04 | talk silence

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—— 2045, 9 july



jo's never been to somewhere bigger than his own home (only have been to yiying's tour a few years before) so it was equally right that he immediately felt small in the room full of blooming and glowing people. he could see a group of the newly adults and teenagers chatter around and laugh when one of their friends did something funny by the refreshment area in the corner of his eye as he swirled the apple juice in his little plastic cup.

he was never the type to make friends nor socialize so he could immediately tell he was out of place or out of the picture.

his parents on the other hand seemed like they enjoyed chatting and catching up with his idol's husband, looking like they were teasing him like good old friends would always do. as he watched them chat, he felt his heart grow resentful at how easily they chatted with the people around them with beaming smiles.

how can people around him feel care-free to talk when he felt like he was placed on eggshells and lego bricks just trying to express gratitude to his own teachers back in high school? how he had to raise his voice to get his opinions out and was always ridiculed for shouting at the teacher and disrespecting them all together.

if they just knew..
if they just saw how much he was struggling to talk..
would they even listen?

"hey, are you not feeling a bit alone?" asked a boy in korean next to him, also swirling what seemed like white wine in his cup instead of apple juice like jo was given because nineteen isn't legal to drink yet in korea.

he never noticed him to begin with— or noticed when the boy next to him appeared. he jumped at first, feeling his heart race and pat quickly against his chest as he stared at the boy like he had just seen a ghost or an angry dog ready to chase him from the corner of the street down to the end of the world because he stepped on his bone (he was thinking of cartoons if you couldn't tell).

"n— no! what makes you— you think i was feeling alone?" he awkwardly laughed it off, feeling his nerves hit him over and over again in his head— shouting at him like he was the biggest fool ever to cease in the world of talkative people.

"well, my boyfriend over there—" he points to a boy who seemed too giddy to notice that one of his friends seemed out of it with the food on his paper plate, "—seems interested to know about you when he heard his dad's friends' over talk about some japanese new kid that joined the fun today. heard it was also your birthday, so happy birthday." he spoke, and jo slightly tilted his head a bit. his head couldn't comprehend some words in korean because his appa never taught him fully, but he could try to understand a bit.

"uh.. thank you for the birthday wish..?"
"just call me sungchan."

is this what people call a conversation? he asked himself.



—— 🐥



the dorkies

taro milk
GUUS
GUYSSS
I WANNA INTRODUCE SOMEONE REAL QUICJ

jihoon
??
who is it shotaro
also where the fuck did sunghoon go

jakey
he mentioned bathroom before we all left?

niki
don't tell me your dad left sunghoon at the party💀

wei
^^

sungchan
i think he just did..

sunghoon
yea
he did

jihoon
HOLY SHIT
LET KE ASK MY DAD TO STOP THE CAR BRO.:

taro milk added chicky jo! to the group.

chicky jo!
??
uh
what is this..

pearl boba
..
why is he speaking in japanese????

bluejay
isn't this the birthday boy from the party just now?

sungchan
yeah

chicky jo!
sorry..
my appa never thought me how to properly spell in korean as i was taught in oral..

taro milk
he said
his appa never thought him how to properly spell in korean since he was taught in speaking only

niki
ican agree that is what he was saying

chicky jo!
sorry again if i cause trouble..

taro milk
oh no worries jo!
it's been a while since i typed or read japanese before
it's perfect for me to practice since i'm meeting my cousins soon in japan!

niki
yep
no worries jo
you're safe with us

bluejay
jo
when niki says you're safe with us
he means us
not him
you're never safe with him

niki
HYUNG
WDYM NOT SAFE WITH ME

chicky jo!
i'm sincerely honored
i had trouble making friends in school you see so i don't know how to socialize well

taro milk
oh no worries!
just let us know when you need help or guidance okay?
just don't listen to niki (^ν^)

niki
HEY
I THOUGHT YOU WERE ON MY SIDE TARO

pearl boba
what's happening

heedeungie!
oh a new person
japanese speaking?

chicky jo!
hi..??
sorry i only know basic spelling

heedeungie!
well hello to you too jo
but now
i'm gonna go get ready to sleep now

foxy
me too
night

niki
NIGHT MY PRECIOUS LOVE
wait
WAIT DONT CLOSE THE OHONE HET SUN

foxy
?

niki
have you eaten yet?
you didn't eat at the party..
and your parents said you said you didn't feel hungry during lunch today

foxy
i'm fine niki
i just don't feel hungry today

niki
sunoo
are you sure?

foxy
yes
now goodnight

chicky jo!
are you sure he's okay?
bcs i noticed he took fake sips of his drink

taro milk
well..
i guess we can ask him tmr morning?
i'm also worried ngl

niki
he hasn't eaten his lunch or dinner for the past week and only has chosen to eat certain foods that are low in calories

jakey
i can check on him in the morning
i live close by so i can knock on his home?

pearl boba
no don't jakey
it's best if we just leave him be
he knows he can trust us when he needs us
just for now
niki

niki
yes

pearl boba
check on him from time to time okay



—— 🍒 author's notes
at first, i didn't plan on making kidults chapters too close to home but my mom ofc made me feel like shit about my weight like alwyas and i guess i need a way to vent it out
bcs kidults is a teen-fiction, i guess i wanted realism out of it and what better way to do it then to have this?
next chapter continues on this bit so be aware of that

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