while I fell asleep again. Quickly I was transported back to memory lane.