Requiem - Michaeng [ENG]

Love Is A Battlefield

Dahyun looked at me with a not very friendly face as I stood up again and straightened the twisted clothes over me. Apparently I wouldn't rest until this conversation was over and I could feel that what she was about to say wouldn't please me at all.

The second I failed to ask for that glass of whiskey during the meeting, I allowed myself to feed into a darkness that would later consume me. It was just a matter of time. I know myself, in fact, I know how persuasive I could be. I felt like a bomb with the timer already set, in a few days I would explode and only God knows what would result from that.

I sighed the defeated air from my lungs, still the result of my quick encounter with Chaeyoung, and looked at the girl in front of me. The crossed arms and expression of a lioness in defense of her cubs. Dahyun is that kind of person, she and Chaeyoung were like sisters and expecting anything less from her reaction would be stupid, even for the most optimistic.

We exchanged glances for a few seconds. I prayed that she could see through my eye sockets the fear and despair I felt without it overwhelming me. I wanted her to realize that I am aware of the weight of my actions, even though I cannot clearly identify them in my faulty and abusive memory. Dahyun sighed as I had done before and untangled her arms, seeking my hand directly to drag me out of the bathroom with her.

I didn't respond, I just kept moving behind her body. My downcast look indicated that something wrong was happening and ended up attracting attention, it was almost like being punished by your mother when you were caught doing something wrong. That was my walk of shame. But I didn't care, not today and not now. I turned my eyes lazily to something besides the feet that alternated quickly in front of me, losing the last of my strength when I came across the shiny ring on my finger.

I felt my body lose balance for a split second with the thump of that feeling of loss back inside me. My eyes blurred for the second time today, but I wouldn't allow the tears to fall. Not because I don't think the situation deserves them, but because if I started, there would be no end in sight or within my control. And this is definitely not something for all these people to witness.

We arrived at the canteen and I only realized it after I was forced to sit in one of the most secluded chairs in the room. Dahyun tried to drag another chair to my side and sat down facing me, almost warning me of what was to come. It was as if her eyes were asking me to apologize for the heat her words would cause me.

- I already know that you will defend her, I will save you the trouble of correcting and reprimanding me. As you can see, I'm already in deep shit because of my actions - I muttered, throwing my hand through my hair and tilting my face to the side, the ring returning to my attention.

- I really want to scold you right now, but I can't - she grunted, scolding herself for the weakness that I was so grateful for at that moment. - First of all, what happened in the bathroom? Why did Chaeyoung leave there shaken like that?

- Because that's how our meetings have turned out lately.

- What do you mean?

- We fought in the bathroom - I lit up my gaze under hers, having to admit what had happened - I tried to talk to her, but I ended up losing control again.

- Are you drunk?

- No?! - I twisted my eyebrows in disbelief.

- Calm down – Dahyun signaled me to speak with gestures - From your face and gestures, I had the right to suspect. But tell me exactly what happened.

- I lost control Dahyun, what else do you want me to say? I tried to kiss her, I tried to tell her I love her, but it wasn't enough and when I disagreed with what she said, we started arguing.