BLUE SLIVER LOVE (Soul Land 1) •Rewrite•

PROLOGUE

Dear Lixue,

                         

                            My sweet little boy. I am well aware of the possibility that you will not have any distinctive memory of me and that's fine. It's probably for the best. You don't have to dwell too much on that because It's not of importance.

                        I am guessing that if you have gotten your hands on this letter then that could only mean one thing.

                        Xiaogang has probably told you a few things about you past and You are in a very difficult place. A crossroad of confusion no doubt. You have reached that point in your life where all hope seems lost and you have given up on moving on. You feel as if everything is crumbling down,an ocean of emotions that seem to drown you with its massive wave.

                        Suffocated. It's all too much for you to handle,I know. How? Well that's because just like you I have also been in such a place.

                         You are hurting and I can understand that. Trust me Lixue I truly can but I beg of you not to lose yourself to despair. You have to find the strength to stand up once more and overcome the obstacles which stand in your way.

                       Mistakes are normal to make and believe me when I say that I know very well what I am talking about. In life you will learn that you will have to make decisions,tough calls with which you have to settle for whatever the consequences may be. I had to make such a decision many years ago and I still face the repercussions of my choices till this very day.

                         If there was anything I could do to change what had happened all those years ago then believe me Lixue, that I would have done it in a heartbeat.

                          I had lived for eons yet knew nothing about the world that had slowly began to corrupt itself. The glorious utopia which my people had longed for was now endangered by the ones known as Soul Masters.

                       They were a virus, ruining everything in sight. Their greed for power left everyone and everything at their mercy. Bloodshed and the destruction of life seemed to be there goal. There was Chaos in every part of the world and because of this we were no longer safe.

                         It is true that our kind are unmatched in terms of power, most feared us because of the sheer might of our strength but we were also a  very passive kind. An elusive species which always wanted peace to reign.

Because of our nonviolent nature we were always on the defensive. Never being the ones to throw the first blow. We did not wish for animosity and devastation and we probably never will and that was because that was not the 'Ling Clan' way.

                         I was no different in the aspect of our people's philosophies but I still believed that something could be done. I thought I could stop what was happening in the world. I really believe that I could make a difference by showing that humans didn't need to cause so much discord just for the mere sake and the unsatisfiable need of power which they sort.

                        Naive..... foolish even,was I for thinking that I could make such a noticable difference in the decaying world. I was nothing but a child whom had his head in the clouds way too often. I flew too high and unfortunately had his wings clipped and crashing down from my high pedestal I came with the scars of my ignorance forever engraved on my skin,a constant reminder that I had lost everything just for a lost cause.

                          I made a huge mistake. I trusted someone I shouldn't have and because of that one mess up a lot of people got hurt. I had failed and all that because I was gullible and prideful. I never should have allowed him into my heart,I know that now, but by the time I had realized it then it was already too late.

                          Captured, tortured and betrayed by him, a person I had learned to love. I didn't know that my heart could feel such pain.

                             It felt like a flame which burned from the inside, deep in the core of my chest that made me wish that my heart would stop beating.

                           Life had treated me well enough as I had found great companions and even a kind such as myself yet I had taken it all for granted.

                            I did not know the value of what I had been given until it was taken away. I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for what had happened to them,my friends. It was all my fault.

                              An empty shell of myself was all of what remained after. Bounded with chains and violated, my emotions and desperation made bare for all to see and the culprit of my misery...... a man I hope you never have the displeasure of meeting. To even refer to him as such will be an insult to the men of the world. No! He was not a man or even a proper human being. He was nothing but a monster. Stone hearted and evil.

                               But even with all that I have been through I will never want to change a single thing if it meant having you as my son. You are the ray of hope that came into my life after so long in the dark. You gave me a renewed reason to live. Bringing you into this world is the best thing that has happened in my life.

                              I wish that I had more time but this will have to do. I want you to know one thing my sweet angel. It doesn't matter how you came to be for I will always love you, now and forever more. Do not allow the darkness to seep in and always hang on to your anchor. Love, true love is real and I sincerely hope with all my heart that someday you will be able to find yours.

                                              

             
                                                           Goodbye,
                                                       My white prince.