13 Reasons Why ↣ Mystic Falls (Elena Gilbert

vii. Stefan Salvatore

"Have you ever loved someone so much, that it ruins you?  And because of it, your heart breaks, your whole world crashes down. That's the consequence of loving a Salvatore. You love too hard because you want passion and adventure. You want a love that consumes you. And that's what my love for Stefan did, it consumed me until I was no longer my own person. You showed me, Stefan Salvatore, that I won't be this sad girl forever."

Damon was about to say something snarky, on how Elena had plagiarized his words. But decided against it. Now was not the best time, maybe torment his brother about it in a decade or two.

"It was pure bliss. The first few weeks of dating you but then you decided to do the same thing someone else did to me. You messed with me. You messed with me and my feelings. You told me you loved me, yet you were out every other night, sleeping with other girls. Is that what love means to you? Play with feelings. Does it make you feel better, knowing you crushed someone's heart? Because if it does then congratulations. You shattered mine. And then I learned you were a vampire, who's been alive since the 1800's. And when I confronted you, you said nothing, except to ask for me to stop talking. You hung your head and walked away from me, to God knows where. And it hurt me, you promised me, promised me that I would no longer be sad because you would be by my side. And it's hard to breathe sometimes, knowing what you did to me. You promised forever and now I've lost the will to fight because yet, another person betrayed me and took me for granted. But I guess that's just how I am. I trust too easily and I love too fast."

"Holy crap!" Rebekah thought. How much bad luck could the doppelganger have?  And it seems as though this was the only beginning, that there was more coming.

"But I still loved you, as crazy as it sounds. Because even if our love was short-lived, you showed me that I am worth loving, that maybe somewhere in the world, there's someone who loves me. Of course, finding out I was a face of your past was hard on me. You didn't love me because of who I was but who I looked like. And when you left, everyone told me to move on but I couldn't because even though you weren't here, I refused to move on. Because I had found love, and it might have been unrequited, but true love it lives on. Your soul it was haunting me and telling me that everything would be fine but I wished that I was dead. And I know you wished it too, so wish granted Stefan. I hope you're happy now."

"No, I'm not happy." Stefan thought, not daring to say it aloud, that there was more coming.

"Just like you said before, I was weren't designed for this life. I was pure maiden with a pure heart. It's been two years since I was a pure maiden and I never had a pure heart, no one looked closely enough to notice my dark streak. It was always there Stefan, just unused and forgotten. I started noticed it. I learned how to use it. I couldn't be your perfect
lovely love and I tried but I couldn't be what you wanted or what you needed. Then I refused to move on from the man who undermine my strength, my decision, every single time. You chose when to tell me about my parents, and how I survived the car crash. You chose when to let me meet you, even though you'd known who I was for months. You chose when to tell me you were a vampire, and that Damon had been responsible for all the animal attacks. You chose when to tell me when I was adopted. You chose to tell me about how Damon knew my mother Isabell. And you never even told me, about how I was identical to Katherine. I had to find a picture of her on your desk after we slept together. What if I hadn't found that picture. How long would it had been before you told me, yourself, weeks, months, ever."

Stefan was silent, his hands balled into fists at his side. He had a million things to say, but he shot them all down, because he knew, deep down, Elena was right. Those were all of his mistakes. All of his lies. And she had every right to hate him for them.
That there was more coming.

"But you choose how this relationship goes, never considering what I want, what I'm capable of. Never considering that I'm my own, strong person, who can make her own decisions, you just make them for me. I'm not some china doll, Stefan. I'm not going to break. I can handle my own life. But you never let me. And the one time I fought back, when I defended myself against that vampire Noah, you didn't even listen to how I felt. How it felt to finally take charge of a situation. You just patronized me, and chalked it up to adrenaline. You claim to love me, but you don't even know me. You have this perfect image of what you want me to be, but that's not who I am. At least not anymore. I'm not going to act all dainty and defenseless. It isn't 1864, Stefan. If you hadn't realized, women can even vote."

"And even now, but I already know that I will never stop caring whether you live or die or if you're sad or happy. But I really wish I didn't. I really wish I hated you because that's the worst part loving someone I don't trust and I don't think I ever will."

Then it cuts back to silence and the Scooby Gang caused chills upon in their seats, deep breaths were taken by many, and Stefan sigh filled with guilt. He ruined her and her reputation. He stood up and went towards the bar and get something to drink.

Still seated around the table, the gang prepared themselves for the next chapter.