Failing For You - Gojo x Reader

Chapter 12

Both of my palms are pressed to my eyes as a pace (blindly) around the back room. Everything became way too much all at once and I can't believe my brother picked up on my bullshit so quickly. If I had only come in a few minutes later, he wouldn't have been there...

There's a gentle knock at the door. 

"Y/n?"

I keep pacing, keep rubbing my eyes.

Toji is going to literally kill Sukuna if he ever catches him.

And it's my fault. 

"Y/n, are you okay in there?" Elaine's voice is gentle on the other side of the door.

"I'm fine," I call. "Just...give me a minute to calm down. I'm going to be a raging bitch if I come out right now."

"That's okay if you're a raging bitch," she says. "I locked the door so that no customers can come in. Please just open up."

What is up with people wanting me to open doors for them? Ugh. 

I unlock the door and pull it open to see Elaine standing there, wringing her hands.

"Sorry about that," I say. 

Both of us just stand there. 

"What happened with your ex?" She asks hesitantly. 

I groan, hoping Toji didn't say too much about 'my ex'. 

"I told my brother I was done with him after he did some bad shit to me. But today he showed up at my apartment...and I just...I..." I didn't know how to say it. 

"What happened?" 

I take a deep breath. "I slept with him, Elaine. After all the shit he put me through, I fucking slept with him. I was late for my shift today because I was too busy hooking up with my ex."

She just looks at me with those big eyes of hers. After a moment, she nods. "I see."

"I bet I seem really cool right now," I laugh sadly. I rub a hand over my face.

"Do you love him?" She asks, ignoring my self-deprecating comment. 

I shrug, my voice weak and uncertain. "I could have sworn I didn't. I thought I hated him...I still feel like I hate him. I just...I don't know why I did that."

I'm so embarrassed. 

"Y/n, look at me," Elaine instructs, her voice fierce. My eyes meet hers. "You are going to be okay. You slept with your ex? Whatever. He's a bad guy? Whatever, most exes are. You made a mistake but you don't have to keep making the same mistake, alright?"

My lip wobbles. I want to shrink away into nothing. "Yeah..."

"Did you get back together?"

"No," I say quickly. "No, of course not."

"Then you're on the right track. Don't let him in next time. If you're feeling tempted...call me or something. I'll distract you. We'll go shopping or get food or something," she says forcefully. "You want him because it's easy, it's a habit. You're not a terrible person for falling back on a habit. We all do that. Yours just happens to be your ex."

I nod. Her words are comforting. I think they're exactly what I needed to hear. "Thank you, Elaine."

"You're going to get through this," she says, walking over to rub a hand on my back. I have to force myself not to cry. "Just don't let that brother of yours catch him."

I snort a laugh, rubbing my eyes. "Gosh, yeah. He's terrible, isn't he?"

"He's certainly...something," she laughs.