ENVY YOU

Chapter 6

-Jeonghan pov-

I woke up by the irritating alarm of mine. Can't it wait for my dream to be finished. Like it was a dream where I was having my own castle and me being the prince who was reputed. Then suddenly out of nowhere Seungcheol appeared like a magician as if he had some power and he grabbed me by my waist then he flew away from the big window of the castle. Then he whispered in my ears that 'I can't envy you'. He was going to kiss me on my lips then this fucking alarm woke me up. Just by thinking about that dream make me go even crazier than I am now.

Soon I did my morning routine and knew my mom and dad went to some state for business purposes. But don't anyone dare to have a idea that they don't love me or something. They are the loveliest parents everyone would love to have, they even accepted me for being gay without any other thoughts. They spend most of the time with me chatting. My mom even knows that I have a puppy crush on Seungcheol. I didn't say his name but I said I have crush on handsome boy. She even started squealing when I said that and started chanting 'My baby has grown up' while wiping non-existence tears.

Soon I left my home and walked to school. But I saw unusual thing or should I say human standing near the usual café. It's actually none other than Seungcheol. Now I'm really scared to go inside, and he didn't notice me because his back is facing me. I'm scared to go near him because of the things I did to him in the past, it's haunting me now. But I didn't feel any kind of scariness while giving him chocolate but now it's kind of different. Maybe today I won't have my drink.

I entered the school and went straight to my class and sat on my seat but saw Joshua and Seokmin talking while Seokmin sitting on the bench and Joshua on the desk. I'm sure Seokmin is also joining hands with Joshua for every plan he do. They were the only two in the class before I entered even though they noticed me but they didn't bother to turn around. Well who need attention from traitor's?

I left my boring maths class as soon as it finished. Yes, it is boring class only for today because some external teacher came to teach for what fucking two and half hour straight, inspite of that I love maths.

I left to cafeteria for lunch after finishing my all four classes. I saw Joshua sitting alone in his seat there, so why not have some good chatting with my so called ex-bestfriend. I approached him with big sound full of footsteps and with ofcourse a fake smile which doesn't seems to be fake. And gained his attention on me, he was wearing a shock look on his face and replaced it with the poker face. I pulled the chair which was infront of him and sat there making myself comfortable.

"Hi Joshua, how are you?" I asked him.
"Daring I see. Even after I clearly said that I don't want to be friends with someone selfish. "He said gritting his teeth. "But...but I want to be friends with you again." I said with a fake pout. A little bit of acting wouldn't hurt before bringing up the main topic right?. "Who even want to be friends with someone like you?, I mean you are literally a narcissist." He said it with smug look making my patience reach its end. Me a narcissist? Bitch did you know that you're exactly the same to the word.

"Me? I'm narcissist, wow Joshua then what are you?" I asked him raising my eyebrows. I didn't let him utter a word as I left to buy myself a food and a cold drink as I need it and I don't want to starve in lunch break without having food. Then I came and sat infront of him.

"Joshua, I know that you love Seungcheol, but that doesn't mean you should separate both of us. Ofcourse you knew that I loved him before so you decided to break us apart. Well I'm damn sure that he also had crush on-" He didn't let me finish my sentence. "He don't have a crush on you, Jeonghan" he screamed a bit louder but only got attention of people who were near our table.

"Tsk, feeling jealous right? Because he will never love you" I said with fake sad look on my face. "Then why would he take me on date?" He asked me with smirk. I gulped not knowing what to answer and felt pang on my chest thinking about what they did on their date.

Joshua snapped his finger infront of me making me flinch and waking me up from my thoughts. "Cat got its tongue tied?" He asked me smirking. I remembered the real reason for Seungcheol taking him for a date. Yes!
"You think taking someone's credit is cool?" I asked him smirking. Now it was his turn to be quiet. "What nonsense are you talking about?" He asked with confused look on his face while sipping his drink.

" Well! Joshua Hong, how do you feel after writing your name on the project work I did for him with my hardwork, even though I didn't knew shit about that chemistry activity." I said in a serious tone. I saw him tensing up now. "How do you know?" He asked me nearly stuttering. "It doesn't matter how I know, but remember that Seungcheol will never love you" I said to him. "I will make him fall for me." Joshua said pointing his index finger to himself. So much of yourself Joshua I see.

"But atleast he had a crush on me and when he said he was taking you on a date he was not excited even for a little. He was looking stress as if he was taking some annoying trash bag on a date." I said proudly while chewing on my food.

He didn't answer me and started eating his own lunch but he looked somewhere and I saw him smirking looking at some direction, then I followed his gaze and caught Seungcheol talking to someone. I then looked at Joshua and saw him smirking at me as if he is planning something. I took my drink and started sipping it as I finished my lunch.

I then saw Joshua grab his drink, but the next thing he did made me gasp in shock. He poured the drink on himself, now his hair and dress is totally a mess. Then he started crying. The fuck? Why he did that?. "Why you did this Jeonghan?" Joshua screamed at me. Now what fuck is going on in his mind? Is his crazy? He started what sobbing.

"Joshua! What the fuck happened to you? Who did this?" I was startled by the sudden voice then I looked up to see Seungcheol being furious. "Jeonghan did this to me, Cheol" he said softly while crying. I knew it he was planning something, but not something so evil.

"Why you did this Jeonghan?" Seungcheol gripped my hand strongly and made me get up from the seat forcefully. I winced in pain when he tightened his grip on my hand. "Cheol I didn't do anything, he poured it on himself" I said then my eyes starts brimming with tears when I noticed Seungcheol fuming in anger.

I hoped someone from cafeteria would help me but I guess I was wrong. They were there looking at us as if they have been waiting for this drama to happen. Again I felt my eyes filling with tears but I didn't let it fall, atleast not for now.

"Oh really? Then why the fuck do you have the cup in your hand?" He shouted at me making me flinch. But why the fuck I was holding that cup, fuck!. "Cheol, you are hurting me" I said looking at the place where he is gripping my hand. "I don't care, now answer me why you poured the drink on Joshua?" He shouted at me again.

"Cheol, I was just enjoying my food then he came to me and started saying bad about me then I said sorry to him but he suddenly poured the drink on me and slapped me." He said getting closer to Seungcheol and sobbing on his chest. Wow! what a great acting.

Seungcheol left my hand and wrapped his around Joshua's waist. I shouldn't be jealous right now especially in this situation but I can't help. How badly I want his hand to be wrapped around my waist. 'Jeonghan back to your senses.' I said to myself.

Seungcheol was patting his head with one hand and other caressing Joshua's waist. I can't look at them being like that infront of me, I stared everywhere but them.

Seungcheol slightly pushed him and marched towards me. Then he slapped me hardly infront of everyone. My cheeks started to sting and my tears started to fall from my eyes. His face softened after seeing my tears. "Cheol, believe me I didn't do it." I said while sniffing. "Seungcheol, don't listen to him, he is lying." Joshua said pulling Seungcheol by his shoulder.

"I don't want to see his face, let's go Cheol I want to change my clothes." Joshua said giving me look. Then Seungcheol took him to restroom. I didn't care that I let my tears fall. I'm aware that everyone in the cafeteria are showing me pity. But I don't want them to pity me now. They would have atleast helped instead of being a statue.

I can't help but sob because of the earlier incident. I then took Joshua's and mine plates and cups to wash it while crying. I didn't even imagine that he would do something bad like that to me. Now I know how his sense of humour work. I will definitely not let it slide for Joshua.

I skipped my class as I didn't feel like going. Then I took the permission from the principal that I'm feeling uneasy and have a stomach ache. Ofcourse he let me go home as I'm a top student and I don't ask this kind of excuses often. Then I went to my home and locked myself in my room and started crying even though I don't want to look weak but still I can't help but cry.