Anything for our Lord

~ Chapter 25 ~

After a few hours they were finally done. Alexander and I left to go back home. I said, "The sun is going to be risen, when we arrive." He muttered, "Oh. I forgot about that." Quickly I stood up and sat down right next to him. There I placed my head against his shoulder and took his hand. He asked whispering, "What do you think you are doing here, love?" I answered, "Protect my love." Suddenly I felt his other hand caressing my cheek and moving some of my hair out of my face. He whispered, "How can you be so beautiful? I am falling more and more for you by just seeing you. That hazelnut brown hair of yours is so cutely styled and your sapphire blue eyes. I have never met someone as beautiful as you." I giggled, "You are just flattering me. There is no way that I am as beautiful as you say." He asked, "Have you seen yourself?" I nodded. Then he said, "No you have not! You are so beautiful. More beautiful than anyone else. If there is a god, then you are his finest work. I am not lying to you. I find you as beautiful as I say you are." Quickly I moved so that I was sitting on his lap, facing him. There I asked, "Is that so? Do you want to show me how beautiful I am?" He laughed, "There is mirror in the bathroom. Just take a look yourself." I replied, "Oh. I know...Wait. We had intercourse in front of a mirror, haven't we?" He nodded, "Of course." My hands took his face into them and I asked, "So why do you think I have not seen myself, love?" He answered, "I believe that you were busy with other things during that. There is no way you have seen yourself." His hands caressed my cheeks. Our eyes were locked onto each others. I had the urge to just kiss him. He smiled at me before he kissed me. I kissed him back immediately. Our kiss was passionate and lovingly. His hands moved down to around my hip and held me close, but also safe. When we pulled away, we just stared at each other again. He said softly, "You are so beautiful, love." I replied, "And you are just so perfect overall." This was the moment we arrived back home. Quickly we left the carriage and went to our room. There we both laid down next to each other on the bed and started to cuddle. Alexander laid on his back and had his arm around me. With the hand of the arm that was around me he played with my hair. I had a hand laying on his bare chest and a leg on his hip. My leg was being held captive by his other hand. He was humming a lullaby. I looked up to him and asked, "What are you humming?" His voice answered, "A lullaby from my childhood. When I was sick, my mother often sang it to me. It has a special place in my heart." I replied, "That is so adorable. I have a lullaby too that I treasure." He asked, "Can you sing it to me, love?" I nodded and started to sing it to him. After a short amount of time Alexander fell asleep and I did the same. I was pulled into a memory again. It was one with Freya. We were playing tag and running through the forest. I was the one that was supposed to be catching her at the moment. She ran a bit in front of me. Her light coppery brown hair was flowed in the wind. The little pink bow in her hair did the same. I almost caught up to her when I tripped. My ankle was aching and made it impossible to stand up without help. Freya noticed and came back towards me. There she asked, "Are you alright? Can you stand up?" I shook my head, "No. My ankle hurts. I can't stand up." She replied, "Alright, Seb. I need you to stay calm. I will go get some help." With that she left me. It only took her a few minutes to return with Ewan. Ewan picked me up and brought me back to the castle. A doctor looked at me immediately. Both Ewan and Freya stayed by my side during that. I noticed rather quickly that Freya was staring at Ewan. There were some rumours that she liked him, but Ewan seemed to be not interested at all in her. In a few minutes I was let out again. Ewan helped me get back to my room and sat me down on my bed. He asked, "Are you alright now?" I nodded. One piece of information on Ewan at the time was that he was not turned at that time. He was still human, but that should be changed rather quickly. If my memories served me right, it was the same day as this incident. We talked for what felt like hours. He seemed interested in some aspects of werewolf life. That is where I told him, that the first transformation is the most painful one. He asked, "Does it still hurt after that?" I answered, "Of course. Your bones are being transformed into different kinds of bones, but the pain is over faster. In the first time you turn much slower than usually." One of the pack members came in. It was Conroy, the beta of the pack, who said, "Excuse me, but I need Ewan real fast. There are some things that you would like to see. I am quite sure you do." Ewan asked, "Oh? Is it the pack hunting?" Conroy nodded, "Yes. The duke is taking some of us out. You are allowed to come with us, but you will be sticking with me." I tried to stop him from leaving but he left anyway. Since I did not stop him back then, I could not stop him in my dreams. He was going to be injured during the hunt. One of the pack members attacked him by accident and my father was forced to either let him die or transform him. Ewan agreed on being transformed. To this date my father always has been blaming himself for this tragedy. Ewan never blamed him for it, since he himself agreed to both the hunt and the transformation. After a few minutes of silence Freya entered the room. She daydreamed out loud, "Ewan is such a handsome young man. He is for sure only interested in the most beautiful women, which sadly does not include myself." I responded, "I have heard that he is interested in men, but no one is really quite sure what he is interested in, since he keeps things like this to himself." Freya declared, "I want to lose my virginity to him, and I will tell him that tonight." I laughed, "Good luck, Fre." She hit my arm and said, "He will for sure do that for me." I asked, "And what if he sees you like a sister, since he has grown up as a brother to us?" She sighed, "Then I will stay a virgin forever." I laughed, "I will remind you of that later." Then again I was hit and she barked, "You are a virgin yourself! I am sure you want to lose that soon too." I shook my head, "I am no virgin. I wish, I was." Some flashbacks from the day it happend flashed before my eyes. Her confident facial expression changed into a worried one before she asked, "Since when?" I answered, "Since a man forcefully took it." Quickly she took me into a hug. Before I could do anything else I was pulled out of the dream. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. I cuddled closer to Alexander and just started crying more. His arms wrapped around me and his voice ran through out the room when he asked, "What is wrong?" I muttered, "Nightmare, a nightmare, it was only a dream." He sat up and I did the same. Then he started in my tears filled eyes and caressed my cheek. My head moved more into his hand. He asked, "Do you want to talk about it, love?" I answered, "I do not know if I can." His expression and tone of voice seemed both worried, when he replied, "Try your best. I want to know what bothers you, my love." I told him first about the dream that I just had and then about the day in the forest where my innocent was taken away from me. He listened carefully and comforted me. His soft voice said at the end, "He can not hurt you, love. He probably died a painful death. Men like him never have a happy life." I cried more and put my arms around Alexander, who wrapped his around me immediately, before he whispered, "I am sorry that you had to go through that." Suddenly, it knocked on the door and Lawrence came in. He explained, "I am sorry for entering without getting the go-ahead. There has been a report that Lord Orpheus' underlings that remained have been killed by other vampires. Lord Orpheus was been taken away and was also sentenced to death by the vampires. The reasoning was that he did not let his underlings kill the Sinclair pack." Alexander asked, "Is he still alive?" Lawrence answered, "Yes, but he will be killed by sunrise tonight." Quickly Alexander stood up and got ready. Then he turned to me and said, "I am so sorry, love. I have to deal with that. I will make it up to you." I just nodded with a slight smile. Lawrence and Alexander left together and I was left alone to be in my thoughts again.  It was hard to not fall into the memory lane and just get flashbacks from the man who took my innocent. One thing I have never told about that situation was that I cut my long hair short because of him. I did not want to be abused like that ever again...but yet again, I have become a servant and let my masters abuse me in every way possible. Tears were rushing down my face again. I took the dagger which was hidden under neath the mattress and started to cut into my skin. Blood was running down my arms and tears down my cheeks. My self harming was interrupted by Nathaniel coming in. As soon as he saw me, he ran towards me and took the dagger away. He then took care of my wounds without saying a word. I said coldly, "I could have done that by myself." To that he responded, "Yes, of course, but you would have cut yourself even more before you stopped. The lord is going to be very worried about you. Just stay here for a moment. I will have to get clean sheets and clean the dagger. There is no chance that he will not smell the blood." I just let myself fall to the side to be laying on the bed again and to be in the fetal position. Tears still running down my face. Before Nathaniel returned, I cried myself to sleep again.